02-11-2010, 03:11 PM
@ fairywaif: that is so sad! i do know what you mean tho, i used to crush on boys but was too shy/scared to do anything about it >.< i still kind of am like that, but i put myself out there a lil more now i think. did you lose contact with him? i mean, you can't stalk him on fb or anything? i've now been inspired to share a story i have! :]
so in college i was vaguely friends with this guy some of my close friends went to hs with and were cool with. we would sometimes see him on the street or at mutual friends parties and said hi, but we never really talked or anything. but my senior yr, i moved into the apt building him and my other friend lived in, directly beneath them, and we began to get closer. we would start studying together and watching tv together. in the beginning i went up there to hang with his roommate, but slowly each day i would end up spending more time with him. we got along so well!
so one day, one of my best friends met him when he gave me and her a ride somewhere, and she thought he was so hott! she kept talking about how looking into his eyes was like looking into pools of blue. i was kind of annoyed at her talking about him like that, and then i realized i liked him! i was completely enamored with him, and i was jealous! i didn't know what to do because i didn't want to hurt my friend by pursuing him, because she basically called dibs on him. but the more we flirted and talked the more i fell for him but tried to hide it inside.
one day i ran into him at a late night food spot on a weekday, we both had been out and were headed home. my friends had a full car, but we were headed to the same place so we managed to squeeze him in, and of course i ended up sitting on his lap, lol. when we got there, wer were still talking down the hall until we stopped at my door. we both got a little quieter and and the atmosphere had changed. i felt like it was the time in a movie where the two leads kiss, but i freaked out because i didn't want to hurt my friend's feelings. i said my goodbyes and rushed in my door, before i did something i might regret later. i was kind of relieved, but at the same time sad i didn't tell him how i feel. so i changed into my pj's and started getting ready for bed, defeated. but that's when he texted me, saying he needed to talk to me, and asking if i could meet him on the stairwell that connected my door to his, and i agreed confused but curious. what could he possibly have to say? what should i do if he doesn't like me, or more importantly if he does?
meeting on the landing, we sat and chatted about random things, me wondering what the real reason he asked to talk to me. after 10 minutes of small talk, i finally asked him what he wanted to talk bout. he replied, "i wanted to ask you how you feel about this . . .". and then he leaned over and kissed me. i was past the point of wanting to care about my friend, because who knew him better than me? i am the one who studied with him, cooked with him, laughed with him every day, and this was my chance. we sat there for a while kissing in the dark stairwell, finally aware of how each other felt. i was so relieved, and happy that he felt the same.
and it turns out my friend didn't care, she was happy for me after all :] el fin, lol. sorry that was so long!! o_O
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