So I heard back about the job, and I didnt end up getting it. Im not mad or sad or anything, I'm just happy that I've got an answer and I can carry on with my life again instead of having everything on bloody hold! Its mental being in limbo for a few months, but now I can look at getting a new place, moving somewhere else thats better and cheaper and probably a bit smaller too. I dont need this much room. It also means that I can get some of my projects up and running and get on with being creative! And maybe, just maybe, I'll think about the possibility of getting attached to some one while I'm here. maybe.