I sincerely hope this is not what I think it means...please don't go :( We love you Nephila :( I'm sorry for any and all the dumb things I did and everyone else did and might have done. I can't help but feel bad that such a kind, patient, beautiful person is considering this. Dystopia and Maria seem to have good insight since they have had the experience of turning down a staff position or leaving a staff position to be a regular user. I also agree with Angie. I myself have considered quitting menewsha in the past, but instead I take hiatuses every now and then. I don't know if that's as possible for a staff member to do but certainly is for a regular user. I don't know if you're considering this but I'm just agreeing with what has been said already by the people above who love and care about you <3