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06-05-2008, 01:41 AM
I try my best every single day to be satisfactory for everyone else. I try to comfort people although I don't have to deal with their problems. I try to stay in contact with people although I can easily forget or lose any way of contacting them. I try to be nice, but that quote is in effect as of now. All of this is because of one person. There was this girl who took advantage of me right when I was making the switch back to being a nice person. I turned into an asshole around the age of 14 and now I was just learning how to do people favors once again and everything. Now, I'm going through a relapse. There's this girl, she broke my heart. She used the hell out of me and now the negativity is permanent. I can't stand it when one person has such an influence on you. So Mene, have you ever (discuss):
~Been taken advantage of
~Had your heart broken so bad that you wanted to kill the world?
For a while I stopped believing in love, and now I feel that my original opinion about it was right. I should've never trusted my heart, and now I won't for a while now.
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06-05-2008, 01:48 AM
I was one hell of a, you know, when my ex of 8 months broke up with me for no reason at all. I was angry at the world and everyone in it, and I didn't put up with anyone or anything. You should always trust your heart though, its not its fault that someone decided to go and break it.
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06-05-2008, 01:49 AM
It's true a lot of the time, but I'd like to think that us nice guys (Let's pretend for a moment I have a penis for the sake of the quote xD ) have the least guilty consciouses.
People step on me all the time, but I rather enjoy not grasping the perfect time to get vengeance and watching there face go "WTF why didn't you... OMG I'm a sucky person"
I don't however blame you for trying to change. Not giving in is something that would probably be good for you and other nice guys.
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06-05-2008, 01:50 AM
Dude, don't let her influence you so badly. I can only imagine how much it hurts/makes you angry, but don't stop being nice just because of one stupid girl.
You'll meet a sweet girl who will make you believe in love again. Give it time.
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06-05-2008, 01:51 AM
Well, I should probably blame myself too for letting me get my emotions involved. But it was the first time in a while and I thought I was going to be alright. Who doesn't? And not only did she break my heart, she crushed it, ran it over, stomped on it, supplexed it, power bombed it, then peed on it. I feel horrible about her. Usually I would never be this dark, but with the way we argued today, it would make my day tomorrow to see her get hit by a semi-truck. Yes, I want to watch it.
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06-05-2008, 01:57 AM
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Well, I should probably blame myself too for letting me get my emotions involved. But it was the first time in a while and I thought I was going to be alright. Who doesn't? And not only did she break my heart, she crushed it, ran it over, stomped on it, supplexed it, power bombed it, then peed on it. I feel horrible about her. Usually I would never be this dark, but with the way we argued today, it would make my day tomorrow to see her get hit by a semi-truck. Yes, I want to watch it.
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I can honestly say a lot of humans feel that way when they're hurt, its our instincts. Just like you don't mess with an injured animal. I wanted my ex dead because I felt confused and hurts and so many other emotions that I didn't recognize. Its that feeling like you actually have support in your life, and then that support was ripped right out from under you. So its totally understandable.
But if it ended, then it wasn't meant to be. You have probably learned a lot from the relationship, and that's the thing we gain after a breakup so we don't make the same mistakes in the future. I know I have, and I knew that I wasn't the best girlfriend back in the day. I was immature, and my ex says to this day he cannot believe how much I have changed.
She'll probably say the same thing about you in the future if you two were to ever cross paths again.
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06-05-2008, 01:59 AM
Well perhaps getting a picture and ceremonially burning it might help and it might not get you arrested like some of the other ways to relieve this pain. Heh. <__<;
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06-05-2008, 02:07 AM
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I can honestly say a lot of humans feel that way when they're hurt, its our instincts. Just like you don't mess with an injured animal. I wanted my ex dead because I felt confused and hurts and so many other emotions that I didn't recognize. Its that feeling like you actually have support in your life, and then that support was ripped right out from under you. So its totally understandable.
But if it ended, then it wasn't meant to be. You have probably learned a lot from the relationship, and that's the thing we gain after a breakup so we don't make the same mistakes in the future. I know I have, and I knew that I wasn't the best girlfriend back in the day. I was immature, and my ex says to this day he cannot believe how much I have changed.
She'll probably say the same thing about you in the future if you two were to ever cross paths again.
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Yea, well, this is the first time I've felt so hurt in a while. I haven't gotten anything out of anyone hurting me yet. I do look for morals when stuff like this happens, but it just hurts so much that I don't see the actual moral of the story. I don't know what I did to make her hate me.
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Well perhaps getting a picture and ceremonially burning it might help and it might not get you arrested like some of the other ways to relieve this pain. Heh. <__<;
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Oh, who said I was going to be driving the truck?
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06-05-2008, 02:10 AM
-re reads-
O:> So it doesn't say you'll be driving the truck, but I bet in your head you are. xD
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06-05-2008, 02:12 AM
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Yea, well, this is the first time I've felt so hurt in a while. I haven't gotten anything out of anyone hurting me yet. I do look for morals when stuff like this happens, but it just hurts so much that I don't see the actual moral of the story. I don't know what I did to make her hate me.
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Just give it time and I'm sure feelings will change, like they always do.
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06-05-2008, 02:19 AM
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-re reads-
O:> So it doesn't say you'll be driving the truck, but I bet in your head you are. xD
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Heck yea, I'm poppin' wheelies and everything on it.
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Just give it time and I'm sure feelings will change, like they always do.
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I hope they do. I probably still won't talk to her anymore.
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06-05-2008, 03:01 AM
I know how you feel. Keep your friends close, enemies closer, right?
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06-05-2008, 03:02 AM
This one will never be close again.
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06-05-2008, 03:27 AM
Though it seems like it'll last forever, don't let it get to you. Some people are jerks and they aren't worth your time.
My old friend dated two of my old best friends. I'm surprised I still stayed by his side being that he broke my heart twice. D; Hurt like a mo-fo. Actually made me somewhat mentally sick and I had to transfer schools. It was a sissy move, but there were other complications, too, that are a bit personal. .__.
It's funny how one person gets to your soul and nothing's ever the same.
Ah heck, that's history now. He's still my far away best friend and I'd still take the bullet for him. =__='
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06-05-2008, 03:30 AM
Hmph, I wouldn't take a bullet for this chick. I'd give her a nice one though.
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06-05-2008, 03:35 AM
Hey, don't give up entirely on humanity. Hell If I could make the people who ruined my life miserable I probably wouldn't. I wouldn't be the me today. And before you go on about something along the lines they must not effected you. Fuck yea they did. I still have those...twitches.
But just breathe it in as a learning experiment and totally smile. WATCH the sunset(Or Rise depends on you)
Calmness and meditation it what you needs to think clearly. And better get on with your life. Best of luck!
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06-05-2008, 03:36 AM
I've never really cared enough about anyone to let them break my heart, except for my husband. He did break up with me when we were dating in high school so I know what you mean about wanting to kill the world due to a break up. Things always turn out for the better in the end though. I try to always be nice to people or at least tolerate them because the way I see it, is that most people aren't even worth my time so I try to keep my feelings neutral. Hopefully soon things will get better.
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06-05-2008, 03:37 AM
I don't even understand the whole process of meditation. How do you do it?
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06-05-2008, 03:38 AM
She probably deserves a good ol' bazooka launched in her spleen. ;D
I bet she'll feel pretty darn bad, though, someday.
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06-05-2008, 03:45 AM
Nah, she probly won't. She's a cold, hurtful yet painless bitch. Scuse ma French, just tellin ya'll the truth.
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06-05-2008, 03:48 AM
well it wasn't anyone in perticular but I get taken advantage of all the time by everyone, yeah I am one of thoughs people that most people only talk to when they want somthing from me or want me to do somthing for them but it doesn't bother me that much I would rather help with everything and have them be my friends then never have any friends
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06-05-2008, 03:58 AM
Ahhhhhh..Meditation is like when your in the zone. Hard to explain with out going chinese on your butt. Errrr.......Its like your working on a project and everything is like all clear. OOOOHH Like before you go to sleep! That weird gray area between awake and sleep. Thats meditation, you jus have to focus all thoughts man.
Don't worry, I understand you, I am a sub! So I gets walked over all the time, but it dosen't bother much anymore. I mean I am a bit of a harsh person if you meet me and totally blunt but, yea...........It'll work out. You'll find your one just for you.
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06-05-2008, 04:08 AM
I'll send you a pm about meditation I hear it's relaxing.
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06-05-2008, 04:35 AM
Personally i dislike it when people change because of others.I know how hard it can be and sometimes i would love to be a butt to people.But its not going to help you nor i get through life even if people say being nice isn`t always rewarding.Of course i`m not saying you should always be nice,just be nice to people till they prove that they don`t deserve it.I have been used by a friend before and it sucked majorly..i don`t think it has happened to me after that though
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06-05-2008, 04:40 AM
;O; Omg! I'm so sorry to hear that T_T If I knew her, I would slap her. ;]
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