random

the loss
I have cried
so many times
so many winters
never understood the conenction
why I feel gone
why i start crying
and wnat to stop
why i feel it is pointless
and it is coming ot light
sadly
but realizing I have no sense that people want me around
it is self esteem
but worse
from yelling
to just plain getting ignored accidentally
to not getting with someone
I wonder
why I have tried
why i cry
is it that I haven't let go yet
that I am too afraid to walk by myself
or is it that in the end
I see that I don't want to be alone
but the fact
I feel as such
for this I cry
for this I wish I could tell others
and warn them
yet it seems pointless
to ask it
for everyone needs their space
even me
but there are times
I jsut don't wnat it either.