@Shadami: Awwww no worries. Complain away! Its good for you to get it out. Especially right now. Does medicaid cover hospital trips... like ER check ins >.> because, if it does, you could go n and say you're experiencing more pain than you think is normal... and they'll check you out there. granted you have to wait forever.... but they'll do it... I know that's, you know, scheming/lying and whatnot, but it might be one way to get you checked out and put your mind at ease. Unless the ER tells you to go home because you're not bleeding. >.<

@TheWanderingPoet: I so blame your art teacher for that attitude. Art is really not a gift that you're born with. you can work at it and get better. Art is definitely one of those things where practice helps. I'm sure you're not as bad as you think you are. Especially since you seem to love it. :D