The silence was starting to bother Riku. But he really had no idea what to say to Beju. "... So... Is there anything you want to do today?" he asked. Personally, he had nothing planned other than sit around and watched tv.

Beju Shrugged at the question glad for the silence break but it didnt really help him. This is usually the only thing he did when no one was home after school so , yeah he had no idea.. though he wanted to go through his cloths and see if he can change up his attire. " clean out my closet and change my style other then that nothing really. " He breathed. " this is usually the only thing i do at home." He added gesturing to the tv.

Riku nodded, understanding. "Alright. I'll help you clean out your closet." he told Beju. He really needed something to do. Anything to take his mind off Naomi. Even if it meant cleaning, which was something that he really hated doing. But it would definitely distract him.

Beju blinked he hadnt asked for help and some stuff he didnt want know one to see in his closet. " ah um its fine you dont have to help me in fine." He breathed blushing softly. He didnt like others reall in his room he had things in there that could get him in alot of truoble.

"Are you sure? I don't mind helping." Riku asked. He could tell that something was wrong with Beju. And he was going to find out. Maybe not now. But later, he would.

Beju nodded getting up. " yeah im good , but thanks for offering anyway." He reathed heading up to his room . Once in his room neat scary neat room. He shut the door behind him sighing god supicous much. He opened his closet yes he had some cloths in there boys shouldnt have.

He pulled out the girl shirts and a skirt putting them in his dresser bottom drawer. He hid the box he had with girl boots and makeup yes he was odd. He chewed his lip as he noticed the skull on his dresser no one new what he hid in that a razor for the marks on his shoulder . Other then the stuff hidden his closet was just a mess and needed to be organized and some cloths tossed.

Riku watched Beju get up and go to his room. He picked up the remote and started flipping through the channels. He eventually stopped on some horror movie. It was better than nothing. He leaned back against the couch and relaxed.

Beju pulled all the loose cloths out of his closet and made a piile going through them and found a pants that where tight and used the razor to make slits in the legs making them sexy pants and a baggy see through shirt and made some cuts in it taking a tank and setting that outfit ontop of his dresser. Then went throught the rest of his cloths altering them or putting them in the throw away pile.

Riku tried to pay attention to the movie, but was to distracted. His eyes slid closed and he ended up falling asleep. Which wasn't something he normally did. Not when he just woke up. But he really was exhausted, though he didn't know why.

Beju finished cleaning and picked up the trash pile and heading downstairs he passed his brother sleeping on the couch and dumped the cloths in the trash . He then leaned over the back of the couch and looked at sleeping riku and sighed. What would it take for his brother to love him like he used to love naomi.

Riku didn't notice Beju looking at him. He just rolled over and mumbled something about his brother in his sleep. Though what he said couldn't really be understood. And it wasn't like he knew that he sometimes talked in his sleep.

Beju blinked when his brother mumbled his name and moved around thd couch so he could be closer . " what riku?" he breathed seeing if he could prompt the male to speak again maybe say what he just said. He was so close his lips could easly touch his brothers cheek.

"..Why do you have to be such an idiot..." Riku muttered. Again, he didn't realize it. He just thought that he was talking to Beju face to face. But that was what dreams were, so he didn't even realize he was asleep.

Beju frowned when he heard that sighing he ran his fingers gently through the males soft locks. " because I love you to much." he whispered kissing his forehead . He pulled his hand away almost about to leave he wanted to gear the response though.

".. But why do you love me? All I do is hurt you." Riku muttered. The rolled back over, just about going off the couch. He stopped just before he fell though.

The boy stopped and looked at the sleeping form moving the male so he wasn't so close to the edge. " well I've always loved you and your nicer then you think yes you hurt me alone but your kindness when we were kids over rules it. Plus love is blind brother." he whispered as he put a blanket over the male tucking him in pretty much .

"Oh..." Riku muttered. He slept for about another ten minutes. The rolled again and landed on the floor, jolting awake. Stretching, he moved so that he was sitting back on the couch and looked at Beju. "How long have you been standing there?" he asked.

Beju laughed softly as he watched his brother nap . Wow he was cute when he slept he missed when they were little and snuggled in the same bed when scary dreams happened. He laughed more when his brother fell off the couch he even tried to prevent it. He smiled when thd male noticed him. " I've been here for awhile." he breathed truthfully .

"Oh.... Was I talking in my sleep?" Riku asked. Naomi has told him that he talked in his sleep. Though he never really believed her. And if he had spoken in his sleep, he just hoped that he didn't say anything embarrassing. He really wouldn't want that.

The boy just smirked . " yep you called me an idiot." he stated matter of factly. He ran his fingers through his hair and noted how long it had got. " not that I disagree , hm should I cut my hair?" he asked the end really wondering.

At least what he said wasn't embarrassing. Though he didn't know what he could have said that would have been embarrassing. He thought about the question for a moment. "Yeah. You probably should. Your starting to look like a girl."

Beju felt an sharp pain at the words. " but girls are pretty and life would be easier if I were a girl...maybe I shouldn't I wonder if anyone could tell if I really wasn't a girl if I dressed like one." he breathed curious and kinda wondering if maybe his brother would like him if he was a girl . Then he couldn't say it was because he was a boy .

"I don't see why you would want to be a girl. All they do is complain about everything." Riku said. He looked at his brother. "Besides. I like you just the way you are." he told him.

Beju signed this male made it so hard to understand what he wanted! " remeber I told you I was in love with you brother your straight which is way being a girl wouldn't be bad even if I detest them and now you confuse me with you saying you like me just the way you are." he stated showing distress . He was ready to go upstairs and lock himself in his room he was that confused.

"Just because I like girls doesn't mean that I want you to change who you are. It wouldn't be right." Riku told him. He really didn't want for his brother to change. Besides. He was getting tired of being around girls. They were just getting on his nerves all the time.