Try not to predict a future of doom...
I often find myself wondering if all the bad news will never end, but I have to have hope that we will get through these hard times if we all stand together and care for each other.
Try not to see this as an "ending," but instead, a time of "evolving."
I have to believe that since you are a Veteran, you should be entitled to health care and some form of financial aid...even if it isn't called Social Security.
I do believe that you should enjoy the time you have left...but try hard to stay healthy so your "time left" can be long.
I often find myself feeling like "giving up," but I remind myself that I don't want the last time that Hope and I were together to be the last time she will see me....that gives me strength to "hang in there!"
You, also, have family (and Harley the Wonder Chihuahua) that you mean a lot to...and you should want to be around for them...there are stories left to tell and things left to do and lots of love to spread!
With the Stay at Home order in affect, this will be the longest period of time I have ever gone without being with Hope...and it really sucks! ...But I continue to do my best to stay healthy and look forward to the days that we will spend together again!
Be well, my Friend!