It's only 2 times a month. ^^" But, I dunno if I'll continue. Depends on whether I'll still be here.
I'm still so behind on my school work, I dunno if I'll be able to catch up.

You need to try and catch up Ser. I hate to sound motherly or something, but you'll regret it if you don't... and I think it's important you do so that you can stay for the counselor as well.

Anyway, the presents...we have this huge collection of black metal wall art of mountains, elk, deer, etc. in our kitchen that we've been building on for a few years now, and so we went and got matching switch-plates. We gave them to her this morning because we celebrate birthdays the weekend before generally, and she loved them.

I know, don't worry. I'll catch up. I'm just overly stressed and the mass amounts of work keep piling up. I know I'll catch up. Mike keeps telling me he knows I'll do whatever I have to do to catch up and kick ass.

Okay, that's good he's being so supportive of you. :)

Went out for my mom's birthday a little bit today. Ended up finding some clearance sterling silver rings and buying a buttload of them which made me happy since I've been wanting them.

Oh nice! Sounds like a good night was had. I didn't do much. I'll probably go out tomorrow and treat myself to some clothes. We'll see. I definitely would like to get some Wendy's... I haven't had fast food in awhile and would like a burger or something for relaxy drinky night.

Yeah, he's being really supportive. I feel bad I'm getting upset so much. I broke down crying when he called me during his break today and he sounded so sad when he said that he wished there was more he could do to make me feel better, he hates it when I get like this.
But, I felt better after awhile.

I'm hoping we do something nice when we get our refund checks in the mail like he said he wanted. He mentioned last week that he hopes he gets his soon and it's a good amount so we could do something nice or something liek that.. I dunno. I'll just be happy to see him soon.

It was okay. :) It wasn't really anything special. My mum's not excited about turning 60 and apparently didn't want a big hullabaloo to go with it either...

Mmm. I want some fast food so bad, but I need to watch it since I am trying to get into shape, yet I ate out a couple times this week because of the birthday and had cupcakes...

Yeah, that's why I just want you to try your best and stay on campus so you can keep up the counselor. You'll get to go home in the summer, but might as well take advantage of this.

Hopefully you guys get something fun to do. :)

I dunno if I'll be going home during the summer. depends on if I get a job that would have me working in the Summer. I should, I need the money :/

Yeah... I'll see what I can do with this stuff. I'm just burnt out, but we all are.

I'll def treat myself tomorrow to some. I really would like to. Especially after looking at clothes I can't fit into yet and eat my feelings :P But, in Spring, I'm back on my bike.. I hope I can keep it up.

I'm sure you can get something simple? Can you get back the job you had last year?

I can, but I refuse to keep working in food. My job last year was at Mighty Taco. Technically I can get hired back, but I won't. I don't want to start at the bottom of the food chain there, and I dislike the GM and I don't want to deal with the catty bullshit of the people who worked there. I was very bitter there. The people I did make friends with there, 1 was fired when I was there, and the one girl (who was a manager and I still talk to now) had moved back home and quit. That and I now live a 30 minute drive away from there, so it would be a bit of an inconvience to my dad and stepmother to have to do that. Yeah, my stepsister did that when she didn't drive, but I refuse to. Especially with my dad's shitty hours. I'll figure it out. I have plenty of experience in what I've done that I have a chance at a lot more than some people I know at home.


I'll see if I can get something here on campus in the libraries. I just need to get stuff taken care of and situated here. If I'm unable to, then I'll try for a small store job at home that is walking distance.

I'd try customer service like walgreens and such then, honestly as a company they really weren't better or worse then many others and they did pay me a bit more (plus commission), just don't shop there or let the couponers drive you crazy.
I personally have been day dreaming of just a front desk hotel some crappy corporate chain but just transferring to somewhere cool every year or so when I get bored.... but thats after I finish school (and is basically my acceptable plan "b")

I'm jealous of you guys a little getting to spoil yourselves XD new clothes and pretty jewelry, way better then fixing your broken stuff XP

There ya go, that'd probably be a good option.

Well, my family is just getting over a "FIX ALL THE CARS" stage.

I had to replace the overly expensive tires on my car not long ago, and my dad hit a deer around Thanksgiving and had to spend weeks messing with that. My dad also cracked the mirror on my mum's new Subaru so that has to get fixed now, but that shouln't be too bad...

Eh, I suck at trying to get people to buy things or sign up for somthing, so anything with a commission is out of the question. :/ But, I would not mind some customer service type job that has me in a store instead of working in food. I hate food.
I hate the assholes I have to make food for. I wish I could bitch at them that I won't make their food fast enough till they're nicer and more respectful. That it's not my damn fault they're late for class and that they should have thought about the time and such before coming down here to where I work to get food knowing how busy it gets.

I just want to make it through this midterm for this horrid class before I think of looking for work still. I dunno.

Tsk. People are such jerkwads sometimes. Quit blaming your problems on the person who could very well spit in your food dumb dumb.

You'll get through it, Ser. :)

Yeah... I don't mind the job because I work with good people, I just hate the students who are assholes. I do have students who are nice and are good. I had one girl last week actually say that I was her favourite person and that she loved it when she got me because I'm always so chipper and nice. ^^ So, that made my day. I also have a couple girls who will come through to Wraps when I work there and actually will ask for me to do their bagel sandwiches because I know exactly what they want on it and do it right. ^^

Awh, that's sweet. Some people really just can't follow other people's orders so when you get someone who does it right, it's nice.

Ugh. It snowed cats and dogs for a couple hours here and now I am SOOO cold. I really just want to go home, get into my bed and sleep snuggled up to my cat for a couple hours. Tg I have tomorrow off. I so don't want to be in school right now.

I just freaking come here, go to class, find somewhere to sit on my computer for two hours, then go back to two classes, then go home. I'm sick of studying this stuff. It's miserable. I feel like the wife in "The Vow" who just sat and drew in her notebook in law school and then quit to become an artist.

Yeah, I'm one of the people who actually does good with making sure people's food is correct.
mike and I were talking about it over the summer when I worked at mighty taco and it's because I give a shit. Most people in food really don't.

I know what you mean. I get up, go to work some mornings, work, come back and sit on my computer trying to do homework. Days i don't work, I getup, sit at computer trying to do homework and fail both times.
some days I go to class.
Kinda sucks I don't have any other talents to just up and leave grad school and be successful.

Hey, if I order something sans lettuce and it actually gets to me without lettuce on it, I'm a pretty happy camper. Not that hard to be successful in that job if you just do the little things.

Yeah, that's the thing. I wish you could just quit and KNOW you could be successful in something. The way it is with me is I feel like I need something like this psych degree to fall back on. But that's all it is. It's something to fall back on. I don't really enjoy it anymore, and I really don't think I want to spend my life suffering through it. Gawd. Oh well. I'm just sick of the routine! Three years it's been exactly the same. Three. Years.

People always tell you that routine makes things manageable. I think it's the routine that kills you, man.

Jeeze. I just want to get home and exercise or something to get my mind off all this stuff.

Yeah, I get people who will actually bitch-tell me "no lettuce" or no something else. I love it when I ask if they want mayo, lettuce, and tomato, tell me "no" then proceed to tell me that they want mayo, tomatoes and a bunch of other things.
Or I'll ask if they want veggies and they ask for mayo. O.o

Yeah, all I have is the degree and if I finish grad school, this degree. But, that's it. I don't have any meaningful talents that could get me anywhere. I'm sick of it too. I'm sick of the routine, sick of the suffering that I've been going through since Sept 2006 going through the bachelor's stuff and now this. It's been over 5 years now and it's not getting any better.
And now since I'm in grad school, I feel like I have to suffer and finish this no matter what cost to my life, health, relationships because if I don't, I would have just waster MY money. :/

It is, the routine is what gets to me. It's the routine that does.

I have to do so much work today, I'm slacking off to keep my mind off of it all. I have to do my midterm for the worst class I'm still in. I avoided my school e-mail over the weekend just so I could have a good weekend and now I have to go back to suffering and not having a good mind.

Lolz, some people are just incompetent, I guess.

Well, I'm really good in art stuff, but I don't know that I'm into the idea of being a starving artist. But yeah, that's pretty much exactly it.

It's just like, they say that "doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different reaction is the definition of insanity." So it's like, college has done nothing but make me miserable for the last three years, so why the f am I still doing it?!?

I'm going to go and exercise super hard now that I'm home. I ate a healthy dinner and now I want to burn it all off. >.> I guess this is my new thing to throw all my stress into.

Yeah, that's a good idea. I usually put all my stress out in making my dinner. ^^ I made spaghetti and chicken tonight. I put some spices on the chicken and cooked it in the pan, and made a sauce with olive oil and some other seasonings :) Was awesome. Once my roommate is done making a mess in the kitchen, I may get more.

Yeah... I know what you mean. College is supposed to give us the stuff we need to do something good in our lives, but it makes us soo miserable :(

I had some shrimp scampi with buttered garlic parm noodles for dinner and it was yummy. :) I like to cook so much, I hope I can find some good healthy meals to start switching over to.

I don't get where people have all this fun in college. XD

I know really? Where do these people find the time to have fun? I only had some form of fun the last semester of my undergrad. This first year of Grad school has been killer on me. :( No fun at all. sucks actually.

Oh nice, sounds like a good dinner. I love having the apartment and a kitchen like this (now if I only could just have this nice feeling of having independence and an apartment without the hassle of a brat roommate and all this hell of schoolwork death)
I'm sure you can. I'm surprised I still can fit in a size 14 (Large) and I swore I gained weight and stuff with this being on my ass a lot eating crappy ^^" I guess I still eat enough health food and do enough movement at work to survive.

Honestly I'm just starting to think it's that people are extroverted and we're not. (Sorry if I'm assuming) But yeah, I'm exhausted after spending several hours with people. Extroverts can spend endless amounts of time out with people and what not and do their homework and still be okay. But me it's like: Go to school. Talk to two people. Go home exhausted from the effort.

Yeah, and it wasn't too high cal, either which made me happy. Six shrimp only had 120 calories, I was so surprised!

Your apartment does sound awesome other than your roommate. Is it in otherwise good shape other than her not cleaning?

Oh it's ok, I'm not very extroverted ^^" I'm more introverted than extroverted.

Same, I go to school/work, talk to the few people I do there, leave, and get home and tired. Tomorrow is going to very tiring since I work 12- a little after 5, then I have to meet with 2 girls in my study group and we'll work on homework till we finish and it could be going on 8-9pm before we finish and I'm just beat and want to sleep and give my homework the finger.
I guess I should still be a little thankful one of my classes the prof has had personal issues at home and hasn't been able to posty much (it's a thankful since his personal family issue is actually going better now)

Yeah, my room is a bit messy, but the apartment hasn't blown up with my roommate's "inability" to clean because she's lazy or a bitch. I think it's she's lazy.

Ser; the commission at walgreens is hardly selling stuff, it's just regular customer service for the most part. But each month whatever is new and special (like Christmas cards in the photo dept or that brand new mascara) are worth like a dollar or so each to you if you ring them up. So sometimes you get nothing, but other times I get a lady that wants 50 of the x-mass photo cards this year (score 50 bucks). I never really was a hard seller in any way but you can bet if I SAW someone pick it up on there own I was like "I can ring you up over here! I have samples!" I would give it a try Rite Aid or any of those kinds of stores I think would hire you.

BUT on the other hand the same ass holes you get in food some to Walgreens basically at taco bell the asshole conversation is like *car arrives* "Hi how are you tonight?" no answer..... .... ... "Hi there,-" "JUST A MIN""alright just let me know" ....
"NUMBER FOUR" "Sure I have a combo number 4 with the mexican pizza or the deal 4 with the beefy-5 layer...""THE NUMBER FOUR!!!""Umm sure the mexican pizza?" "NO!""Okay, what to drink with the 5 layer then?""AND MILD SAUCE""To drink""COKE" *drives up* and I'm like, I should be rude and be like no drink we have pepsi not coke xP and that may sound like an exaggeration but it really happens all the time, I'm not sure who at corporate thought two sets' of meals 1-4 was a good idea but people ALWAYS seem to think I'm acting like there are idiots when I ask them to clarify.
But that at walgreens just turns into a lady with a cart full of random stuff and NO MONEY but an envelope of coupons and she's going to argue math and wording about products for an hour until she gets that whole cart for free
SO pick your battle
if your like Ely and it's the routine that kills you, it may be much better. It's completely different work and generally more relaxed and slower pace (except truck day). But the same people that were assholes at mighty taco still come into the convince store.

I dunno at lest I still have hope of having and loving interior design, but it's the "it's not what you know it's who you know" and the selling myself aspect of it that I just don't think I'll be able to pull off. I feel like at times I'm just wasting time and money and school, but if I don't get at lest that piece of paper out of it then all of it's a waste and so...what are you going to do?


sorry for the ramble it was a long day at work and I'm at home and whipped out, but I'll actually be on tomorrow a bit