I still have some savings but it's dwindling. *sigh*

Go you! And yeah, it's good to compare how you started off and where you are now, to see how far you've come. It's nice to know that all the effort hasn't been in vain.

This piece though has gone through many changes.

but eventually i'll get her to look how i want her to[if i could just make up my mind]

lol Yeah, I often change my mind mid-drawing too and then spend lots of time changing it.

My drawing literally went from
this in the beginning [x]
To this [x]
She's gone through many transformations since October.
I'm still also not 100% satisfied with her and just calling her done which is why I continuously work on it.

lol Yeah, that's quite a few changes

My OCs went through a bunch of changes too, from straight hair to curly, gold hair to white, etc. I'm still having trouble with drawing the hair.

tbh this piece isn't even of an oc of mine.
just drew what came to my mind.

right now I am more wanting to understand coloring so i've been testing things out.
and added a few changes here and there.
but idk. I'm never satisfied with this piece.

I'm sure with more trying things out you'll find something that suits her eventually!

I just get easily frustrated is my problem.

Same, which dis-encourages my will to draw which becomes a vicious cycle.

for some reason I always see my learning process
as failing so i am working to change my mindset that I am learning. NOT failing.

though last night my tablet had it's a mind of its own and merged the lineart layer with another layer[the layer I was
coloring on] so that was kinda..upsetting.

Ugh I hate unwanted merges. I sometimes get confused as to which layer I'm working on because I make so many...so I try to merge the ones like linearts with linearts, color with color etc. but sometimes it backfires and I can't go back and change it anymore because it's too many steps back.

If i do not label all layers there is a 99% chance i will draw
on the WRONG layer. Happens all the time.

For this art piece I use to have around 30. but i merged some and deleted some[i had like 10 blank ones].

But i never really merge any layers because they are like a safety net.
but my tablet was so rude to merge them. and I can ctrl+z only so many times until i can't.
So I kinda feel i ruined the piece. I'll probably have to redraw her entire face.

Your tablet just automatically merged them all? That sucks! :(

No not all.
Just the lineart and color experiment layering.

I deleted some previously since most were blank or i no longer wanted what i had drawn.

That still sucks! Colors and lineart merging are the worst because it interferes with future coloring and lineart altering.

I didn't color anything except the eyes.
but will have to revamp her face entirely.

Well...more practice I guess?

i wasn't satisfied with it anyways
I really hate how i drew her nose and didn't like her mouth.

so gives me more time to try out different eye shapes.

Yeah...I should probably practice drawing noses more, I only know how to draw like the one type of nose since forever. ;;

I can only draw anime noses.
or cartoony.

But as i want to aim for semi-realism.
i have to learn to draw semi-realistic noses. but they always look weird on my art.
or they look like Voldemort.

Same, I started out drawing anime-styled and now it seems I'm stuck with it despite me wanting to go for semi-realism instead. It's hard trying to change drawing styles. The nose and face shape just kept on looking grotesque.

Voldemort?! Why??

I really don't like drawing anime style but it's all I can draw
when it comes to noses.

Sometimes with semi-realism, you don't have to thoroughly draw the nose and you can just draw the nostrils and color
blend and shade the nose and it'll look fine.

Yeah...downside to only drawing anime-styled as a kid, now it's almost impossible to change that style. Ugh.

It's what I've been trying to do with the noses, but I get the Voldemort thing now. XD Didn't even realize the whole nostrils thing would look like him...>.>;

not impossible just very challenging.

Maybe it's just my drawings then lol

Yeah, I tried changing my drawing style but it keeps reverting back to my old style. Grr.

lol No definitely not just your drawings, I just never noticed it in my own drawings xD;; Like I know something is odd about it but couldn't put my finger to what it was.