Aww Nephy. Well my feelings are genuine. Like seriously i've never said i'd leave for someone else. When people say they're gonna leave. I'm like, oh well that's sad, sorry :( *hug*. And i move on with my life... But seriously i think you did so much good things for this site in a very short time period. And i 100% thank you for that, and am eternally grateful. As you know mene is my life, and it's very very sad that its diminished so much. I hold it very close to my heart. So knowing someone else actually gave a stuff & did something about some of the shitty stuff! Made me feel so much better about this place!
Sorry you're going through a lot at the mo. I use to be the same many years ago. I was violent though lol.
I would advise to seek help from professionals. Not being cheeky. But seriously it's what helped me through, and calmed me down. That and great support from awesome people ^^ :)
But seriously!! So glad you're at least gonna stay for now!! ^^

- Mission Accomplished :)