Lols thanks hon <3
Oh well you know she's just superficial. She makes me angry xD.

Ahh i see. The interview part is the hardest part unfortunately. Once you got the job your sweet lol
Aww well thats nice. Did she have a partner through you bein married and what not??

Izu missed an interesting conversation.

I thought I'd make a better guy as a teenager, but I've grown out of that and I don't mind so much being a girl. I'm totally against reassignment surgery as it is messing with something that isn't life threatening and I'm totally scared of the knife otherwise. Not only that I think a lot of it stemmed from insecurity as a teen. Lots of bullying at school and feeling like a misfit.

I have a bad habit of neglecting other threads than event ones during events. D:
Sorry about that. Feel free to ping me, if you're talking to me. 8D So i remember to check back here every once in a while. *nods*

@ Roachi - If my through you mean before we were even separated? Yes.

@ Izu - Poet wouldn't bother with the gender swapping stuff... poet frowns on body mutilation

125k for the OMG head

Originally Posted by Izumi

Izu missed an interesting conversation.

I thought I'd make a better guy as a teenager, but I've grown out of that and I don't mind so much being a girl. I'm totally against reassignment surgery as it is messing with something that isn't life threatening and I'm totally scared of the knife otherwise. Not only that I think a lot of it stemmed from insecurity as a teen. Lots of bullying at school and feeling like a misfit.

Oh i would never get a reassignment surgery. Im content with bein a female haha. But it would have been nice to be born a guy, I think they get things so much easier.

Originally Posted by Siipu

I have a bad habit of neglecting other threads than event ones during events. D:
Sorry about that. Feel free to ping me, if you're talking to me. 8D So i remember to check back here every once in a while. *nods*

No biggy hon <33

Originally Posted by The Wandering Poet

@ Roachi - If my through you mean before we were even separated? Yes.

@ Izu - Poet wouldn't bother with the gender swapping stuff... poet frowns on body mutilation

Heh? Forgot what we were talking about xD

Originally Posted by Beautiful Disaster

125k for the OMG head

Is that an offer? I'll put it on the front page ^^

Not important... don't feel like talking about strange anymore anyways... too depressed as is without thinking of her.

Alrighty. You feelin okay today hon??

Nah not really, but I'll live.

Oh what's wrong?

Nothing important. This is normal for poet... poet's mood goes south easy and often... nothing new

@ Roach

OMG SO PISSED OFFFFFF! My reply vanished ;___;!! So here we go again lol

Ohh cool, sporting groups for socialisation sounds like a great idea. I'm not outgoing enough for that stuff =(

Yeah, all those courses were amazing. Met so many awesome people, I feel sorry for my sister who will never get to experience it. I made more friends through cadets than school that's for sure.

Yup I totally would do it for a friend too, it's the most amazing gift you could ever give to somebody in that situation. Yeah she's getting married on Dec 1st, which is still upsetting, coz I was really looking forward to being there! Bloody egg. First thing we did when we planned our wedding, was to make sure all of our guests were good with the date, that it didn't clash with anything. I mean come on... she knows how long we struggled to conceive then goes and plans her farken wedding, a week out from baby's due date. She was gonna be his god mother too, but it's made me change my mind. She was basically the closest thing I have to a best friend, but to do what she's done... I don't think a close friend would be so rude.

I so agree on that point, financial stability is a must. It's a scary place to be living one foot in the gutter. A rich guy would be nice xD!!! I'm so happy to see you're feeling in a content place these days, you do deserve it for all the crap you've had to endure. Glad to see that you have recovered from everything you were put through.

Yeah no doubt dad is being fed up on crappy junk. Dad's job is real physical, so his diet has got to be the main reason he's so horribly overweight. I'm so surprised it hasn't landed him in hospital to be honest. He managed to get on skype the other day, and we had a chat - which was great!

He had his head set on, so his stupid wife couldn't butt in every five seconds, coz she couldn't tell what I was talking about. She did start butting in, but I managed to close her out pretty quick. I feel so much happier inside, just getting to talk to him - even though I have all this anger and stuff, I came away feeling really happy just seeing him.

Ohh well, I would totally share the riches, but it didn't happen this time around xD!!!!! Damn you lotto!!!

Nah these girls that were just lying around on the side walk like weirdos, were either islanders or maoris lol. They would fully call out to people walking by saying stuff like "Hey lady I like your shoes!" That kinda freaked me out lol. Ohhhh yeah, and this homeless guy came up to my face and said "Excuse me miss, got a dollar?" then he looked down at my preggo belly, and just walked away... LOL! I felt totally denied xD!

Originally Posted by The Wandering Poet

Nothing important. This is normal for poet... poet's mood goes south easy and often... nothing new

Oh that's not good *hugs*
If you ever need to talk, ya know where to find me :)

@Nivvy - That happens to me all the time!! But it's my dumb laptop. And also mene doesn't save your replies anymore. :(

Our power just phased out lol. And our street lights are now out. It's been happening alot lately.

Me either. But im only shy coz of my weight. I know that now lol.

Yahh totally i will never forget those days, best days of my life for sure. Yeah that's true - we use to hang out, outside of cadets too. I remember when we had a sleep over at mine the night before skills. Omg worse decision we ever made xD. Got totally trashed hahaha.

Yeah totally. Wow that's really low of her to be honest. I would never do that to a close friend. It's almost spiteful of her, why did she do that?? That's a bit fucked up in my opinion? It's always like she's competing with you too, i just get that vibe from the whole situation.

Yeah true. Yeah i do. But im not innocent. I know very well the part i've played in my own life lol. I sabotage my happiness, but im learning lol. I've come a long way in a short time.

On that note - rob is still a douche lol. I didn't know truly how i felt for a long time. I'd hate him, then i'd still care for him. But every time i thought about getting close i'd feel sick about it. So i thought i'd just give it time. Coz i constantly thought i had lost my chances of having a family and marriage and stuff. But we had a talk lastnight, and i think i can finally see that i did make the right choice. He totally thinks that the accomplishments he's made thus far is what's gonna get me back. But i can see it was never about him havin a job or anything like that. It was him. We just never understood each other. And we never will...

Thats really sad for your dad. But i guess he made his bed aye? But it's sad to have to sit back and watch loved ones go through this kind of shit. I don't know why she doen't give him some space - and time with you by himself. She imposes on everything. She's like vermen.

Me too man, you'd get a good chunk if i ever won dude ^^. And only a few people would i can tell you that. ^^

Thats just weird lol.
Lols wtf aye? But yeah that happens in town. One dude asked mum for a bite of her burger xD.


Well i better be off to bed, i got boot camp tomorrow. No more slacking i got my work mates on my back. And it's not just any work mates its the big wigs lol. I don't know how i got myself into this haha.

*sprinkles something (don't know what) to this thread*
Hooray !
Sprinkles are overrated.

Wouldn't bother Roachi with that :) Sorry I was so pathetic ^^" it just takes time

@poet - have you tried getting a diagnosis? Sounds like you may need some help with it, Hun. Trust me, I understand as I struggle with depression too and take medication for it. Speaking of which, I really should go in myself and have it re-evaluated as it isn't doing a whole lot lately, but at the same time my body has built a physical dependence on it.

@ Roach

Yeah that sucks >__o;; I'm gonna start typing up my replies in notepad lol.

What's up with that? Creepy!

We used to hang outside of cadets too =) I honestly think I was closer to my cadet friends, than school friends xD;; I'm sure everyone thought I was crap about having all these other friends, coz none of them ever met any of you guys hahaha. Omg crack up! Some of our cadets used to smuggle up alcohol all the time lols. I never could, coz of dad being UC and all @.@

Honestly we've tried to think over why she'd go ahead and do that, she's quite a selfish person like that. She's done other things, that have left us scratching our heads. Who knows, I hope it's not competing though, coz I really hate when people do that :S I think that's what tore Ani and I apart so bad. People start building up all this spite towards you, coz of what's going on in their own minds. Maybe she doesn't actually want us to be there? lol.. she just can't think of how to say it without hurting our feelings =P

Oh you know, I think you can afford to be easy on yourself about that. We all sabotage ourselves in one way or another. Just as long as you're able to look back, and see the mistakes, and learn from them.

He's still tryna get you back? Gosh... He takes a long time to get a hint lol. I know Ken doesn't quite count, but that's how I felt in that stupid situation. I was just friends with him, coz I was just tryna force myself to get along with him, even though I knew deep down we just weren't meant to be friends. It took a long time to come around and realise that though X_x;; It's even harder tryna convince them of that, when they're not willing to just let go, and move on themselves.

Yeah it's so weird... I don't know if it's because she's insecure, and just doesn't want to lose him, or if it's jealousy issues or what. But she just can't seem to step back, and keep out of it. I was getting braxton hicks contractions while I was talking to dad - and he was like "I don't know what those feel like, but it looks like things are falling into place" then his wife starts spouting on about the difference between contractions. But it's like.... where did she get the impression that either of us, wanted a lecture? LOL. Almost like she's gotta prove she's super knowledgable or something... That's when I was like... "My midwife has already talked me through it"

He probably is so used to it, he can tune out lol. I've noticed quite a few times when she hijacks a conversation, he gets this real blank look on his face xD;; But yeah, he made his bed, he has to lie in it. I wonder what she'd be like, if he started hijacking conversations she was having with her kids??

Yeah I have a small list of close friends, and family that I'd be happy to give some mulah to hahaha. You're on my list too xD! I'd buy both my parents houses for them, but only on the condition that they go into a trust - and I'd give Joe's parents some, and ESIL and EBIL. Trish got the axe lol

Omg........ Bahahahahahaha!!! What did your mum say? Yesterday we had take away for dinner (naughty!!!) and when we were walking home, this guy was walking towards us - and Joe was fully like "Hurry up! Gotta get inside the building!" So we go in, and he reckons that guy goes up the road, and yells at people for money :S He yells in guys faces, and he chases women!!!! So now I'm paranoid about running into him again xD;; I'm like... OMG... what if I mouth off at him? and he punches me over lols!

Is boot camp like a circuit type thing? Sounds really cool =) Except for the early start... lol!

@ Izu - I would but poet wants to avoid medication... poet would prefer medical alternatives... so many of those "drugs" cause terrible things. Poet is even afraid of painkillers.

Originally Posted by The Wandering Poet

@ Izu - I would but poet wants to avoid medication... poet would prefer medical alternatives... so many of those "drugs" cause terrible things. Poet is even afraid of painkillers.

I do too.....I prefer using herbal remedies. Heh heh.

Know any antidepressant home.remedies? I know eating well.helps.

I don't really know anything really big but vitamin deficiency really is bad and not getting enough niacin and vitamin b are linked to your overall mood. Also my mom swears by vitamin d supplements.

Haha... Vitamin D... people up here barely get any of that

Originally Posted by Siipu

*sprinkles something (don't know what) to this thread*
Hooray !
Sprinkles are overrated.

Lols *hugs*

Originally Posted by Nivvy

@ Roach

Yeah that sucks >__o;; I'm gonna start typing up my replies in notepad lol.

What's up with that? Creepy!

We used to hang outside of cadets too =) I honestly think I was closer to my cadet friends, than school friends xD;; I'm sure everyone thought I was crap about having all these other friends, coz none of them ever met any of you guys hahaha. Omg crack up! Some of our cadets used to smuggle up alcohol all the time lols. I never could, coz of dad being UC and all @.@

1. Honestly we've tried to think over why she'd go ahead and do that, she's quite a selfish person like that. She's done other things, that have left us scratching our heads. Who knows, I hope it's not competing though, coz I really hate when people do that :S I think that's what tore Ani and I apart so bad. People start building up all this spite towards you, coz of what's going on in their own minds. Maybe she doesn't actually want us to be there? lol.. she just can't think of how to say it without hurting our feelings =P

Oh you know, I think you can afford to be easy on yourself about that. We all sabotage ourselves in one way or another. Just as long as you're able to look back, and see the mistakes, and learn from them.

He's still tryna get you back? Gosh... He takes a long time to get a hint lol. I know Ken doesn't quite count, but that's how I felt in that stupid situation. I was just friends with him, coz I was just tryna force myself to get along with him, even though I knew deep down we just weren't meant to be friends. It took a long time to come around and realise that though X_x;; It's even harder tryna convince them of that, when they're not willing to just let go, and move on themselves.

Yeah it's so weird... I don't know if it's because she's insecure, and just doesn't want to lose him, or if it's jealousy issues or what. But she just can't seem to step back, and keep out of it. I was getting braxton hicks contractions while I was talking to dad - and he was like "I don't know what those feel like, but it looks like things are falling into place" then his wife starts spouting on about the difference between contractions. But it's like.... where did she get the impression that either of us, wanted a lecture? LOL. Almost like she's gotta prove she's super knowledgable or something... That's when I was like... "My midwife has already talked me through it"

He probably is so used to it, he can tune out lol. I've noticed quite a few times when she hijacks a conversation, he gets this real blank look on his face xD;; But yeah, he made his bed, he has to lie in it. I wonder what she'd be like, if he started hijacking conversations she was having with her kids??

Yeah I have a small list of close friends, and family that I'd be happy to give some mulah to hahaha. You're on my list too xD! I'd buy both my parents houses for them, but only on the condition that they go into a trust - and I'd give Joe's parents some, and ESIL and EBIL. Trish got the axe lol

Omg........ Bahahahahahaha!!! What did your mum say? Yesterday we had take away for dinner (naughty!!!) and when we were walking home, this guy was walking towards us - and Joe was fully like "Hurry up! Gotta get inside the building!" So we go in, and he reckons that guy goes up the road, and yells at people for money :S He yells in guys faces, and he chases women!!!! So now I'm paranoid about running into him again xD;; I'm like... OMG... what if I mouth off at him? and he punches me over lols!

Is boot camp like a circuit type thing? Sounds really cool =) Except for the early start... lol!

@Nivvy - Yeah i start doing that now, Especially with text walls lol.

Haha yeah same. People at school - were like. WTF? Haha.
But then again i had loads of people from my school at cadets, coz the high school auditorium was our unit pretty much lol.

OMG seriously?? To camps & parades and stuff? Thats hardcore lol.

Why would she not want you at her wedding? I don't understand?? She's meant to be a close friend, she was your maid of honour, she was at your wedding. I honestly don't get it?? Did you ask her?
Honestly i think i met trish - but don't really know her know her. But i know her face. And i honestly always had this feeling about her - i can't put my finger on. All i can say Chanel is i don't feel she's very genuine. It's either that or she's a bit messed up my friend. Because i know - no true friend - would do that to their friends. Especially at a moment like this in life! I certainly wouldn't do that to Sarah!!
Yeah dude i actually think it is spite - it's something malicious anyway. Like i don't understand why you'd treat your friends like that, i mean not even a friend just a random person. I keep thinking of the whole BK thing - and i can't wrap my head around why someone would be like that??

Hmm true. But man it's hard. I think im going through the difficult stage now, of wanting so much for myself but it going so damn slow LOL.

OHH shit Ken. I forgot that dude xD. Haha us and our online relationships. What were we thinking right?? Craziness lol.
Yeah i know what you mean. It's just like - i was still holding onto him a bit. But because it's familiar and because i knew that if i wanted too i could go back and he'd take me. But the thing is, i felt that feeling when you just can't stand someone and don't wanna see them. And i kept feeling that each time i spoke to him. So i knew i was over him. And yeah he just wasn't understanding where i was coming from. But i needa catch up with ya tell you all the goss lol.

She sounds like a know-it-all plain and simple. And hasn't grown out of it yet lol. Have you seen rango? haha that just reminded me of that female rango looking thing that goes all blank in situations and stares into space lol. She'd prob tear him a new one hahaha.

Aww nice know im on the list doodles ^^. Hahahaha oh well, you treat your friends like shit, that's what happens lol. Don't know what got up her arse though.

Omg seriously wtf thats mental!! Does he have an issue? I'd call the cops immediately, I wouldn't even engage lol. But if he hit me i think i'd rip his fucken hair out LOL.

You know mum she's straight up lol. She told him to fuck off lol. She also was eating a burger in the bus stop one day and a bird came and took a bite outta it LOL.

Nope boot camp is like cadets but x10 xD.
It's the training they do for the westpac helicopter rescue dudes. It's far too intense for me. I think im gonna drop out and opt for something else. I almost died today, and everyone was fitter and thinner then me. Glad i went though, i really enjoyed it. But i need to be with people who are on the same level as me.



@Poet - Your never a bother hon ^^. Sometimes people need medication for them to see clearly. Especially when nothing naturally is working. *nods*.

I should be less random at times.

Yes, it is :3