Because runway models have to be like stick thin XP I'm a curvy girl and I'm not ashamed of it >.< Besides Alt modeling was more fun I got to flip off the camera and stuff XD Plus sometimes I got to keep the corsets or clothes I was modeling for the company >.< I dunno I'm just not sure how this next shoot will go with my oh so boring hair color. My crazy hair got me a lot of work.

That one pair of hooker boots are a wedge but still like six inches tall. Russ loves them because it puts his head RIGHT at boob height * rolls eyes*

Don't have the money to redye it yet?

Yeah, if I were to do modelling, I'd be considered a plus size model, and I'm a very healthy weight. Only a size 8-10. >.>

Hahaha, I like it. XD Most guys would have a fit over that.

Yeah but if I re-dye it crazy like right now it will probably make the REAL job search much harder....
Has ely seen my new hair?

Actually no Plus size models are HUGE! Like at lest 300 pounds, it's a misconception that all models are stick thin, that's just main stream media. Curvy "real" women do actually get a decent amount of work to. Really you don't have to even be pretty to be a model you just have to pretend like you think you are. XD They consider "attitude" the most important.

Nope russ just goes "nap time" and settles in O.O XD

Ahh, yeah, that makes sense. I've seen it in your wedding photos--I don't think it's bad at all.

I guess there are different levels of plus size. Lots of the "plus sized" models I've seen are my size. And YES, some models are hard to consider attractive, but there they are....

Lolol, that's cute. I don't have enough boobage to be a pillow. :lol:

yeah... I dunno sooo blah, it doesn't go with my style at all... I dunno.
Well there's a site that I'm on and if you call yourself plus size and you have no rolls, they say your misleading them.

I have WAY to much I'll give you some XD
speaking of boobage I ask russ for a picture of my necklace
THIS is what I get
XD
he's all "you necklace is in there"
bear in mind when I had said this I was holding my necklace OUT and away from me, but he didn't think that was going to be a good enough picture evidently XD

Russ is gonna take me out for lunch to see if it cheers me up, I'll be back in an hour though.

Lol, I think it could be the prettiest natural color ever, and you still wouldn't be happy with it because it wasn't purple. XD

I'll take about half of that. :lol: Well, of course he needed a good wallet picture of you to carry around! Lol, Jk, jk.

Hey ely hows it going?

I'm okay, Otaku. How are you?

LOL that's almost true XD When I have HAD to have natural hair colors I went with black and then just did the yarn fall thing, black goes with everything and I'm so freaking matchy matchy in real life my hair DOES have to match XD

That's perfect Ely then I'll be a normal size XD

Lolz. I don't think my hair matches any of my outfits, but I don't care. I don't like brown clothes, and I'm not going to wear them to match my hair. :talk2hand:

Then I'd actually have something to boast of. :lol:

I'm stressing out. I have to go to this 9 hour long orientation for my college tomorrow and I have to go all alone. I'd rather walk out in front of a bus than do such a thing. >.>

Well I just hate brown like thismuch more then you then ? XD I think I do actually have ONE ivory/cream color outfit (though it's still mostly black) and I only bought it for my family and to match the hair XD

Pssh all you needs a hand ful as they say right?

T.T I'd go with you, after all this crap I'm debating just being one of those kids that lives off student loans for a bit. It has always scared me to be in debt like that but I'm so seriously pissed at corporations right now, and I don't know what else to do. BUT what I always did, sit in the very back and act like you don't want anyone to talk to you. For some reason people will flock to you then. Like being on my laptop or reading a book seemed to be like a conversation magnet O.O

Funny thing is that I really do like my brown hair and eyes, just not the brown clothes. It makes me look weird to wear brown clothes. I do have a cream shirt, but that's it.

I've got that much, at least. Not mosquito bites, but relatives of. :lol:

That would've been nice. :yes: I dunno, I'm in that awkward place where I'd really like to have more friends and stuff, but I'm a bit emotionally compromised at this point and kinda just want to be left alone for awhile. At least till the summer's over while I get my shit together and such.

But yeah, I'm figuring on putting off a leave me alone vibe. It'll probably make me mysterious and magnetic like you said. XD

I'm not looking forward to being in debt right now, but it won't be long from now that I will be.

I think it looks fine on others, even really good but I just.... yeah XD you know me well. It's like red heads, I think the red heads with green eyes and freckles sooooo freaking hot. But I tried to dye my hair red once and ,.... ew it just brought out all the yellow in my skin tone and I looked like I was queasy all the time T.T

See I think that would be prefect, I wouldn't HAVE to wear a bra when it was hot or sweaty but I could still fill out a shirt. But then again I don't really have the shoulders to do that without looking like a line backer XD

I know how you feel, I would like more friends but I dunno I haven't really met anyone that I was like "I need to kick it with YOU" I dunno I keep getting told if I was easier to get a hold of I would have more friends, but I don't have face book and evidently that's the only way you can get in touch with someone now a days.

Yeah, it works for you. :yes: I agree--I think red heads or gorgeous, and every time I hear someone crack a "ginger" joke I want to smack them upside the head and tell them that the "gingers" are prettier than they are, so shut it. XP

I can't get away with not wearing a bra. That's mostly due to the fact that I'll have a strange saggy appearance, and if I don't...it's cold, and bad things are happening. XD

I check my phone a couple of times a day, so that's not necessarily my problem. Seems like I'm always available when nobody wants me, and then I'm busier than f*** if they do, so I come off as a jackass a lot. I'm also really skeptical about people and don't trust easily, so it's hard to get close to me sometimes. I think my biggest problem is that I usually only have a couple friends at once, and they don't know each other, so if I'm hanging with someone it's one on one. Then they get bored with me or something, and end up insulting me by saying they don't want to hang anymore unless there are more people with us.

It's like, "look, I get it. It's more fun to have a ton of people, but I'm complimenting you by spending one on one time with you, and you aren't making any effort to bring anyone else into the group, so wtf is your problem?" >.> I'm done with getting screwed over by tons of people, so if I can only handle a couple/few friends at once, that's how it's going to be for awhile.

lol I saw the "them" instead of they XD jk Though I'll admit mines atrocious I really need to get better at spelling >.<
Yesh I love a redhead with there adorable little ringlets :( I even know how to fake freckles with make up XD

.... mine are always saggy.... I couldn't imagine what they would look like if I had kids *shudders*

People don't call me unless I have no mins.... now that I have an unlimited plan, no calls... I dunno. I also do NOT like big groups, whenever I'm in a large circle of friends then there's always SOME kinda drama, she nailed him, when the other girl wanted him, or he broke her heart, or they got in a stupid argument and they ALWAYS want you to play sides O.O the more you try to be friends with everyone the more everyone hates you. So F'THAT I just want one good female friend I can do girly stuff with, and Russ is good for everything else. But because of that I've been ultra picky and if there is just one thing I don't like about you, or that irritates me it's over. Like Maggie, she was awesome. But then she got pregnant and didn't quit smoking and that's all it took for me to stop talking to her.

I messed with that sentence five times to get it right, and it still isn't. :lol:

Freckles are the beginning of age spots, so I don't like 'em too much. >.>

Ever seen the ladies in the indigenous African American tribes? Those boobs. :lol: :poke:

Yeah, it's like some psychic thing people have, and it's not a good kinda psychic, huh? And pretty much. I'd go pretty flippin' apeshit if I had to listen to that crap, or if I went through it myself. Leave my guy alone, I'll leave your guy alone. Why are people so stupid like that? My ex's group of friends was like that, and he never could figure out why I didn't particularly like a single one of them. If your group of friends is like the group on the show Friends, you have a problem, I'm sorry. You do not sleep with all your friends, and tell all of them that you're in love with them at some point or another. >.>

Pretty much. One good girlfriend would be nice. I kinda have a candidate for that irl, but I'll see how that goes over time. I'm a little more forgiving, though. It has to be one HUGE f' up for me to leave. If you do a few stupid things, that's okay--nobody's perfect. But what your friend Maggie did is very wrong, and I've left friends for that kind of nutty stuff, too.

lol no you got it now, I knew what you ment in the first place, your just so much smarter then me it's good to know you make mistakes to.
lol not when they are made with a dark foundation XD Besides I think you don't like them cuse you get them sometimes :yes: They do have a fade cream that is supposed to help un do that damage though.

Oh I have Ely... to many times XD

Exactly! I hate the drama of it all, plus I get a little anxious in large group unless it's a very specific circle XD

and I'll finish this in a sec my batteries doing that crap

Couldn't decide if I should wait for you to edit the post, or just reply, but I'll just reply.

Nah, I don't know that I'm smarter than you. You've said plenty of stuff to me that I had to go look up. :yes: Besides, I'm not as articulate irl by far. XP I kinda have to keep myself from stuttering when I'm thinking of words sometimes, actually. My mind and tongue don't connect as well when I'm talking for some reason. :lol:

I think freckles are pretty, actually. I just don't like them because I know it means you've been way too exposed to the sun and wrinkles are coming. >.>

Yeah, I like large groups when I know all of the people. :) If I don't know even one or two people I kinda shut down, though.

Ack, tonight is not one of those good nights at this moment. Earlier it was an awesome day spending the day with Mike. But, I found out that Rascal (my mom's cat) is most possibly dying. So, we're watching him and he keeps trying to do the cat thing and go somewhere and die alone.

>.> That's bad. This isn't the really young cat, is it?

Rascal turned 17 this year (my baby- Eli is 15). Both our boys are pretty up there.
Thankfully the really young cat I'm attached to is still kicking some butt and as cute as always.

Awwwh, yeah, then I'm sorry, Ser.

I'll hope he's okay for you, but it's impossible to promise anything. :(

Mom texted me about him looking like he's on his way out, but lately Rascal has been looking very ragged and looking like he's getting to that point. So, I've had time to get prepared.
Mike comforted me earlier. He may be mom's cat, but he's my little buddy.

Well, that's good, then. It's the worst when it's unexpected.

Yeah, kitties just end up loving everybody in the family most of the time.

Yeah, we've been expecting it for awhile with gramps.
He attached himself to both my mom and I, but was definitely her cat.

hmm, Elijah finally heard the mouse in back and is looking for it ^^ yay