Me thinks you have adopted a bunny!
I like bunnies!
...Sorry for the slow reply!
Last week I got to have Hope for 3 nights! (Bliss!)
Then I plunged into an emotional mess... depression + anxiety = me just "going through the motions."
We had a big wind storm on the night after Hope went home. There's something about high winds that kicks my anxiety up to max... Then Sarah had a seizure just before I was preparing to go to bed, so I needed to stay up to make sure she returned to normal before I could go to sleep...Then the power went out! Since Sarah was awake I lit a candle in her room because she usually has a nightlight and isn't accustomed to pitch darkness.
So...with candles lit, I couldn't go to sleep for fear of burning the place down...so I played Candy Crush on the iPad and listened to the wind whipping and blowing sand onto the window until the power came back on...at 4:45am!
The wind continued for days, though not as hard, until it snowed on Wednesday. We got about 4 inches of snow...but the area that the BF plows driveways, in the mountains, got a lot more...so BF never came home Wednesday night because he was plowing snow until his boss at the towing company had him go rescue a State Patrol car that slid into a ditch. (BF was able to catch some z's at the tow shop before he had to start his regular shift for the tow company.)
So...Friday has come around again...I had to take Sarah to a neurology appointment without the help of BF because he had to work. The appointment went well and we returned home to wait for Hope to come over for another sleepover. (Her parents went to a Halloween party for grown ups.). Hope will only get to stay the one night and part of the day Saturday.
When she is here my anxiety is at a low and I don't notice any depression...but when she goes home I find myself fighting tears and I wake up feeling like I am panicked for no good reason and have to force myself to go through the motions of taking care of Sarah.
If it weren't for Sarah, I would probably never get out of bed!
It sucks to feel like I do most days...but it is what it is and I just keep going as best I can until the next time Hope comes to spend a night.
Hope is my "feel good medicine" and my major reason for not just giving up.
Sooooo....Sorry I wrote a novel here! Lol! ...I don't get much opportunity to tell anybody what I've been doing and once I got started here, I just kept rambling!
I hope things are going well for you!
Have you had snow yet?
We are expecting snow again Saturday night and most of Sunday.
I am not looking forward to more snow! ...but it is kind of cool to see bunny tracks in the snow! (We have lots of bunnies that live in our apartment complex.)