I just wanted to update this before I forget.

I called this counseling center and they suggested a support group for woman with Post Abortion Stress Syndrome (PASS). Turns out that there are millions of other people of all ages that are dealing with this "depression" (long story, but it's kind of not a real type of depression. idk). Anyways, I met a girl the same age that also works at a church. We have been talking on the phone and texting and stuff for a week straight. She's my little healing buddy haha.

Also, be both agree that when we both get to the point of acceptance, we'll tell our parents together. That way if they freak out and disown us, we can make plans to get together and always be there for each other.

Anyways, this is resolved and I feel bad that I didn't take your guys' advise. But still thank you for reading my story.