02-19-2012, 02:44 PM
June 28th.
Mood ; .....
It's been a while since I've written in this. I guess I've been to scared to face what happened. Then again, I don't even know myself what happened. All I know is that the one day I wasn't by Adams side, he left. No note, no goodbye,he didn;t even bother telling the nurse that he had left.
I guess I'm never going to see him again. It hurts but knowing that the only lasting memory I have of him is him lying in a hospital bed hurts even more. I don't know what I'm doing anymore ...I don't know what i should do, I'm nervous wreck!
I can't say much, because right now words can't explain it, there's to much i want to say but can't put down on paper. There's alot I want to tell him, scream at him, I even want to cry to him and have him wipe my tears away and say it will be all better like he used to but i know he won't and can't. Not from where he is.
I'm just .... drained. I'm so exhausted from crying and screaming and everyting else that all I want to do is go to bed, curl up into a ball and never wake up .... I guess that's just wishful thinking though.
You said you would never hurt me ....... You promised and yet ........ I guess promises never stay and will always be broken.
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