02-25-2007, 09:00 AM
ANd Back!
I found your things again today
How long has it been since I looked at them?
At least a handful of years
And as I sifted through the distant memories
I tried to remember what it felt like
To be with you
It was exciting and chaotic
Like fireworks everyday
I'd get nervous just before I'd call you
And I'd think about you all the time
We spent our days together
Doing things that no one had ever done before
Summer nights sitting on your parent's porch
The streetlights filtered through the trees
Or hanging out at the baseball park
Or the old train station
The lights came on and we ran away
To drive to some secret place in my truck
Concerts at the local hockey arena
Big names used to come to town
Smoke and anticipation filled the air
But the names don't come to town anymore
Now they just play hockey
And kids just listen to their computers
We were "young and wild and free"
We smiled a lot and held each other "Faithfully"
We shared our dreams, our fantasies, our desires
We weren't prepared for the future
But we used the word anyway
That was almost twenty years ago
And now you're gone and far away
I haven't seen you in 5 years
A quick visit in a coffee shop
A hollow feeling that it wasn't right
We said goodbye uncomfortably
And went back to our normal lives
I smile and put your things away
And think about where I am today
Wanting to go forward
But something holds me back
Something I can't see or touch or put away each time
Something that I should have done long ago
As I watch the flames consume your things
I know it won't take all the pain away
But it's a first step to letting go
Of the grip you've had on me all these years
And the word we used to use so foolishly
The word we should never have used
We didn't understand what it meant
We were far too young and naive
Though we thought we knew
And we tried to live up to the promise
We still had our own dreams to fulfill
So like the wind we were there and then we were gone
Now all I have are faded memories
Of a beach on a rainy day
Writing our names in the sand
Only to be washed away by the tide
We should have known that day
That it couldn't last forever
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