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Old 10-01-2010, 09:20 PM

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Joe

Her golden shining locks glistening in the sun, with every movement i become more and more dazzled and imprisoned. Those lips, a source of enwonderment, full, luscious, a deep red in colour, natural, not lipstick plastered and every so often, oh so lightly and tenderly bitten when thought occurs, along with a slight frown from those ever so delicately formed eyebrows, a slight shade darker than that of her hair.
Deep blue pearls of emotion and sorrow, permanently on the brink of tears, round globes of bewitching beauty, daring you to look away. The eyes of an angel.


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This isn't the first time i've just happened to glance over and found myself close to salivation, unable to tear my eyes away.
I watch her, on her weekly shop, going through all the basics, like a lioness hunting for her prey, gathering what she needs, but not what she wants.
Eyes set dead ahead, ear pricked, senses alert. She gets to what she wants, the spirits isle.

I watch her, eyeing up hungrily, lustfully all the usual names; Bacardi, Girl, Smirnoff. Her children. Her one thing to look forward to in life.

If only she knew...


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If only she begun to understand that there is somebody out there who cares. Somebody that longs for her, dreams about her, would even give their life for her.
Somebody who is watching her destroy herself, somebody who dies a bit more inside when they see her abusing herself, going from guy to guy, meaningless relationship after meaningless relationship.

I watch her and i will continue to watch her.
She may never know how i feel. I dont have the courage to tell her... she's out of my league and even if she wasnt she would never accept the way i feel for her. We are far too different. She's popular and gorgeous, perfect in any and every way, just one glance could make your heart melt and if you were lucky enough to get a smile and a sight of those pearly whites, not only does your heart melt but your whole body quivers and you loose control of your senses.

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Old 10-02-2010, 07:47 AM

I dont really understand my feelings anymore, I'm not myself. Food and drink are tasteless, the sweetest smelling rose is now bland to me and the colours of this world are no longer vibrant, they bore me, I may as well be colour blind, for all the difference it would make.

Kayla... I love her.


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Kayla


Just another day, meaningless and unforgiving. I walk unnoticed, no particular destination in mind, i just needed to get away from everything, away from so called friends, family, civilisation in general if im honest.
The local park, my serenity.
Of course im not talking about the part containing slides, swings and other such objects designed to entertain children. No, im talking about one small scluded place, a place untouched by today's youth and their grafiti, far too often i'm put under that stereotype. No, this place was my heaven, the beauty of the place was enough to wash all your worries away.
Serenity and peace.
My own little 'secret garden', like that little girl from the book.

If im honest my life isn't all that bad, i have a family that deep down, underneath all the crap, do love me, even if they dont tell me too often. I also have amazing friends, people i honestly couldn't and wouldn't live without, they're my rocks. Especially Joe, always so kind and considerate.
If i have a problem that i actually want to share, sure enough, Joe's there.

In all honestly i have no clue why im so depressed, so depressed that i've sunk so low as to turn to alcohol to brush aside the clouds overcast in my mind.


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I suppose that hot, passionate Hispanic lover of mine doesn't help matters, weekend after weekend going to his place, drinking in excess amounts and as he whispers those words in my ear... 'Te Amo amoré' in that rich Spanish accent of his, I melt.
I am his, he owns the very air i breathe... In a daze im pushed down to sit on the soft red satin of his kingsized bed, his so called 'boudoir of amor' as he calls it, ( yes, it confuses me that that phrase is in all three French, English and Spanish but im in no mood to get technical at this point.) As he kisses me passionately, our lips engaging in some kind of slow motion wrestle, our tongues enveloping and caressing, exploring ever inch of each others mouths, as if for the first time in a lifetime...

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One final kiss, both of us exhausted.
We lie there.
And that rounds off my typical weekend with Pablo...
My only regret; the Sunday morning hangover.

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Old 10-02-2010, 05:12 PM

Sooner or later i have to stop reminiscing and return home, leave my secluded heaven and return back to reality. I already know how it'll go, ill get home, put away the shopping and sit in front of the TV. I'll then attempt to ring my mother who'll then, once she answers, will just tell me she has to go. Such a supportive family.

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Joe.

I got a phone call from Kayla! A phone call! Wow. I know it's sad that i'm so excited over it but it's amazing news for me. It shows my plan to get close to her and eventually get her to fall madly in love with me is working!

Okay, i know its a long shot... but its worth a try?
We've become close friends recently. She really is an amazing girl.
ANYWAY. Getting off track, she invited me over to hers this weekend for a chat and a drink.
She invites me over a lot now seeing as I only live about five minutes walk down the road.

Okay, i've just thought back over all the things ive just said... really crazy right?.
Plan? to fall Madly in love with me?.
urgh.

What am i doing? I'm just completely breaking her trust by doing this... I'm being there for her with the secret intentions to go out with her?.
GOD im a mess. What happened to the strong side of me when did i suddenly become such a puff?. URGHHH.
Get it together Joe!.

NO. Myself and Kayla are friends and friends only.

 


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