@randeh: i dunno. last year i went out trick or treating by myself. i wish i could hang out with him. i miss him too much. i'm 21 this year and might. but the other problem is, i'm not really in much of a mood for much. a lot of crap has happened with my family financially and such, (we're losing the house and had to move into apartments and my parents separated and are working on getting back together- i live with dad, mom on her own and dad stays there some nights and i'm alone a lot) so basically i'm not in much of a holiday mood. wasn't last year either for thanksgiving or chirstmas. this year its just i want the year to be over and be able to move on with my life with my boyfriend. >.<