oh no :( Clair Voyant, what happened?

Losing a friend is rough and if it was sudden that's even harder. Hope you're coping all right, Clair. Let us know if we can do anything for you during this time of loss.

@ clair *huggles* im here to talk if you need it :C that can be really rough v.v

@salvete i get this almost audible static in my head, similar to brain fog but it has noise attached to it, like tv or radio static thats realllllllly quiet and far away sounding, yet overpoweringly loud at the time occasionally x.x it makes concentrating inmpossible on really days. i also seem have more happenings of the asmr thingy with the weird head rushes i dont fully understand, when my static louder than average. so im guessing the two are linked ._.

I know how hard it can be to lose someone suddenly - it's a shock and definitely hard to process. We're all here for you hon!!

Salvette: I'm glad too. We still have our days of doubt even now, but we work through them. :]

wow Kaisune Kitser, I wonder why that is happening. Do you think this is something that the doctor can figure out

Livi *hugs*

How're you doing today, Sal?

I'll be in and out today depending on how things are going here.

I am doing well as usual ^_^ most of the time, I am doing okay or well or good or great

I made a thread about it in IRL forum. It was an unexpected death.
I'm coping.

Thanks everyone

Sal: That's good.

Clair: My inbox is open if you ever need to talk. I totally know how it feels, and it's so tough.

Awwwww okay Clair Voyant <3 I will go check it out if I remember <3

Thank you.
I keep tearing up periodically when I realize he's gone.

...I don't know how to deal with adult grief.

There are days where I just feel like curling up and crying - and it's been years for me.
It does get easier, but at times it won't feel easy.

Just take it a day at a time hon, and know that everyone grieves differently. So there's absolutely nothing wrong with you.

I found your thready, Clair Voyant. <3 and my reply was kind of long-winded because I ended up typing out everything that went on in my mind after reading your post. But I am really sorry to hear about your friend <3 there is nothing wrong with your way of grieving <3 and we are all here for you if you need a shoulder to cry on or ears to listen <3

Yeah, most people think I am a nutter butter for the way I grieve. Humor is my outlet and most don't appreciate that and get angry with me. Never been big on being sad, mom always said to look on the bright side, remember the good times you had with the person, this way you remember them with a smile on your face and heart.

But all that being said - there is no wrong way to grieve and those who tell you otherwise are wrong. You need to process things in the best way for you and who is someone else to tell you otherwise. They don't know what you need!

I still have completely down days where I miss my brother so much. But I agree with Queen. It helps to remember the good times, the happy memories. Cherish those great times that you two had together. But you are totally allowed to feel upset and sad, and want to cry and cry and cry!

I keep saying "It's okay" which sounds ridiculous. It's not okay. Nothing about any of this is okay but that's what I'm compelled to say. I teared up last night talking to Manny. We were fucking eating and I was crying. Like...i don't know. It's scary; he was my age and healthy and poof! now he's gone. And what scares me most is that this will happen again someday. I don't know who or when, but I'll get another phone call telling me someone has passed away...I know it sounds ridiculous because I am so young...but I get older every minute and so do my loved ones...none of us will live forever. It may be many many years away...but someone else I care for, maybe someone I am even closer to, will pass on...

Manny has been great. He told me not to feel bad for feeling grief.

Believe me hon - I know that whole use of "I'm okay." or "It's okay." When nothing is okay. It really is a harsh wake up call, and one that isn't fun - at all, to go through! It seems like people expect you to be 'okay' even when things aren't okay so it seems to be social norm to just say it, even when all we feel like do is curl up in a ball and sob.

That's good. YES! Do not feel bad.. AT ALL for how you are feeling!
It is totally normal and healthy.

I'm glad that Manny is there to support you. <3
In fact, I'd be worried if you weren't feeling anything!

Sometimes I feel numb but I have cried some.

Thank you so much for your support.

There's no wrong way to feel.

Of course!! <33

How's your week been so far?

My week so far has been pretty good - just not a lot of free time to get on.
We've been taking advantage of the awesome weather that we've been having and going to the park.
It's been like spring like weather, sunny warm and perfect! Perfect weather to go outside and get energy out!! :D

It's been clear here, but very chilly for Seattle.

What is the weather been like up there - temperature wise? It's been in the mid 70's to low 80's here.

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Sorry hon! I need to get to bed! I just realized it's 10 am, and I have to be up and out of the house by no later than 8:30 am, as Sophia has a general check up tomorrow morning at 9:30 am and I need to get there early!
I'll do my best to check in tomorrow.

30s-40s during the winter are normal, but it's often colder when the skies are clear and warmer when it's overcast/raining.

Overcast skies help hold the heat that does come throughout the day from both the sun and the Earth. One of those weird things that happens thanks to the cloud cover.