I think everyone has times when the crazy comes out. My hubby is bipolar and I have issues with anxiety and depression among other things. You just have to deal with it as best you can and ask for help when you can not deal with alone. Rose have you tried calling NAMI to find out what resources for help you might have available in your area. My husband gets his meds and therapy provided by the state through a local nonprofit agency because we cannot afford them. Do not hesitate to seek help if you feel you need it. It is better to be safe than sorry or worse. *huggles*

Ne, @Boo, Do you have a charity mule? I was just thinking, I could have Phobos and Deimos give you all of their eggs so that way a new person wouldn't get shafted by getting double-egged. Not that eggs are bad, but they would be at least guaranteed a non-egg item from here...

I do not have a mule yet. I am just keeping the eggs in a separate drwer in my inventory. Feel free to send theveggies if you want. I would also appreciate you adding my charity link to your front page if you don't mind. I have been having trouble luring in the fresh meats. ^_^'

Okay, Boo :)

And EGADS! The event went away before I could get my final hat, the fifth item worth 20 tokens. I had approximately 8 tokens and was planning on working into the night to get enough to get it. Well, for getting in so late to the event I did well but I'm very upset that I I didn't finish the set. That last item, I wasn't even aware it was there at all until Lizzy donated a set to the birdies. I'm still recovering from everything so I felt it would be best to put the shiny pile first. These items will not be over-inflated so they will be appreciated by a larger crowd. If I had known/been paying attention for the first time in my life I could have broken down and even purchased the final item with gold! :gold: However, the shop is gone :headdesk:.

-EDIT- I managed to buy one from from the marketplace form 1,500 :gold: :sweat:

Thanks for the support Boo. You're such a sweetheart.

And I was surprised to return and find the tokens all vanished lol, but I did get a couple things from the store with them so I can't be too upset.

I think once I return to my home state and I have easier access to resources I will be able to get a lot of the things to a managable level. I have agoraphobia, as well as other phobias...I'm EXTREMELY paranoid. I worry a lot. I pretty much live in fear that so many things are going to go wrong. It's anxiety, and possibly schizo-affective. The longer I go unmedicated and all, the more likely I am to hallucinate and not leave my place of dwelling. And I can't drive. I have involuntary movement/sound which would get me and anyone else in the car or around it killed. So...

And I'm very lonely. I've never been single for more than a couple weeks since I was 15. I need a companion. And this area of this state seems to be severely lacking in said department. It's to the point where whenever I see ANYONE who is physically attractive to me, I want to flirt with them, ingratiate myself with them...I have to stop myself from falling in love with every person I think is beautiful. And it hurts.

I miss feeling loved and being able to love like that.


BTW, was that a picture of YOU Crow-sama in your siggy before it changed? Hang out on the page long enough and you go through about ten siggy changes. I'm impressed.


Whoa! New sig every time I refresh now! XD

No problem Rose. I just hope you can get some help soon.

My hubby gets really agoraphobic sometimes...usually when he is off his meds.

I know it may be none of my business but it sounds like it might be a good idea to focus on your mental health and hold off on getting into a serious relationship. Having friends or family to support you is good but it sounds like you might be using romantic relationships to avoid dealing with your problems and that is not healthy. I hope you dont take offense it is just something you might want to consider.

It's ok Boo. I understand where you're coming from.

Crow-sama, where are you?

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Forevveru: Hello and welcome to Menewsha. It might be in your best interest to re-read all of of my posts on the front page. You see, the clothes for new users are the 'starter' clothes and you already have a rather cute dress. Though you do receive a random gift as well which could be an accessory or another piece of clothing, you are still welcome to participate. The form is also something you PM to me AFTER you have made five separate posts. Also, if all of your posts are made right after the other and are auto-merged into one, they get counted as one. The point is for you to have a conversation with someone. Unfortunately, my sleep schedule is so messed up I missed a very important appointment yesterday and I cannot afford to do the same tomorrow (or should I say later today -_-). Also, before submitting your final application to me via PM you might need to re-read the rules for something important because as it stands your form is incomplete and therefore I would have to ask you to complete it.

Pink Roses- We should start an agoraphobia club. Back in university I would label my accomodation/dorm rooms my "Hermit Hole" and I cannot drive for more than an hour (or until I hit the East Bay, whichever occurs first)... i get a panic/anxiety attack. I have also had many panic attacks driving in San Francisco. I have had panic/anxiety attacks for getting lost, and I have gone the wrong way down one way streets at circa 3 AM... -shudder- There are times where I do have a death wish, but for when I actually have the will to live, that mortifies my blood into stone.

Originally Posted by The_Crow

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Sorry about that! Actually someone was nice enough to donate me some gold and I bought a dress, since I thought it would be easier and cheaper than trying to get a shirt and pair of jeans lol.

Glad you under stand Rose. I would not want you to be upset with me.

Hello Ever. Ice to meet you. Ow are you liking Mene so far?

Crow, How are you doing? I am praying for you to get back on an even keel mentally. It will happen for you. I am sure of it. Just keep doing your best okay?

My hubby is almost sane on his current meds but we are still dealing with some bouts of pretty serious depression. His doctor wants to put him on abilify as well but we cannot afford it. We are trying to figureout if we can get it cheaper somehow.

My new job is going well. Two year olds are sort of evil but it willget better once the class gets used to having a bit more structure and routine in their day I hope. Right now they are fairly out of control. I am thinking their last teacher must have let them run all over her.

Okay I got to go tosleep now. My brain is getting stupid on me. Night peoples.

Tana is sick enough that the miitary sent me home with out having to go to medical.

I don't know if that's a good thing or a bad thing, Tana, but I do hope you get better soon.

I had a miniature nightmare that I got an infraction for doing something on Menewsha. It bothered me so much that I had to wake up and actually check. :headdesk:

Hello loves how are you?

I'm all right, Star and you? :) I hope you're doing well.

Originally Posted by The_Crow

I don't know if that's a good thing or a bad thing, Tana, but I do hope you get better soon.

I had a miniature nightmare that I got an infraction for doing something on Menewsha. It bothered me so much that I had to wake up and actually check. :headdesk:

I've had weird dreams like that...but dealing with school. I had one about a year ago that I ws back in school and failing miserably at all of my classes

*knockknock*
Harro.

Originally Posted by Kultura

*knockknock*
Harro.

HIII!!!
How are you?

Kultura: Kuti-sama! Long time no see! How has life been treating you (It's best not to ask about mine -watches everyone in the vicininty nod grimly-)

So much has happened since I was a member of the days of your charity. It feels like a lifetime ago. In fact, I do believe I have it officially 'cateogorized' as a (sub)lifetime ago if not two by now. I'm still living closer to the threshold of life and death than ever, but after a very large two month depressive streak with mutiple hospital visits, I was beaten, badly, and well, somehow or another I figured if I didn't die from that even Death didn't want me.

Damnit, I talked about my goings on anyways. Well, on the mundane side of things my birthday is coming up. I'm going to be 27 on the 16th. I'm going to be an old fart. _-_; It fits.

aww, Crow-sama, that's not that old. your not even 30 yet

I just turned twenty-eight Crow so if you are going to be old then I must be getting ancient and I positively refuse to accept that. :P

Hope you feel better Tana. ^_^

Hi Kulti!!

HI BOO!!!!
and I am doing a little better...but now I have other issues T_T

I thought I'd help a newbie out by showing them this place. Treat them good ok.

mynanaflirts:

Thank you and am gonna read first page and Hello.

Originally Posted by blueblackrose

I thought I'd help a newbie out by showing them this place. Treat them good ok.

mynanaflirts:

We always treat new members good. ^_^; If I remember right, Crow doesn't use the term "newbie" that often (or if at all). :) That's ok though, BBR. :) We still :heart: you.

(Crow, I am sorry that I said that word. :()

Welcome to Menewsha mynanaflirts and to this thread. I see you are making yourself right at home right about now. Anyways... I don't know where Crow is right now, but xe will be here to welcome you in a bit. :D!