Ugh, ooookay. I feel better now. Ish. Anyway. I got my jury duty moved to my Spring Break which is better for me. Which MEANS I don't have to do jury duty during my midterms week. Praise the lord that lady was so nice to me I thought she was going to eat me alive but she didn't. >.> I think she was just happy I was responsible and didn't just try to blow it off, you know?

Birdie, what is truck day? XD

And I understand that. Psychology is similar in that way. Your clients mostly come from referrals from family doctors and what not that you've made friends with ya know?

Truck day is when the truck comes for deliveries. I know Mike had that today at Taco Bell (he goes in at 8.15 instead of 8.30 in the morning on Tuesdays because of the truck I think he told me)

Yeah, Assholes will be everywhere. I'm still trying to work on getting a better job here on campus... Like finally sending in my resume for the one student position... dunno if I should send in a cover letter ^^"

I am getting testy though, I'm tired, finally got back an hr ago from study group, and worked today too. Doesn't help Mike for some reason isn't responding to me on messengers. :/ UGH He better have a good excuse. My head is hurting and I'm tired and testy.

Oh that's good you were able to move your jury duty :)

You should ALWAYS send a cover letter Ser. Always. It is the only thing that gives you a chance to separate yourself from the crowd. Even if it's just a fast food job, write a cover letter. It takes ten minutes to BS and it could be the one reason you got hired and the other person didn't.

Omg, that's so obvious. Wow. Impressed with self atm. Very impressed. My mind was like...why would a bunch of people in trucks just show up on one day? XD

I'm sure he's just tired or asleep, Ser.

But yeah, I'm glad I got it moved though. Of course I still have to go, but oh well.

Yeah, I figured I would. I have it started and my resume also open so I can fix it. I'll send them in the morning before work. or after work so I don't end up getting a phone call at work. ^^"


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I was just feeling eh awhile ago because I had a headache, was tired and feeling the bad feeling with school. :/
Yeah, he fell asleep, he came back awhile ago saying he fell asleep by accident. ^^" We'll both be heading to bed soon, I'm still feeling a bit off. :/

My body is feeling the burn from exercise today so I'm uber tired. I couldn't do a very good exercise regime because of it. Did get in 30 situps and about 100 or so curls with a 5 lb weight so it could be worse. I will do a serious workout tomorrow when I get home.

Glad he was just sleeping. :) I don't blame you for overreacting. I was in a bad mood most of today because calling the jury commissioner really made my anxiety levels jump and I'm pretty sure I'm PMSing, so yeah. On edge. I get it. Plus midterms next week. XP

man I am beat spent the whole day running around still trying to get the ps3 and russes glasses fixed and such XP I hate how my days off end up being days in the car instead.
Oh well better then customers right?

Well, that'd be more interesting to me than being at work all day. I generally don't mind errands like that as long as I'm not in a bad mood or exhausted that day.

But, speaking of bad moods. I am kinda pissed right now. I am sitting on the damned floor (with two other people) in my psych class that has been half empty for weeks because it is packed and there are NO seats. What. The. Hell. I just want to leave but what can I do? We're all stuck now.

Yeah... I have just about had it with my roommate today. I am not in a good mood to have her pull this bullshit. I'm fucking tired, I worked long today, I am stressed over school, I have midterm to do by tomorrow, I have to meet with one of my professors tomorrow (the one for the class that is hell and one student anon actually tore him a new one in the discussion board)

Oh jeeze. It's kinda awesome that someone got to tear him a new one, though.

If you want to find out how the rest of my day went go check the Uni thread. I kinda don't feel like retyping it again because it sucked so bad.

sorry you had such a terrible day. :/ Hope it gets better fo ryou since you're home finally.

My day was just long and I'm glad to be out for the day. I might treat myself to painting my nails tomorrow morning and get some remover since I'll need it. I have over a week I can finally paint my nails for a bit .

I didn't apply for the job yet, I'll do that tonight. I really should. After today's day at work, I'm just sick of it. We were short staffed at the station I work at. One girl called off today, leaving myself, this girl Amber (whom I'm getting better with), and 2 union people (so 4 people) and we're one of the ones that gets slammed with customers and the line goes on and on and on. Do the managers pay attention to us when we press the button to page a manager? No, they removed it from our station for some reason. I guess I wasn't working, so now they "pay attention" via the camera. But even then, we don't get a manager to come and help us by taking over on register so whoever is on register can jump on line with us. We're lucky if we do. Sometimes they move another person to help us.
Yeah, Amber and I are awesome, we're strong girls over there (according to one of the managers), but that doesn't mean we can do it all over there when there's a rush of people and one of the union people is on a break and the other one is off somewhere else "wandering".
One of the women I work with has a history of just "wandering" when she's doing something else (like grabbing backups).
Anyway, we were short handed, we didn't get everything taken care of for Pre-close and I was there till 5.45 with the woman I close with on Wednesdays.
Really would love a change of pace... even if it's longer hours and more hours per week, I can deal with it since it won't be this bullshit.

So, I'm tried, irked with the roommate, just want to have a break and not deal with stuff but have a lot to do for tomorrow.

Yeah, the professor fought back with knowledge apparently.-

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Oh yeah, and apparently one of my other younger cousins (this one on my dad's side this time and is 21) is pregnant and I think she just got into a relationship a few months ago.

Yeah, I'm still mega stressed from the upcoming midterms and whatnot, but it could've been a worse day. Could've been a blizzard or something, I'm sure. I did get stuck cooking dinner, but at least I can control the calories that go into it. I'm making a bigger dinner tonight because I've been so strict on my diet the last few days and I'm seriously hungry now and since I'm on my lovely woman's week I need the iron and what not.

Oh, ugh. You had a sucky day too I see. I hope you get a new job.

And congrats to your cousin. >.> Still a bit young and sounds foolish of her.

Sorry if I'm kinda short tonight, it has been a really long day. A friend just asked me for the first time in months to do something and of course I have midterms next week so can't justify going out this weekend.

Oh it's ok, I'm majorly burnt out this week and I have a midterm to do before tomorrow night at midnight and I have to pack tomorrow night before I go to bed because my dad is picking me up Friday morning for the week

It doesn't surprise me sadly. Especially with how her mother (my aunt) is. So it doesn't come a a surprise. Actually to be honest, I'm surprised that it took her till 21 to get pregnant, I was sadly thinking she would have been a couple years ago. WHich is quite bitter of me and I'm sure my dad will share the same feelings.

Oh well, there goes another under 25yr old cousin who has just f'd up their lives and won't get to fully enjoy their 20s.

That sounds godo with dinner. I had a burrito for my lunch at 5.40 and will probably eat some leftovers in an hr and a half. ^^" I have been doing good and haven't had many meals smothered in fried shit.

I did get an e-mail from the counseling centre from my counselor (who is a trainee since I agreed to have a student who is doing their training) I have till next wed to call when I can to set up an appointment. Which I'll do that and I'll set it up for the Thursday of the week we get back from break. ^^

Thanks. I really do need/want a new job, this is horrible and yeah ^^"

Ohh, is your Spring Break next week?

Yeah, some people it just doesn't surprise you. When my friend got pregnant a couple years back it didn't come as a surprise to me or many others. She had started coming off as very desperate by that point.

Yeah, tomorrow will be a light dinner. I did good and my lunch was uber healthy today so I'm still not too bad on calories and I intend to go burn 500 so that should get me down to healthy calories tonight. But GAWD I was hungry. My period does that to me.

Good good. Also as a psych major I really appreciate you helping out one of my own. XD A lot of people wouldn't give one of us a chance.

yeah, it's next week. I really need it badly.

Yeah, I don't hang out with this family much or talk to them. But, after a bunch of years, I figured it wouldn't surprise me at all. Considering both girls were raised by the aunt (their mom) who did the same thing. She was desparate for a baby and she would poke holes in my cousins' dad's condoms.

Yeah, I'll know that feeling in a couple weeks. Luckily I've been on my pill for 2 months now (this is the 2nd month), so it won't be too bad ^^"
When I cook at home I do eat healthy, When I get stuff from work, I try to eat something decent for me.

^^ When I was asked by the first woman at my initial visit if I minded if I met with a psych major who was doing their hours there for training, I told her that I'd be fine with it since I wouldn't mind helping someone out like that and I usually turn to you when I have moments ^^
Yeah, I don't get it why someone won't. Yeah, they haven't had all of the years of schooling yet (because they're oding it now) and they don't have all the degrees and years of practice. But, how else will you guys get the practice unless you have these sessions with students like me?

Ach, well, that's good for you. Next week is all three of my midterms. But after that I'm done and get a week off till my damn jury duty. But oh well.

My periods really aren't that bad. The first day is usually moderately painful and I pop a couple doses of Midol, but after that I'm actually a bit of a happy camper because I lose all my water weight and my hormones wash out.

And I don't mind that you come to me. :) Sometimes I just get tired of Mike's shenanigans, but I'll always listen.

Well, the pain we have to go through to get those degrees, I mean seriously. We didn't get PhDs by sleeping.

Yeah, I'll get to snuggle with all of my kitties and Mike ^^

Mine are horrible when I wasn't on my pill. It's like the gates from hell open in my area and the flood gates open. :/ I'm also more of a bitch during those times too. I'm in pain, I'm horribly heavy and feel like crap.
On my pill, it's nothing. ^^

Yeah ^^" I feel bad with all of the shit he's pulled. Thankfully it's slowed down and it's better. There's a lot of family issues with me that don't make it any better :/

Yeah, how do they expect anyone gets their degrees? we're awesome yes, but we don't just become awesome. We learn

My cat is absurdly unhappy about me exercising, lol. I'm always doing jumping jacks or something when she wants to spend time with me.

Ach, yeah, mine suck but not that bad. The first day I'm just miserable, that's it generally.

I feel so bad for turning down this girl for hanging out. I get the feeling she's even worse than me for being freaked about asking people to do stuff, but I just can't. I have all those midterms I'd just bring the mood down if I went because I'd be so worried.

awww poor kitty. You should give her extra snuggles when you're not exercising :D Fair trade off.

Yeah, I would feel bad for that too. I wouldn't want to bring the mood down. I always feel bad thinking I do when with friends and if anything comes up about school or roommate problems ^^" Next week will be good to see people when I'm home... even though I have to catch up on all my work. :/

Yeah, she's getting the love now. She's such a good girl. She went and sat in her cat bed and gave me the eye while I finished my situps. XD But she's very happy now.

Yeah, the other thing is I'm pretty sick and tired of the other girl she invited. I mean, on its own I wouldn't be able to go with the midterms, but the other girl I'm just done and tired with.

Said other girl doesn't invite me to hang out with her ever with her other friends. She also chose a couple of people who really hurt/didn't stick by me a couple years back over me. So I'm just pissed at her at this point. The girl may not have chosen to hurt me, but she did. So I'm just done.

Yeah, I like avoiding shit like that. ^^" I guess I don't hang out with people a lot to avoid shit like that. That and I avoid my family because of the same reason. :/

Yay! happy kitty. I know a father and son pair of a couple tabby cats who will be very happy boo-boos on Friday when dad and I get home.
And I know of a very very happy orange and white tabby who will be a very happy kitty on Saturday when I spend the night at mom's. And a happy Cornish rex and long haired kitty on Sunday when I go to Mike's ^^
So yeah, lots of happy kitties. That and my cousin haylee's cat will be happy when if we go over to my stepmom's mom's apt when I'd be with my dad ^^
I def need the kitty cuddles.

Yeah, I don't hang with people a lot because of that. I dunno. I just feel like 90% of the time people would never choose me over anyone else, and that they don't want me around because I bring the mood down. So I guess I just don't try anymore. But even then I don't know if it's me who brings down the mood or if people are all just downers.

Awh, so many kittypoos. :3

I swear if I didn't have a cat I'd be on anti-anxiety meds. My cat is far cheaper and more effective.

yeah... and now I caused shit with mike tonight because apparently he didnt' know I had the shower. which is fucking bull. I told him I had to go to it.
HE WAS HERE WHEN I GOT THE DAMN INVITE.

I told him I had the shower to go to. I bought the white dress for the shower. I TOLD him that I bought the white dress to wear to the baby shower this coming sunday!

He goes to bed saying something about having me stay over saturday when he gets off work and spend the night and spend all day sunday with him... I told him I had the shower that I wish I could. HE fucking forgot and is acting like I didn't say anything. when I fucking did... MULTIPLE times. I told him LAST week that I was spending Friday night with Dad, Saturday night with mom because of the shower on Sunday and even told him the times.
Well, this will be the shittiest fucking spring break ever because I won't get to see Mike till NEXT Friday and he's making a huge deal over this because I confused him. When I actually thought otherwise and thought that he knew that I had this to go to.

I'm tempted to fucking skip this damn shower, I don't even want to fucking go.

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Just when things were looking good and getting better, I somehow without knowingly doing so, find a way to fuck things up. Oh joy

.....you didn't confuse him. He confused himself. It'll be okay, Ser. Take a few deep breaths--he will come to his senses and realize it was his fault by tomorrow.

You did NOT screw things up. You've been telling him for weeks. This isn't your fault.

I know. It probably is all of the crushing depression of realising that he won't be able to see me for awhile still then. I did tell him I had this to go to. I really did. I hope he does realise it and that he does call me tomorrow when he goes on break so I can apologise and tell him that I did tell him and that I'm sorry if I didn't say something in a right way that wouldn't lead to confusion. That I'm so stressed and bogged down with everything that maybe I didn't word it right.

It just sucks. I wish I didn't have this to go to on Sunday. I want to go to be pretty and such because I deserve it, but at the same time I don't because if I go, I'll be a downer because everyone will be showering her with all this praise and gifts and such and all happy for her...while I'm down because I have to wait till late next week to see him. and it'll only be for a couple of days. Not anything more. And I don't live with Mike like my cousin and his girlfriend do. I don't get to see him every day like she and my cousin do. Everyone else there gets to see their husband/boyfriend/whatever every day because they live together, or see each other all the time because they're not like Mike and I.
I just know it. If I don't go I'll have people going "Oh but you saw him back a couple weeks ago. Can't you be away for one day?" No. No I can't. Because the last time we saw each other WAS 3 weeks ago. We don't live with each other, I don't get to see him every day. If I don't see him this coming weekend, the next time I get to see him because of his shitty work schedule won't be till the 15th which is the Friday of the weekend I go back to school. Only 2 freaking days out of almost a week and a half. You think all these girls in my family would understand? No. I'll get a response of "but you'll still get to see him" or "You'll see him again at Easter" Yeah, so? That is only a 3 day thing. Not even. And that is IF I go home. I don't even know if I can get home for Easter. If I don't, then I won't be seeing him till fucking May... If I get to go home at all for parts of the Summer because I may or may not get a job that requires me to work in the Summer.
They won't understand because they're not away at school separated from their others... They live together with them or they get to see each other more.

*sigh* I can sympathize, Ser. People who have never been in long distance relationships just don't get it whatsoever. They don't get it because they don't feel the agonizing pain you do. LDRs make you feel like your skin is on fire because you want to be hugged by them but you can't for months on end, and it makes your heart hurt because no matter how much you talk to them it doesn't change the fact that they're just a picture on the computer or a voice on a telephone.

People don't get that, and that's why you just have to not listen to them.

But you should go to that party Ser. Even if you kinda don't want to be there, like you said you really want to feel pretty for a day, and you deserve that. Mike is just going to have to understand that.