Aww but I just got here! D: Ok, well I'll talk to you soon, hopefully...
Cool... I can't read japanese. hehee. How many pen-pals do you have? Is it fun writing to people that live on the other side of the globe? I've never had a pen-pal before...

~only understands chunks~ XD KANJI FAIL!
Sweet purple hair. O:

Thoth: XD Awww, I'm sorry. I stopped seeing my therapist a while ago...D: Therapy is kinda useless for me.

Therapy is useless for me too cuz whenever I need to distress by talking... I talk to my friends, cuz they understand me the best... Sadly, I'm currently living with my mother... and she says for me to stay here I MUST see a therapist for my insomnia and my "faggotry." she thinks by seeing a therapist he might be able to talk the gay out of me... xD hahaha. I'd like to see him try!

sooo many alien speakers Dx -hides from the alien markings-

Aliens? Where? >>;; *hides under bed*

-points to the japanese in everyones posts- Dx alien markings

Originally Posted by Thoth Star

Therapy is useless for me too cuz whenever I need to distress by talking... I talk to my friends, cuz they understand me the best... Sadly, I'm currently living with my mother... and she says for me to stay here I MUST see a therapist for my insomnia and my "faggotry." she thinks by seeing a therapist he might be able to talk the gay out of me... xD hahaha. I'd like to see him try!

DX Ugh, that's horrible.
Better than those "treatment centers", though. Those are awful.
Insomnia sucks. I have slow-sleep and the one where you don't stay asleep...And sometimes I randomly can't sleep at all.

Haha you're silly shadow... Japanese is easier to learn than English... xD

The treatment centers that treat gay people like animals, bishie? Yeah I've heard about those... I had a friend in high school that went to one cuz his military dad made him... And now he's a heroin addict and a prostitute. Lets just say: treatment made things worse. D;
That sucks! So you can only sleep short periods than? I have trouble falling asleep... but once I fall asleep I can sleep a good 6 or 8 hrs undisturbed...

Thoth: =/ I grew up with english, everything else just confuses me. besides german ahahahahaha
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Oh yea, I took german in high school... it was easy to remember the vocabulary cuz everyone sounded very similar to english. It was cool. are you good at german? fluent?

Originally Posted by Thoth Star

Haha you're silly shadow... Japanese is easier to learn than English... xD

The treatment centers that treat gay people like animals, bishie? Yeah I've heard about those... I had a friend in high school that went to one cuz his military dad made him... And now he's a heroin addict and a prostitute. Lets just say: treatment made things worse. D;

Oh man that sucks :( I can't imagine anyone wanting to send their child to a place like that! Than man is no father. I just hope he turns around soon.

You're right, Cashuea... That bastard is NOT a father... He's a fucking devil. I knew the man, by the way... He hated my guts and said I was the one that made his son gay. I was like "Don't blame me! You're the one in the closet." That guy totally beat my face in... You can't talk to people like that. They're insane! I gave up on that friend... if he wants to spend the rest of his life on heroin, whut can I do???

Originally Posted by Thoth Star

You're right, Cashuea... That bastard is NOT a father... He's a fucking devil. I knew the man, by the way... He hated my guts and said I was the one that made his son gay. I was like "Don't blame me! You're the one in the closet." That guy totally beat my face in... You can't talk to people like that. They're insane! I gave up on that friend... if he wants to spend the rest of his life on heroin, whut can I do???

Man, i can't believe parents can turn that ugly. It is even sadder the way your friend turned out because of it. It almost makes me wonder how humanity as a race even manages to survive. *hugs*

Thoth: Yeah...if you can call what I do "sleep". DX It's more like...I dunno....semi-consious relaxing.
Those places are completely horrible. It's effing ridiculous. I can't believe they're legal.

My girlfriend is being so...stupid. She keeps blowing me off. Her friends don't like me, so when they're around, she ignores me. When we're apart, she won't return my texts or calls. The only time she pays attention to me is when I force her to. And she keeps apologizing for it...but nothing's changing.

I know! Its sad, cashuea... Humans won't live for long... we're all dying. Our species won't last another hundred yrs... I live in Cali (near san fran), so I know many gay and les kids that come here from ALL over the US cuz there parents kick em out for being openly homosexual... And they all come here! to san fran. Which is fine, but we already have a BIG homeless and prostitution and drug problem and they kinda add-to-it... sadly... its a cycle of hate. Oh, comfort hug. Thanks *hugs back* xD

Soooo you do whut I do, bishie... I meditate! I don't sleep. I'm not human enough for sleep. LOL.
Can't believe whut are legal? My family is the same... homophobic. I'm the black sheep of the family, which is fine...
I prefer being the weirdo, ya know?
No offense... but if my gf treated me like that... I'd slap her across her face! I'm sorry, I just don't STAND bullshit! Its me or your friends... You BETTER choose your lover over your friends! thats fucked up/// I'm sorry! *huggles* I hope she snaps out of it and starts treating you like she should! with love. <3

I can't believe the "centers" are legal.
I don't even know what to do...I love her, and she's dealing with a lot of shit from her parents and everyone, but...I'm trying so hard to hold her up and she just keeps treating me like this. She says it because she "knows I'll see you later", but it just makes it feel like she's taking me for granted.

Originally Posted by Thoth Star

I know! Its sad, cashuea... Humans won't live for long... we're all dying. Our species won't last another hundred yrs... I live in Cali (near san fran), so I know many gay and les kids that come here from ALL over the US cuz there parents kick em out for being openly homosexual... And they all come here! to san fran. Which is fine, but we already have a BIG homeless and prostitution and drug problem and they kinda add-to-it... sadly... its a cycle of hate. Oh, comfort hug. Thanks *hugs back* xD

Sad to hear the situation down there. Not alot of homeless here in Oklahoma, but hate and bigotry are plentiful. Heck, just the other week their was a violent attack on a gay couple and the attacker was not arrested. (the cops here may as well be criminals themselves). I do pray however that we can turns things around before it is too late.

edit: and what are these "centers" anyway o_0 they sound evil.

@Bishie: Yes, they're usually Christian or Catholic run organizations... Religious sects think they can do whutever they want! Most of those kids end up getting molested by priests or therapists anyways, which just makes the kids more fucked up. *shrugs*
Honestly, SHE IS taking you for granted... She thinks she can walk all over you and you'll be there always, like a pillar of support... What you should do is slightly distance yourself... I don't mean break-up but show her that she needs to give you support too! Relationships are give and take, not just take! No offense to you, but if I was in your shoes, I'd already have broken up with her... I can't stand people treating me like I'm worthless...

@cash: Funny thing is we have lots of homeless people here from Oklahoma... xD LOL. Homeless people all come here cuz Hollywood makes people think that California is some perfectly sunny, happy place! LIES. Its pretty cruel place... With lots of crime.
See, if that attack happened here people would be UP IN ARMS protesting like a bunch of mad liberals... You don't fuck around with Mad Liberals. We're an angry bunch. hehe.
THEY ARE EVIL! They're religious/psych centers to "change evil boys and girls into abiding citizens." in other words: rid the world of gay children. They can try all they want, but they won't succeed... there's too many of us.

Pity Oklahoma is a strong "conservative" state XD. Funny thing, this was only a tiny article on a college newspaper. No peep from the city news or anything. Its like they encourage such behavior. No wonder so many Oklahomans are going to Cali! I think we acually have a few of those centers here too, the most infamous being Shadow Mountain (a children's behavior facility' that puts harden youth offenders with ADHAD kids etc.) that is here in Tulsa. I knew kids that went to there, they came out even worse than before :( Why on earth do people do this?

Haha well, most US states are conservative... Honestly, even though Cal is considered liberal or democratic, there's wayyy more republicans here. Everyone in my family is republican and yes, most of them live here... Its the main reason Prop 8 passed (Its whut banned gay marriage in Cali once and for all!) No more gays getting married... sad, sad.
Do you really want to know? Truthfully, SATAN OWNS YOU HUMANS. Not to be rude, but the devil runs this establishment we call government... He wants children to DIE DIE DIE. xD Its true// Wow, i just read that and was like "You sound crazy!" to myself... hahahaha. Also "mind control." If you get kids on drugs at an early age than theyre more likely to grow up being easily manipulated adults...

Nerve damage? That might mean I'm damaged all over then, cause today my shoulder twitched too, and even years before this I've had twitching in my forearms, shoulders, legs, musles, and eyes @.@
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Lol yeah, but she's my Literature teacher xD I think she does because last year I gifted her a Kah-styled artwork, made that same day with my back-then-brand-new shading markers on a canson sheet for her birthday. Earned her much-needed favour. Me needs to keep that favour on my side 8D;;
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Ohh but you're good at being an incubus! *shot*
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Ohh pool :o Whenever I play, I'm the lucky bastard. I'll fail for 7 turns, then do it well for three in a row, lulz. Last time, I won thanks to one of those rounds of luck, and my friend whispered in my ear "___, marry me"

Like always, I told him no, and he promised he would rape me then xD He's an idiot, but one that somehow manages to make people love him, lulz.
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I'm lucky enough to never get real sick. Usually it's just my allergy >o> Though, my dermatologist said a couple of marks on my face were because of... measles? in my childhood. But I've never ever been like that D: and she said it was because those who got to that point had their inmune system in a dump of shit. Yes, she said shit. Lulz.
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Ugh, these centers. Can't they get that it's not a damned mental illness?! And what if it were? Maybe it is an illness after all, but heck, WHY DOES WHAT HAPPENS BEHIND CLOSED DOORS MATTER TO THEM? My theory is, that "macho" men are scared that people might notice gays have longer penises. What a bunch of idiotic hypocrites.
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Bishie, not to be an idiotic bastard [I only am with the pool^ guy], but if she treats you like that around her friends, she's not just taking you for granted. She's treating you as if her friends were her top priority. Her priorities should be 1) Her well-being, 2) Your well-being, 3) Her problems, 4) Her family, 5) Her friends, if she can call those betches friends.

I suggest a looong talk.

Sounds like a conspiracy theory. I think we would clash on the whole satan part though (as i think he does not exist). But yea, goverment is one big joke. Anyhow i need to sleep now, i start work in a few hours XD

Satan doesn't have the fault! D8 Sheesh, if he existed I would pity him, being blamed for everything that goes wrong. He's like a hero to me, lulz. Not only a symbol of questioning, but also so famous he's in everyone's mouth, hahaha xD
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At least it isn't like here. Prostitutes are x5 more respected than gays. If you want to insult a man, there are two ways, "hijueputa" [son of a bitch] and "maricón" [fag], and the second is worse :| It even has way more equivalent slang terms than the first, and most of them are names of food, makes me think gays are a banquet, lulz @.@

Whatever the president says, ecuadorians still wouldn't say anything if a group of quichwans burned a gay for being gay :|

@Kah; Yes, nerve damage is everywhere... It starts at the spine and spreads... Not good. have you seen a doctor for it? D:
She sounds like a really cool teacher! ^^ Do you draw often?
YAY!! thats the first time someone's called me a good incubus! ^^ I feel like we're good friends! hehehe. <3 *huggles* Keep me alive. heh. I dunno... as an incubus, I'm more or less an evil soul stop in this constant rebirth of living... every hundred yrs I come back looking different, but I'm always the same... *sigh* I want to sleep... sleep...sleep...

You must be way better at pool than I am! I suck... D: I just find it fun to hit balls with a stick! hahaha. *evil grin*// Yeah, usually 'rape' is a word people don't use, especially not to a girl. ^^;;

I'm the same way... Allergies kill me but I rarely get the cold or flu. I have the most random allergies to. heh. I have measle cirlce-scars on my face too from when I was a kid and I scratched at my face until it bled... I remember that too, hurt so bad. >M<

I KNOW! Its normal to be weird! People need to stop labeling everyone else... We don't belong in boxes with labels! We're real. Real people are fucking weirdos. lol//
We do have longer penises... hehehe. xD I know whut you mean! They're shallow jackasses!
I totally agree 100%... Oh my gawd, you're like a Genius Kah! ^^
*sigh* How gays are treated all over the world makes me cry... To be honest, Americans have it best. At least we have some sort of asylum... ALL GAYS N LESBIANS COME TO CALIFORNIA! We want youuuu~ <333



@Cash: Its more than a conspiracy, Its reality. We live the Matrix. The Matrix is Us. I'm Zoastrian (my religion) so when I say 'satan' I mean yang... black energy. Black energy exists, I just call it "devil and satan" cuz thats whut Americans call it. *nod*

Nope, in fact, the last time I went to a clinic was when I had my allergy, that doc was so good he in just one session told me what I had, what caused it, how to prevent it, and what to take in case I got it again <3 And it costed me $5! <333
I've been taken to a hospital because of me just twice in my life: 1) When I was born, 2) When a clown shot the cap of a confetti-shooter right into my eye and it started bleeding. My [hematophobic] best friend will never forget her 15th birthday 8D;; Don't worry, I still like clowns <3

So, in short, I could have mental problems and heart defects, but I live happily because I'm ignorant, lulz.
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Used to draw often D: Like, three years ago I filled five notebooks with drawings in the school year. Now, I don't even have a sketch book :| I just draw on the last pages of my notebooks xD;;
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Sleep is good :drool: Lets sleep together! ... in a totally innocent way, of course.
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"I just find it fun to hit balls with a stick" couldn't be best said, ahahaha!
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I don't remember anything D: I don't even remember when a scorpio stinged me, or when an iron fell on my foot and burned it, even though I have a scar D: I do remember I used to have a birthmark, but somehow it's gone @.@'
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I believe everyone's insane and weird in their own way, thus giving no one any moral right to label anyone that isn't themself as insane or weird.
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One theory says homosexuality is actually hypermasculinity, because gays have longer penises overall 8D!
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Please, I'm not like a genius.. I AM a genius! *inflates from ego*
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Don't forget bisexuals ;DDD
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Ohnoes, Matrix! Our TOK teacher made us watch that movie and make a summary... to be honest, I bought the movie, but took the summary from wikipedia and never really watched it :| I should~

Ohh I see. I have a minset different from most people. For example, I think saints are inhuman. I base myself on that "To err is human, but to blame the guy next to you is even more human!" Made my parents laugh at that 8D