I'm sorry, but after that first sentence I can't actually finish reading your post.
I really don't mean to be rude at all, I'm very, very sorry but there's nothing you can say, or tell me to do that people haven't already tried. And yeah, I've tried a few of their suggestions with the "plans" and whatnot, but that just lets my subconscious buy into more. It makes a part of me believe that one day it could be real, and that makes it so, so much worse.

On that note, i would love you dearly if we could stop the direction of this conversation.






I'm going cheap chocolate hunting with boyfriend today ^_^