Originally Posted by Sleepy Anarchy

Because they're being a pain.

fix them!

I've tried, it doesn't work. Most of these are memories (and a ton of what-if scenarios) that just really hit me hard and make it super hard to sleep. :/ It's ok, at least it's not all the time like it used to be.

:c I'm sorry. I never got a hang of it either. Which is a shame, I'd love to live out some fantasies of mine.

Originally Posted by Sleepy Anarchy

Hmmm. Not exactly. I lack the creativity and brainpower to actually come up with anything good.

we can both suck together

Anarchyyy. Don't deny Hums the one time she asks for a gift. :P

It's ok. When it was suggested for me to try, and when I did try, I honestly didn't have high hopes for it. As much therapy as I've been through, you'd think that I'd have talked through the pain that's causing me to have these dreams... apparently not. :( I just have to get through this month somehow....

If I was actually capable of it, I'd probably help.
I'm not capable of it though.

I'm glad that you can at least afford therapy for so long tho. A lot of loved ones in my life could use a therapist, but they just can't afford it. Hell. A lot of us, including me, require lots of different kinds of medical attention we've gone without. Its pretty awful.

It hasn't been constant therapy (but it's been on and off for at least the last few years, with mom begging me to see someone for more than that - I did see someone right after it happened, but I really didn't talk, I wasn't at that point where I could get myself to even talk about what had happened, it made it just seem so real).

It's more that I have a therapist that I call if I do need to talk to someone - sometimes more than usual - but she's always able to fit me in if I need someone to talk to.

I think that's a good resource to have, and I'm glad you have it. c:

Originally Posted by LiviInLove

I wish that we could control our dreams too.

How are you doing, dear?

i'm doing pretty good, thanks *hugs*

Yeah, she's great - I need to make a note to call her tomorrow to leave her a message that I need to see her the earliest that she can fit me in this week - and here's to hoping I can find a sitter for the girls. I may have to take them over to Jon and Greg's place as Greg is a stay at home dad with Benji and I know he can take them for an hour or two if I can't find anyone else.

Originally Posted by Sleepy Anarchy

If I was actually capable of it, I'd probably help.
I'm not capable of it though.

i think me you and lannie should try one

Originally Posted by hummy

i'm doing pretty good, thanks *hugs*

That's good to hear! *hugs*

Originally Posted by LiviInLove

Yeah, she's great - I need to make a note to call her tomorrow to leave her a message that I need to see her the earliest that she can fit me in this week - and here's to hoping I can find a sitter for the girls. I may have to take them over to Jon and Greg's place as Greg is a stay at home dad with Benji and I know he can take them for an hour or two if I can't find anyone else.

how is Benji?

It never hurts to try, Anarchy. xD

Originally Posted by hummy

how is Benji?

He's doing wonderfully! He just turned 2 on the 19th of February, and he's such a lovely little boy! <3 They're doing such a wonderful job raising him.

We went to see them today actually and we got there with the girls and he met us at the door with Greg and he totally squealed and hugged me when he saw me. He calls me "Annie Livi!" Because he can't pronounce Auntie properly. He's just adorable. <3 We are Annie Livi, Uncle Al, Bec-bec and Sophie! :D

Although Jon was telling me when we saw them yesterday that they've definitely hit those terrible twos, and the tantrums, he told me that they could rival Becca's tantrums. I told him that I highly doubted that, but if he said do. ;P Haha, but it's mind boggling to me that he's two years old already!

Originally Posted by Dystopia

Anarchyyy. Don't deny Hums the one time she asks for a gift. :P

he's good at denying, sadly

Aw Anarchy.

Look what you did!

Originally Posted by LiviInLove

That's good to hear! *hugs*

Originally Posted by LiviInLove

He's doing wonderfully! He just turned 2 on the 19th of February, and he's such a lovely little boy! <3 They're doing such a wonderful job raising him.

We went to see them today actually and we got there with the girls and he met us at the door with Greg and he totally squealed and hugged me when he saw me. He calls me "Annie Livi!" Because he can't pronounce Auntie properly. He's just adorable. <3 We are Annie Livi, Uncle Al, Bec-bec and Sophie! :D

Although Jon was telling me when we saw them yesterday that they've definitely hit those terrible twos, and the tantrums, he told me that they could rival Becca's tantrums. I told him that I highly doubted that, but if he said do. ;P Haha, but it's mind boggling to me that he's two years old already!

thanks. i'm happy i feel good.

i thought he was about two
wow, how time flies, huh?

Originally Posted by hummy

thanks. i'm happy i feel good.

i thought he was about two
wow, how time flies, huh?

That's great to hear that you're feeling good!

It really does fly!
I asked Greg at his birthday party how could Benji be two already, and he told me that he and Jon ask themselves the same question, but they're blessed to have him in their lives, and besides for Jon - Benji is the most important person in his life. <3 And he thanked me for all that I did to help bring Benji into their lives.

You're all cruel and evil.

Originally Posted by Dystopia

Aw Anarchy.

Look what you did!

maybe if lannie does it with us he'll cave

*slinks into a corner to try to not be lumped in that cruel and evil category* I'm trying not to get involved.

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