11-29-2008, 02:15 AM
How much do I miss you?
I miss you as my tears fall
harder than a summer rain
I miss you as my heart stops
faster than a train wreck
I miss you as my tears make
a trail of pain down my pillow
I miss you as my heart bangs
a song telling of it's sorrow
I miss the sound of our song
pounding with my heart
I miss the feel of your hand
wiping away the tears I have
I miss the sound of your heart
thumping against my ear
I miss the feel of your breath
ghosting across my face
I miss the grin you always had
when I gave you what you want
I miss the hugs your dad gave
when you weren't there yet
I miss the stories we told
while we drifted off to sleep
I miss the double meanings
we always found in speech
I miss the adrenaline I got
when I heard your voicemail
I miss the notes we passed
and each unique fold
I miss you like a song is wrong
when the drums are taken out
I miss you like a tribal meeting
when it's peace pipe is gone
I miss you like the wild cat
caged inside a zoo
I miss the way you always stood
where other men had fallen
I miss the way you never gave
less than your perfection
I miss the phone call game
before you saw it all
I miss the nights of cover-ups
so you could stay and talk
I miss you as my hands shake
while trying to write to you
I miss you as my body shakes
while trying to block you out
I miss you as my brow sweats
while trying to forget everything
I miss you as my heart chills
while trying to lose it all
I miss you as my face smiles
telling them it's alright
I miss you as my shoulder shrugs
telling them I don't care
I miss you as my steps falter
telling me I'm not ready
I miss you as my lip bleeds
telling me I'm worrying
I miss you as my future wanes
as the moon does many times
I miss you as my music fades
with too many reminders
I miss you as my arms shiver
with too much alone time
I miss you as my hope fades
into something hollowed out
I miss you as my temper flares
at people nondeserving
I miss you as my dreams glisten
wet as the tears they cause
I miss you as my words come to life
like the eternity they could be
I miss you as my words come to life
still not running out
I'll stop missing you when I never hurt
I'll never hurt when I can say your name
I'll say your name when I can hear that song
and see that food and write those words
and tell those stories and look at those pictures
and see those people and be in those places
and hear those secrets and hug that person
and laugh at those jokes and be who I was
And even if I do laugh and hug and hear
and be and see and tell those things
I'll never stop loving
That's how much I miss you.
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