Why would you feel dirty reading a private rp, vera? I've never heard that before. I never figured there was any different feel to reading public or private.
But I definitely know what you mean by watching a writer get better. Lately I've been reading over some of my old stuff and it's just amazing. I hate to read dead rps though, from me or others. It makes me sad to see a story that leaves me unsatisfied.

Have you found interesting things that way, kas?