03-10-2014, 04:12 AM
Nixie was pondering what it meant if Corynn wasn't the one transferring her powers, as she stared at LTB. She didn't get to think too into it before Caleb threw his pout that way, shattering a window. He began blaming it on poor structuring? Is that what he was doing? Did he really not think he had something to do with that!?
It was no coincidence. Before Nixie could point that out, Corynn was making new assumptions. Nixie looked at her in horror. "Pit us, against, each other?" she repeated. No. No no no. Nixie couldn't fight other people. She couldn't fight other people even if her life depended on it. She was absolutely not a fighter. She hated the idea. She hated the idea of any kind of confrontation at all. The thought of a fight to the death? Nixie couldn't handle it.
She turned her back to the others, trying to calm her breathing. Caleb went on to suggest them making a movie, and Corynn suggested they play along. Nixie had closed her eyes, trying to focus, trying to imagine a serene place, somewhere comfortable. Corynn wanted to know what she thought. She nodded, barely looking over her shoulder at the woman.
Nixie wanted to say she thought it was a good idea, that she was game, but she couldn't. She just nodded. If she spoke, her voice would shake too violently and give her away. Give away that she was losing her cool, that she was losing it.
She sat in the grass, facing the invisible wall, she assumed. She tried taking deep breaths, but it wasn't working. She probably sounded like she was hyperventilating. And that's exactly what she was doing. She wasn't far from blacking out now, not if she couldn't calm herself down. She tried a technique her psychiatrist taught her; counting. One..... Two..... Three..... Four..... Five..... One..Two..Three..Four.. Onetwothreeonetwo...
It wasn't working. That only caused Nixie's anxiety to rise to dangerous levels. She clenched her eyes shut and put her forehead on her knees again. One two five sixthreeonetwooneTWOTHREE!!! Her hands, had they not been clenched around her legs would be shaking violently. Her body trembled. The darkness was already beginning to numb her mind.
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