I have really strong social phobia type problems. The very thought of meeting a group of friends, that consists of more than two people, makes me feel like I'm gonna puke. I love my friends and everything, it's just, I'm so self concious and afraid of messing up. Awkward silences make me panic, new people make me have a nervous breakdown.
Giving presentations makes my stomach twist. I almost cry and my voice cracks. Its horrible. Even chilling with a single friend freaks me out.
And my best[ish] friend, she's amazing and understanding but I'm starting to hate her. She's gorgeous, and better at everything. She stole my boyfriend, and ruined my life, but I love her because she my best friend. She doesn't take anything seriously and she's obsessed with herself.
I feel horrible for hating her, but she's so hard to be friends with, and not tick her off. Please help me with this. :(

i used to be the exact same way when i was younger i was enveyous of one of my friends and i felt she had everything i didnt she was easy to talk to and pretty and etc etc and when i hung with a group of friends i always felt the odd one out i still have problems speaking in public plases and with new people but im not as shy as i used to be.
one day i thought to myself "theres no reason for me to be like this' every one is different and there are things about me that no one else has and everytime i feel shy or jelous i tell myself im perfect the way i am and theres no reason for me to be shy cause i should be me and if they don't lke me it was not meant to be either friend wise or significant other wise.
i hope i helped you out some :3

I have had social phobia so i know how it feels. I used to get panic attacks when in diffrent social situations. Sometimes it was an issue sometimes not. When I started to miss a lot of school and had a major panic attack when I was entering a classroom in school, then I got in contact with the school psychologist. She instantly refered me to the hospital and then I got put on medication and stuff (at that point I was also suffering from depression).
What I'm suggesting is that you find someone to talk to, maybe a proffesional like school psychologist or a therapist or something. I realise that it might not be easy to contact someone on your own, maybe there's someone you trust that can help you with that. I would never had come in contact with a psychologist if the people around me hadn't realised that something was wrong and put me in contact with people.
Good luck and I hope that I was at least a little bit helpful :)

Thank you both :) I'll try to talk to my mom, and tell myself that I'm just right as I am. Thank you bunches

Look into the mirror for a bit, and just come to terms with who you are. So maybe your hair doesn't look as straight as you want it, look at it in another perspective, its got curls, its got bounce, its got flair. And maybe your stomach isn't so thin looking, but you've got a nice body in general, and it looks in proportion. Start to come to terms with what you do and don't like, and accept the flaws, and embrace your beauty. When you're working on something, look at how you're doing things differently, and tell yourself, see I'm doing it THIS way because then blah blah blah, and you start to feel smarter and more confident. You can always compliment your friend for things she does 'perfectly', but you've got your own things to. Just don't be too strict, because you can't get perfect, it only looks that way from someone else's point of view.

As for your social phobia, I think once you get more confident with yourself, you can try mingle a bit. It's okay if you're silent, but lend someone an ear, and they'll be happy to talk to you. And you can then input some of your own opinions, and strike a conversation. I have a social phobia myself, maybe not too bad, but I get nervous very very easily. I can't perform or public speak, if more than three people are watching me do something, I'll get very very nervous and just mess up. I can sometimes find awkward silences unnerving, and will start blabbering. So don't worry, i know exactly how you feel.

@iinsanely Sane Thanks :) I'll definately try. Today, I talked to my mom and she's going to take me with her to the doctor to talk about my phobia

Ah. :) You sound like the old me.

I'll admit that I was pretty socially awkward for a while (I was scared to talk to new people, conversations usually ended up in that 'awkward silence' mode, I tended to be the loner, and etc). I just got over it with time though. I simply started to talk to a few other people. If a few people ended up not liking me then so what? Screw them. I still had plenty of other friends I had made. Besides, in school there are always going to be those people who act like 5-year-olds.

Haha... I can also relate with your social problem, except with best friend thing.
Social awkwardness is something we really have to confront. Some of my friends and cousins always advised me to get out of my comfort zone, but i always asking them "how?" where in fact i'm afraid of crowd people, afraid of new things, new people,etc. But thinking all their advices to me, I've realized that if I don't shake this problem off my system, I might be as it is, and never learn. As of now, I'm bit by bit confronting this problem, cause I want something to change within me, and to trust myself more before anything else. If I feel fear confronting something, it became my habit giving a smile back. Though nervous deep inside...