
12-18-2012, 07:15 AM
Mental and chronic and/or serious physical illnesses of many kinds run in my mother's side of the family. I'm hoping, REALLY hoping that the mental illnesses skipped a generation in me, because they are BAD. The physical illnesses, eh, at least either they're treatable or they'll kill me before I suffer too much...or make anyone else suffer too much. I really don't want any of them, but I REALLY want to avoid the mental illnesses.
My grandmother was paranoid-schizophrenic. Died of lung cancer.
One of my aunts on that side is severely depressed, has a history of cancer, and is always extremely paranoid that it's back (despite no evidence suggesting it), and the other...I'm not sure what it is - I'm no doctor - but there's something not quite right with her.
My mother, well, the universe seems to have something against her. She probably has BPD, high-functioning autism, schizophrenia, and/or bipolar disorder. (I have a thread in LI where I've discussed the entirely unacceptable things she considers normal. She is living proof that mental illness is the worst thing because it's the only kind of disease that makes you want to kill the patient.) This on top of having had lung cancer...five? Six times? I've lost count but it was THREE ENTIRELY DIFFERENT PATHOLOGIES. This ALL on top of a fuckload of other less serious problems. She's basically a wreck.
She also has a blood disease which I just discovered tonight is hereditary and long story short I can never have most local anesthetics again just to be on the safe side. In her, it's undetectable until it flares and when it flares it can kill. In me, I have a few things that can be comorbid with it. Little scary.
I actually find the prospect kind of fun, but I just really like the idea of there being something exciting and different about me. And it's a REALLY FASCINATING disease. In mild chronic cases it TURNS PEOPLE BLUE. How awesome is that? And it's entirely possible to have it such that being blue is the only symptom and it's otherwise entirely harmless.
That's clearly not anyone in my family, but it's still kinda cool. There are two types of the gene: One which causes it as a chronic condition and one that just causes a change in blood chemistry as an acute reaction to outside factors. Both genes are technically recessive, but with the latter kind, carriers can still experience its effects - it's just a lot less likely.
I also "probably" have PTSD from dealing with my mother for 23 years. And by "probably" I mean I have the characteristic symptoms clear as day and I just need to see a therapist to sign off on it. I was also once diagnosed bipolar, but it turned out I just had a bad case of the teenage hormones with a touch of Done With Your Shit, Mom. My elementary school counselor also once decided I probably had ADD, but that was when the whole "Different? MUST BE ADD, GIVE RITALIN, MORE MONEY!" thing was going on. Truth was I was just BORED because I knew the class's material already.
Luckily my parents never bought into it.
I have a history of seizures, but they seem to have gone away. It just happened for a while, got under control with medication, and then just kinda...stopped. I started running out of medicine, couldn't refill it, stepped myself down out of need to stretch it out...but then...nothing happened. Not even under the exact circumstances I'd had seizures before (high stress, fatigue, flashing lights).
As for anything else, I just have to wait and see and hope that the worst crap skipped a generation. I have no plans to ever have biological children - I feel it would be horribly irresponsible on multiple counts - so either way it stops here.
Last edited by Quantum Angel; 12-18-2012 at 06:23 PM..
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