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Old 03-14-2011, 01:53 PM

Start of someting new. Should I continue?

Chapter One


3/14/2011

I can’t help looking at the clock wondering why he isn’t texting me back. He said he had to be awake at five. Maybe he is in the shower, or still getting ready for the day. All I could do was think about him all night. I stayed up all night working on homework and just thinking about him. I can’t help it. I can’t help staying up all night thinking about him and wondering what he was dreaming about. I tried to see if I could see into his mind, but everyone knows that’s not humanly possible. He should have been up three hours ago now, but I have yet to get a text message from him. He sent me a picture of him and his little cousin last night; I think it was a sign. I think he wants me to meet his family. He wants me to be a part of his family. I wish he wasn’t at his grandma’s so I could go see him. He is the sweetest guy in the world and he makes me want to be a better person. Sadly enough, we aren’t even dating yet, but I think that is going to happen soon.

I still haven’t heard from him, and I’m starting to get worried. I text him three times now, and still no answer. I’ve been dying all night just to hear from him. He stayed up until one just so he could talk to me. I think he likes me too. I’m worried to meet his family. What if they don’t like me? I mean they are a good Christian family and I’m Christian too, just not to the extent as them. They don’t drink or swear or smoke. And I do all of them. And his mom doesn’t like piercings or tattoos, and I have both. I was planning on taking my eyebrow ring out any way because it won’t heal, but I mean I can’t just take off a tattoo. And that tattoo helps me get through the day. I wish I would have known him before I got it, because then I would have put a little of his spice into it.

I can’t believe how perfect he and I would be together, we both have musical talent and both love to cook. We love to cuddle and go for walks under the stars. And we both want to adopt a baby later on in life. And he wants a girl first. He only wants two kids, but I can talk him into three. I mean come on both blond hair, I have green eyes and he has blue, so our babies will be so cute! He will want to keep making more. He loves the country life, but not so far that we can’t walk to town if there is trouble. I think he is really starting to like me. If only I would have met him before this weekend.

I did something bad this weekend and it worries me that it will mess things up with him. I had sex with my ex this weekend and we didn’t use protection. I was really thinking about going back to him and he said he wants me to have his baby right now. And I was all sorts of caught up in the moment, and I think I might be pregnant. And I’m afraid if I am, then he won’t want to be with me because it’s not his baby. I will not kill this baby, if there is one, and I will try and care for it, but if I can’t, then I will do the right thing and put him/her up for adoption. I always believed that way. What if he doesn’t want me because I am? This boy is perfect for me.

I still haven’t heard from him. Three and a half hours ago he was supposed to wake up, but I haven’t heard from him. Maybe he is driving to his cousins. Or maybe he forgot to plug his phone in last night and its dead. Or even maybe he forgot his phone at his grandma’s. Either way, I’m worried. What if he didn’t wake up on time and he missed going to his little cousin’s house? I wish he was here right now because it’s really cold in my house. I am just sitting in my little basement office I built so I could write without being interrupted. So what if my mom lost a guest bedroom? It is still a workout room. I’m sure if he was here I wouldn’t be sitting here writing. I would be cuddling in bed watching a movie and just enjoying each other. He’s all I want right now.

Four hours since he said he would be awake. I told him last night I wouldn’t be up until around 10, but I couldn’t help but stay wake. I wanted to sleep and dream about him, but I just couldn’t fall asleep. He’s perfect in every way. I keep listening to love songs and checking my phone every five minutes just trying to think of reasons I shouldn’t be with him, but I can’t find any. He’s just too perfect. We have so much in common. We both love to look at the stars and take walks and just lay around listening to music. We both like cars and going out with friends. He knows my ex’s brother. His brother dated my ex’s brothers ex, if that makes any sense at all.

I feel like getting up and doing my hair and makeup just so when he does text me I can look pretty, but he won’t know how I look. And I have nothing planned today besides sitting in my dark office doing work. Its spring break so all my friends went home and I don’t have a car yet and no homework. Today is a day dedicated to my laptop and daydreaming about him. His perfect blond spiky hair and his bright blue eyes. It’s all that’s on my mind.

I’m starting to feel tired, but don’t want fall asleep in case he texts me. I am dying for that text. Even coffee isn’t keeping me awake right now and I’m on my second cup. Why is it that when I’m lying in my bed wanting to sleep, I can’t but when I’m sitting at my desk chair begging to stay awake, I feel so tired and can’t stay awake to save my life?

Finally he texts me. I’m so happy. He asked me how I slept. I had to laugh and told him I haven’t gone to bed yet. I had to tell him that I stayed up. I think he was shocked that I stayed up all night writing. I don’t remember if I ever told him that I write, but he sure knows now. I’m not going to tell him that everything I have written has been about him. And how I just can’t stop thinking about him. I don’t want to come off to clingy to him. I really would like things to take off with him because I don’t know what I would do without him. I see him almost every day at college and before I started talking to him, I just thought he was just another cute guy that went to the same school as me that I would never meet and I had come to terms with that, but now that I have gotten to know him, I don’t l think I can live without him.
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Slowly getting to my feet, wishing it was a dream.- Josette Shakespeare


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