
02-17-2010, 01:22 PM
My first love was a guy who I had a crush on in fourth grade. I tried to ask him if he liked me in a valentine on valentines day, but he never replied. In eight grade I figured out that he had been too shy. We wrote letters back and forth for a few months and then decided to "date" (we only held hands, which I was happy with in the end) I liked him, but I had a hard time saying that I loved him, wwhich I think he had a problem with. During the summer he didn't vist me, though he only lived a few blocks away. I went to church camp and found out when I got back that he had been seeing my best friend behind my back, then broke up with me over the phone. That was what I thought was my first love.
My real first love turned out a little differently. I was in a play in fifth grade(school age me having given up on the other guy) when I noticed a guy who read a lot. He was cute and funny. Ex: We had a scene where we were supposed to come onto the stage, tired, mummering things like "Ow my foot, Oh my ankle, Ow my toe," etc. One day he came in and yelled, "I think I broke my medula oblongada!" The directors liked it so much they decided to add it to the script (by the way, this was a lord of the rings based play and he was playing gandalf)
He also sang wonderfully, and seemed to not mind me following him around like the stalker that I was. I followed him and ended up in the same homerooom as he was in sixth grade. All throughout that time, I tried to figure out how he felt about me, but never knew. Then my mother was diagnosed with cancer and I went into seventh grade. I gave up on him, later had that experince that I explained with the fourth grade crush guy, and went into high school. I had thought that I had only had a crush on him(note the stalker thing)... I even had a notebook filled with likes, dislikes, etc.! Later some people were making fun of him because he didn't like to be touched. I chewed them out, resisted the urge to hit them, and realized that I still liked him... and maybe even loved him. That was four years ago actually. A year after that incedent, we started dating( after another incedent invloving a Christmas scarf and me hyperventalating and almost passing out) and have been for three years now.
The only problem is, I have never been able to tell, whould I call the first guy my first like? He was a friend and it took me a while to notice him, etc. or the other one, considering how much longer it lasted and how sudden it was?
o_0 I did not mean to write that much...
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