Oh going strong but falling apart inside - I can 100% relate to that. Oh I just about punched my brother when he said something similar - my response "SEAMUS... just because I'm not sobbing hysterically... doesn't mean that I'm in a million broken pieces inside and sobbing among those pieces so hard I can't breathe. He. WAS. MY. TWIN!" I know that it was your husband you lost, but both were losses of someone near and dear to our hearts. :(

It really is so hard losing someone who is so near and dear to your heart - that being without them is something that is painful.. :( So painful.