"Eh don't worry they won't give a damn....half the members are swingers anyway..." He smirked responding to the kiss carefully.

"How long have you known you were in the closet?" Sebastian asked, quietly, as he pressed their foreheads together. "Pfff...I've never been in it. I knew I was mostly for guys by the time I turned nine...maybe earlier."

Ryan grummbled not wanting to talk about that, "I don't know.....never really it was kinda forced on me...."

"Care to explain?" Sebastian pried, softly. He had a gentle, kind tone to his voice. He wanted to help Ryan to better talk about his problems.

"Kyle...." He said simply with a frown. "That's all...."

"Knew it then, huh?" Sebastian murmured, running his hands through Ryan's hair. "You want to hear my realization story? It's funny."

Ryan sighed leaning into him, "Sure...." He smiled a bit.

"I was nine. I went over to a friend's house for the day. We were having fun all day, playing around and pulling pranks on his mother and older sister. Then we went searching in his dad's office."

Sebastian grinned. "We found some interesting magazines. After an hour of browsing, that was it for me..."

Ryan smirked, "Oh Sebastian only you...I bet you still have one of the magazines with you to this day don't you..."

Sebastian gave him a wry smirk, licking his lips playfully. "I took my favorite one along home with me...and yes, I still have it. Maybe you should peek through it," he purred.

Ryan rolled his eyes. "Yeah after I have my big Mac…" he said.

Sebastian grinned. "I can get you your Big Mac--I'll go out and get it. You can page through magazines while I'm out..."

Ryan rolled his eyes. "Fine…"

Sebastian kissed Ryan's chin and then dipped beneath the bed. He pulled out a pile of magazines, all shifty-looking, and then dug for a while. He pulled out and old magazine, with clear pictures. "This is the one. I'll be back, okay? You want fries or something with it?" he asked, as he stood.

"If course and a chocolate shake whith the oreo bits in it!" He said grinning as he looked down at the magazine.

"Sure," Sebastian chuckled. "I'll be right back..." With a final, furtive glance at Ryan, Sebastian headed out the door to fetch his food.

Ryan smrked as he began to look through the magazine. He was currious to see what mad Sebastian love it so much. And also a little fearful.

The magazine Sebastian had claimed had brought him to realization was about various forms of bondage and many different toys. Foreign ones, especially...some were glow in the dark...

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Ryan blushed darkly as he looked through it. He was indeed turned on looking at the pictures. Some of he things had him thinking others confused him.

Sebastian returned ten minutes later with fries, a Big Mac, and the shake Ryan had wanted. He swa him looking through the magazine and grinned as he walked over, setting his food out in front of him. "Soup's on. And how do you like it?"

Ryan jumped a bit hearing him his face was beet fed and he was more than a little 'happy'. "Ahh y-yeah…" He said looking down feeling embarrassed, even though Sebastian had caught him doing far worse with past flames. "Interesting…" He finally managed.

Sebastian purred softly, reaching out to rest his hand on Ryan's leg. "You want to eat your food? I'll help you with your happy problem, here, while you eat..." he offered, seductively.

Ryan closed his eyes at the thought. "I'd like that he finally managed after composig himself. A small smirk on his face.

"Start on your food. I'll start with my job, here," Sebastian chuckled, reaching down to deftly unbutton Ryan's pants.

Ryan shivered as he grabbed his food and began to eat happily.