january 15th, thursday

I wish I could...
this one could get a little personal so i won't get into too much detail but one of the things i always wished was that when i get angry or really upset that i wouldn't cry and instead actually be able to vocalize and express the anger in a different and less "sad" way. the thing is, i'm not sad, i'm friggin pissed, but it looks like i'm sad because i just get so angry i overflow and it comes out my eyes... then you get the sad looks and the people who feel bad and try to hug me or rub my arm, but i'm angry! don't touch me, i'm rip roaring mad... you just don't see that... you see someone crying. grrr.....