Could someone help me please help me?...before I go suicidal. I'm losing everything in my life, now that I'm turning 18 people have been saying everything is going to be my responsibility..dont get me wrong I know thats true and all. I know now that I'm 18 whatever I do is my decision..but does that give people the right to say that I dont want to be your friend anymore b/c your 18?? Does that give my mom the right to say "Okay now your an adult?...Get out of my house!!" (yes that includes she yelled at me...not me just saying it like that...) I know I'm going to be on my own when I leave the house and I can make new friends..but when it comes to friends...how do I know I'm actually making so-called 'friends' ?
Everyone I've ever known that called me their friend has ended up throwing me to the side once they've gotten what they wanted from me...wheather its money, food, or a way to make their own self-esteem go up..
And if you dont care....why did you even come to read this...?..

I know what you're going through. I was so scared of turning 18. It's a terrifying time, but hopefully your parent's won't be too strict and kick you out.
Your situation is soo familiar to mine, but the friends that I've made in the four years I've been an adult have been some of the best.
My best advice I can give is go to college, or get a job, then go to college. Even if it's just for a year or so, colege was ht ebest choice of my life.

First of all, I agree with IadulDraculai. Getting a job or going to college is the best starting off point because that is mostly likely where you will come into your own. It is the time and place to really figure who you are as a person.

The problem is, you can't be afraid to put yourself out there. If you don't, you are cutting yourself off from what could have been a really good friendship with somebody if you try it. For example, I joined my yearbook committee back when I was in high school. It gave me the opprotunity to made a good deal of friends (and acquaintances) there because I worked at. I got involved and managed to convince a girl to follow her dream as a professional artist (She's is now one of my closest friends.).

If your afraid of you friends not being your "real" ones because they want something, consider this: everybody wants something from someone else. Whether it be money, food, or a way to make their own self-esteem go up or even just your TIME, EMOTION, a LISTENER, someone to TALK to. And these wants/desires happen during different times. Sometimes, I just want to talk to my friends. Others, I want to go to their house when I know their baking because they make the best cookies. It's all cycle, that will eventually change especially as you grow into yourself as a person. Your needs will change, just as theirs will too.

As for the parents thing, I am not sure how I can help you with that. Sorry. =(

Thank you...both of you..for the advice. But IadulDraculai about what you said about hoping my parents wont kick me out? Your a bit too late for that, I've been spending the last three days with my aunt and uncle. I wont be able to stay with them for too much longer since they are refusing to pay the bill for an extra person living in their home. (The landlord)
As for going to college, I'll probably look into that, maybe that will help me..hopefully..But for getting a job I really REALLY hope someone will hire me already since I've already been signing up for so many and its already been two months but they still havent contacted me yet..I've contacted them too but they keep saying that they havent seen my application yet which has been getting me really scared since I dont have much time to stay in an actual 'home'.

They kicked you out when you had no money? Where do they expect you to live? Really now that's a bit much. It's really hard to get a job period with how things are. I really hope you get the job. There are cheap apartments that most jobs can pay for. Granted they're going to be one bedrooms or studios but that's more than enough room for one person.

As for the friend thing. F-them. Who needs people like that? I went through the same thing right out of high school when I turned 18. I felt pretty depressed about it for a while then thought about it and realized that those people aren't worth my time and energy and weren't really that good of friends to start with.

Hopefully things get better for you hun.

Wow, that's horrible! I'm sorry your parents kicked you out, that's completely ridiculous! absolutely no parental instinct!

I wish I could help you find a job; try looking at McDonalds, they're always hiring becuase people quit so often, or places like Walmart. Get a hold of a computer and start working on a resume with any sort of work experience and references, start taking copies to anywhere that's hiring.

This is the absolutely worst part, and finding job experience and a steady address is the hardest thing, so I understand how rough it is.

I got laid off from my job as a bouncer and it took me three months to find a replacement job, and it doesn't pay nearly as well. I'm hoping you will find one soon. The economy is picking up a little so keep your head up, shoulders back, chest out and walk with confidence, even if you don't feel like it. (It helps, trust me)

I'm still pissed that your parents kicked you out!

Maybe your right about my so called friends..they arent really people I need to remember, but its so hard to since I've known them for so long. Thats the kinds of jobs I'm trying to get an easy job just like you guys are saying but even those are hard to find now..those fast-food resturants are hiring but just like all my other choices they havent replied back to me.

Dont worry about my parents kicking me out...I dont care anymore..I guess it just means its time for me to grow up and leave them..I just wish they cared a little more to give me some money to get something out of my life.