thanks! i did it again on thursday! and then after i did it i actually continued to work out including weighted squats, thigh master sets and weighted lunges!

my thighs were very sore yesterday, but not today... so maybe ill go work out again today if i have time.

i havnt lost any weight... but im not going to give up yet.

well star is officially older today, not that anyones seemed to care. how you doing BSW?

BSW that's the trick. Don't give up. When my mom first joined a gym she didn't loose any weight but it helped with her arthritis. And wow spelled that right with out having to right click on it. I am very impressed with myself.

Originally Posted by star2000shadow

well star is officially older today, not that anyones seemed to care. how you doing BSW?

Happy birthday!!!! I care, i am just really busy in real life... working out, painting making tops and headbands and trying to organize a gallery and fashion show. its a lot of work. but i am so happy that its your birthday! get anything cool? do anything special?

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Originally Posted by Kirin Rosenbaum

BSW that's the trick. Don't give up. When my mom first joined a gym she didn't loose any weight but it helped with her arthritis. And wow spelled that right with out having to right click on it. I am very impressed with myself.

yeah thats a hard one top spell. I sometimes have a hard time with easy words. lately i have caught myself trying to spell hospital with a c and then though, there isnt even a c in that word!!! lol.

but yeah, im trying. i do actually think my cardio is improving, slowly but surely. which is good. my heart murmur and palpatations dont like it when i work out too hard. That was my main concern though, that and inches off my thighs and ass. literally, not just one... i need to loose two or more

right now my moms and mine weight loss has plateaued but we are still loosing inchines

Originally Posted by bloodstainedwings

Happy birthday!!!! I care, i am just really busy in real life... working out, painting making tops and headbands and trying to organize a gallery and fashion show. its a lot of work. but i am so happy that its your birthday! get anything cool? do anything special?

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yeah thats a hard one top spell. I sometimes have a hard time with easy words. lately i have caught myself trying to spell hospital with a c and then though, there isnt even a c in that word!!! lol.

but yeah, im trying. i do actually think my cardio is improving, slowly but surely. which is good. my heart murmur and palpatations dont like it when i work out too hard. That was my main concern though, that and inches off my thighs and ass. literally, not just one... i need to loose two or more

Only got two gifts, five dollars from an online friend, and my sister mary got me towls. my other three sister's didn't even think to call and wish me a happy birthday and my brother didn't bother swinging by. so no i didn't get anything 'cool' which is why im feeling pretty dang crummy right now.

That sucks Star. *huggles*

Originally Posted by star2000shadow

Only got two gifts, five dollars from an online friend, and my sister mary got me towls. my other three sister's didn't even think to call and wish me a happy birthday and my brother didn't bother swinging by. so no i didn't get anything 'cool' which is why im feeling pretty dang crummy right now.

i am so sorry to hear that star. but at least you got towels right? yeah... not much of a compensation... im sorry... i hope that it gets better for you outside of that.

Originally Posted by bloodstainedwings

i am so sorry to hear that star. but at least you got towels right? yeah... not much of a compensation... im sorry... i hope that it gets better for you outside of that.

I guess im just feeling down because this is the first birthday i've had without mom. and it makes them ignoreing me so much worse. at least with mom I'd go over to her place we'd watch some of her tv shows and she'd wish me a hapy birthday and i just.. I'm really missing her badly it's what is making the rest of my siblings ignorein gme minus mary so hard to take right now.

Originally Posted by star2000shadow

I guess im just feeling down because this is the first birthday i've had without mom. and it makes them ignoreing me so much worse. at least with mom I'd go over to her place we'd watch some of her tv shows and she'd wish me a hapy birthday and i just.. I'm really missing her badly it's what is making the rest of my siblings ignorein gme minus mary so hard to take right now.

im sorry to hear how harsh this is for you. i wish i could make it better.

Originally Posted by bloodstainedwings

im sorry to hear how harsh this is for you. i wish i could make it better.

I'm doing a tad better, i've started watching Alien nation, its a favorite series and it's helping a bit. i'm also planning on buying mom a rose when i get money next month and putting it next to her urn..

*huggles on Star*

Originally Posted by Kirin Rosenbaum

*huggles on Star*

thanks hun 'hugs back'

well im glad things are looking up. :D

Originally Posted by bloodstainedwings

well im glad things are looking up. :D

not much, but I'm.. feeling better i guess it was just missing mum on my birthday.

That has to be hard.

Originally Posted by Kirin Rosenbaum

That has to be hard.

everyone tells me it'll get easier over time.. if it feels like this every year until it fades.. i doubt it.. mom always made my birthday special even if it was just with a hug and a 'happy birthday' it was just.. special because she remembered.. that and wanda's not talking to me, darny's not talking to me, dougs busy just surviving, mary did wish me a happy birhtday but she also bought me a bunch of towls 'grimces' and michael is in jail..so yeah a really rough year this year.

Star, I know that feeling all too well. My mother has been gone for over 2 years now and my father passed a little over a month and a half ago... I don't mean to be harsh, but it hasn't gotten any easier and it probably won't ever get any easier. My father's death definitely made it harder for me... but one thing that is keeping me going is knowing that they wouldn't want me to mourn over their death too much. They wouldn't want me to be miserable and they'd want me to keep going. Try to keep that in mind, because 'm sure your mother would be proud to see you keep on going, you know?

Also, BSW, if you don't mind, may you give my avatar a rating and maybe some advice please?

i think its really well balanced and a great theme. there is nothing that i could say is wrong with the avatar, i just would like to see more colour. coming from my avatar... i suppose that doesnt mean much, but i feel that red and black is too over done is all. that makes red and black avatars rather boring to me.

Originally Posted by McNugget

Star, I know that feeling all too well. My mother has been gone for over 2 years now and my father passed a little over a month and a half ago... I don't mean to be harsh, but it hasn't gotten any easier and it probably won't ever get any easier. My father's death definitely made it harder for me... but one thing that is keeping me going is knowing that they wouldn't want me to mourn over their death too much. They wouldn't want me to be miserable and they'd want me to keep going. Try to keep that in mind, because 'm sure your mother would be proud to see you keep on going, you know?

Also, BSW, if you don't mind, may you give my avatar a rating and maybe some advice please?

I'm gonna try and keep going. but some days its just.. hard..and i have noticed more and mor emy lack of wanting to 'DEAL' with actual people online things fine.. but im not to comfortable in going out and just chatting up people..

Well I am here if you want to talk/rant/vent Star dear.

Originally Posted by Kirin Rosenbaum

Well I am here if you want to talk/rant/vent Star dear.

aww thanks Kirin at the moment im feeling a bit better, brother brought food over so i actually has food in the fridge and cupboards. 'blinks' an alien concept their both almost always empty haha.

I am here for you as well if you need a shoulder to lean on.
And BSW, I wanted to go for a dark theme.. but you're right.. black and red is a bit too over done... but red always seems to be my safe point sadly.

Originally Posted by McNugget

I am here for you as well if you need a shoulder to lean on.
And BSW, I wanted to go for a dark theme.. but you're right.. black and red is a bit too over done... but red always seems to be my safe point sadly.

thanks hun, but it hopefully explains my odd silence on here i'v ejust come on to play games where i can beat up on something then gone to read..

Originally Posted by McNugget

I am here for you as well if you need a shoulder to lean on.
And BSW, I wanted to go for a dark theme.. but you're right.. black and red is a bit too over done... but red always seems to be my safe point sadly.

yeah, but it is still a great avatar. i love the layering for the hair, very anime.

and star, if you believe that things will get better with time, then they will. that's why people say it. they are just trying to help you feel better in the end. Its just that right now, they seem like the harshest words ever because you are sitll mourning. and it is fine to mourn, just dont mourn forever. you still have a life to live and they would want you to live it.