Celebratory dinner after? I so would... >>;

Oh hells yeah.

I thought you were still working for family, Chi? Or is this the job offer you got more in your field that isn't stable?

That sucks either way...I hate not feeling stable financially. I'm hoping we will be somewhat stable for awhile. Things are tighter than hell but we keep things afloat.

Sazh has been acting funny today. He's not able to jump up or push off. I did a couple of stretch exercises, thanks to steels help, and everything looks OK as far as that's concerned. He's been hiding in the corner, though, and acting a bit unlike himself. He perks up right when you say some of his favorite words like "Cookie" and "Walk". Aaron got the squeaky ball and Sazh went crazy like his normal self, so Aaron took him outside. He ran like the wind he said, even keeping up with Yuna's pace...so I'm really baffled what could be bothering him. I didn't find any wounds around his back end, and I have rubbed him down trying to find any source of swelling or to see if he may flinch (to give me an idea of the problem area...) and I'm really just stumped. I'm going to keep an eye on him and if he's not feeling better by Friday I may have Aaron bring him to the vet for a checkup and look over.

Chuck got fixed today, so he's been dopily wandering the house, crashing into things. They ended up giving him free pain killers...we only got charged for being fixed and the dewormer. I'm very glad as seeing him like this is pretty tough. He's bouncing back fairly quick.

Mog on the other hand is still tense. I'm trying to take baby steps...Hoping that we're not going to have to do the separation thing too much longer....a week maybe? That's what I'm hoping...but I'm trying real hard not to rush things.

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Sazh is definitely eating. He is taking every cookie I give him, and he is playing...but you'll notice he's not walking normal. I'm thinking of trying to give him a hair cut tomorrow since it's slowly getting warmer and also it would give me a better look at his legs and see if I can see any kind of pattern to it. He's gotten kinda shaggy over the winter months, but I didn't want to give him a haircut and have him too cold. This winter has been really chilly...

I think that's a good idea, keeping an eye on Sazh. Sometimes we call that "ADR", which stands for ain't doing right. Basically it means that something is wrong but we're not sure what.

Oh yeah. Post anaesthesia cats are just pathetic and kind of funny in a sad way.

A week is probably overly hopeful, but I guess it's possibly.

Izumi, it's the family related job I was assured would be stable until I'm licensed and able to take the other one. The only reason I'm even frustrated is not hearing back on other job apps combined with being right in the middle of looking to buy a home. It'll work out either way.

If I turn into a screaming maniac by the end of tonight, will you guys visit me in the looney bin?

But of course! <3

Oh god. Because I am so foreseeing this as a likelihood.

Only if I can join you during the coloring sessions. I want to color my turtles pink.

Anyways, hope you're feeling better hun. I gotta put down my ipad now and get some sleep. Tomorrow is a long day, and kids are coming back for nearly a week, on top of work, and managing the cats. Fun fun.

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And Chi...That really sucks. It sounded like your employment through your family was a bit more stable than that...hell their family after all. I wouldn't be thrilled either. :/ Hope you transition over to this better job real soon....

Oh fantastic! Coloring friends!

@Steel - I know! My favorite part! ^_^

Well Sazh went to the vet today. He's got a partially herniated disc from rough housing with Yuna. We were given some muscle relaxers and some pain killers. He can't climb stairs or jump. I'm having to specially carry him in a way to keep his back straight at all times down our steps to get to the bathroom. I think he's a bit confused on that part.

She seems to think he should recover OK as he's showing good signs. She said that sometimes it doesn't heal on its own and at that point there is surgery (which she said most vets just won't advise as the chance of success is fairly low), wheelchair/prosthetics, or to be euthanized. Fingers crossed with some down time he will be ok...

Will add more to this later...picked up at work....

Awww, that sucks. Hopefully it heals on its own. There is a pretty good chance it will if you can keep the jumping and stairs down.

Yep that's what I'm hoping to do. He was trying to jump up on me outside though, and I had to settle him down. Then I accidentally stumbled and stepped on his back foot when trying to get Yuna in from going potty. She was getting rambunctious and trying to play rough with him so I reached down to shoo her off and lost my balance. He went down one step but I was able to get him before he went any further.

I have a feeling it will be up to me to take him outside to go potty as no one else will want to carry him. Maybe Aaron, but I can see Pam putting up a fuss. I don't want to clip him outside on the lead as he likes to wander up the steps once he's done...which is bad and he doesn't realize it.

I think he should be fine as long as I keep Yuna off him and just keep him from jumping/step climbing. Whew what a fun week! Socializing cats and nursing a dog with a bad back.

It's always hard, because the animals don't understand that they're restricted in activity or why. But I know you can do it.

Oh oh and Aaron quitting smoking AND kids come back today. Luckily friend is picking tristan up at 8 tonight, he's spending the night, then rubber checking $50 because of the emergency vet trip.

I'm just OK that Sazh seems to be OK and we can work through this...

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Sorry my completed thought on Tristan is he's spending the night at a friend's house, then going to the water park tomorrow. So at least for the next day we will be down a kid. Then it's only Thursday where Aaron is sleeping and I'm working, but grandma will come over and spend time with them then. Friday/Saturday Aaron will be off work and it won't be quite as stressful.

It'll be alright. Thank goodness for a little relief.
Ugh. I just groomed the cat, poor guy had mattes all along one side. My allergies are KILLING me now.

I'm glad Sazh looks like he'll be okay. <3

Hopefully allergies go away, Steel. :<

Man, today was interesting. I did some background checks on the people wanting to be hired. Long story short, last week I told my mother that I had a really bad gut reaction to them. And sure enough, sex offender, domestic violence, theft (multiple, and heavy), correctional facilities, jail.. what a mess.

I slept for a couple of hours after taking a Zyrtec and it went away pretty well. Now it's dance time!

Oh man. Yeaaah, background checks are for the best.

Hmm interesting. I guess people like that give off a bad aura?

Well had a really nasty encounter with the ex. Overheard Aaron tell the kids in earshot of their mother that Sazh had to go to the vet and we had to be very careful around him because of his back and his ex out of nowhere goes "Oh, so you have money to pay vet bills, but not take your own children to the doctor or pay your medical bills?" I felt my stomach flop and my whole body tense. She then tried to get in an argument in the middle of the gas station parking lot, but Aaron tried to play a face as cool as a cucumber. When he went around behind the truck to get in the driver's side she walked right by him, pushing him out of her way and said "Get the fuck out of my way so I can kiss my son!" See what we get to deal with? Needless to say that Aaron was fairly quiet and looked rather tense.

I came home and tried to work on the socialization of the cats. It's going to be a long ass time before Mog is OK with it. Chuck seems to be much more calm, although his body language this evening when we opened the door a little was to lurch his ears back and take a bit of a stance that looked like he was positioning himself for Mog to pounce. After that interaction I made sure to pet Mog for several minutes and give him a can of wet food.

Sazh is trying to jump up on things...so I think he's feeling better and doesn't realize his back is messed up. He's also starting to look a lot less like he's in pain, although you can tell he's not completely himself just yet.

Luckily Pam didn't freak out about Chuck either. I guess this is a good thing....

Oh and Aaron seems to think that the truck is leaking coolant again.

At least the weather is slowly getting much sunnier and warmer? *tries to think of some positive things...*

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Also my parents have been ignoring my calls...which I find it to be strange behavior. I don't know what I said or did this time (or didn't do)...Maybe it's because my birthday is Saturday and they're trying to ignore me? *shrugs*

Sorry I'm starting to feel like I may go into a deep depression lately. I've been trying not to let it eat at me, and I'm sorry for coming out of my hiding spot to bitch...

I didn't even tell you guys about the nasty argument Friday afternoon Aaron and I got into...It almost looked like Aaron was going to take a swing at me. I was just about ready to call my parents and have them pick me up. It got that bad....

Tomorrow will be interesting to say the least. xD;;

What's happening tomorrow, Chi?

Weird. O_o; It didn't show your post before I posted. Sorry. :( /not an asshole, really. I left the window open when I left to get Terra to bed, and the auto refresh thing must not have worked.

I think what boggles me most is how can Aaron not see how sitting in silence models really dodgy behavior for the kiddos? What if Tristan grows to let a partner walk all over him? There is no dignity in silent suffering like that, nor in imploding, nor in taking it out on the actual support system he has. Sigh...

(And tomorrow? Just the interview process with the people we now know are definite "not a fit".)

Well he said as calmly as he could that he didn't want to fight right now, and that he felt like she was trying to pick one with her. I can't remember what other words are said but he was trying to keep his emotions in check. He's quitting smoking and he knows how easy it was to snap at me on Friday, and it almost ended badly. I can't imagine what would of happened if he snapped and gotten argumentative with her....it could of ended in a fist fight. That would of been worse.

Well I guess I just have to take it one day at a time. :/ Sorry for offloading but I just....felt kinda like breaking today, and Aaron is under the same stress, actually more with quitting smoking....again.....and now my mom is just cutting communication with me? I don't know what the hell is going on.

Are you sure they're actually ignoring you and not just that calls aren't going through?
Poor Izumi. And you know you can always unload on us!

Ah, okay. I thought it was more of a silence, rather than him actually telling her he wasn't up for an argument. That is better to do.

Life just plain blows sometimes, seriously. Bad patches don't last forever... they don't. I had that six month patch, some of it getting bad enough that I stopped posting. After a ridiculous "battle", it got better. I'm already not looking forward to the next patch, but... one has to go with the flow. The bad has to end sometime, right?

Question! Have you gotten your A1C checked lately, Izumi? I know already that my doctor is a bit catastrophic sometimes, but when I called to check in on my blood work I was told I had to come in because the A1C is high. I told the receptionist that we're already "treating" it so to speak, and she couldn't give me an exact number.

tl;dr I couldn't possibly have a WORSE A1C with the exercise and taking the Metformin since freaking November. What if it is? O_o; I don't see her until 4/28. I about fucking give up. I've not lost much weight... as in 6lbs after the water weight came back on after being so sick for a couple weeks. I think I'm likely going to have to do what Steel's doing and adhere to a lifestyle like that for life, if I went by instinct. I just don't see myself doing it. *shrug* Fewer carbs? Of course! I've done that (and do that) already. None beyond sweet potatoes and other starchy veg? Erm... not as likely.

Anywhoo... today's the day of the home inspection. We were pre-approved, and if we take the plunge, I'll go full throttle with self care, too. Mom's house is also in the process of actually selling, which means I'd get her epic treadmill to boot.