random

I want to be remebered
holding htese feeling
to be there
to see all that I have
these emotions
in words
to not be describeds
can i publish them all
can I hold them all dear
what happens when I am dead
what happens then?
what happens
when we can all say
never again
when I walk though the door
of death
can these be left behind
these words
when it all goes away
can these still exist
shall I hold these dear now?
Or make them all later?
like what they should be?
can we run away
us two
and watch as i leave only behind
this work
leaving nothing
but my emotions
in written words
can we leave
now?

random

go for it
these words
I say
I feel it
so close, I know I can do it
but the words
they are cheering for it
I always wanted to say it
kan bantu ne
please
let you understand
I mean them
because i can
and so, can we all understand
that I am there
there wanting to running though the trees
seeing the finish
seeing the goal
that I await for
so when it is all said and done
can we all celebrate
when it is all there
we can be happy.

reflection

I have talked alot about drinking and emotions and other stuff. i am thinking at end of semester printing out all the drabbles I have done, it would be odd to have this all published, but would be quite cool too. Especially if i did Psyrien's too. Anyway, that is thought., I think we might especially if I manage to label them all something different, or have separate titles. Ok random thought, but yes would be cool.

random

can I do it

can I get there
so close
but so far away
can I reach the top
no problem
can I make it
so nothing matters.

The one thing I want, the one issue
is that what I really want
is to no longer be lonely
it is the case
I want him there
but does he understand
that is such how it is
can i continue
being up
can i continue living like this
and I have some life
or am I doomed
unable to do anything
for rest of my life
sitting there wanting people
knowing I won;t get them.

random

shall it work
it scares me
I want it all
but it scares me
all the blood
all of it
all the oddness
it scares me
I don't know if I like it or not
but it is like resident evil
it scares me badly so
it reminds me of that
but worse
well animated
but it is then
that I wonder
why did I just watch it
it looks pretty
so I hope it stays
although must admit
wish the girl was a guy.
that is what I wish
that the pretty hair
was a guys
so we could all be happy
but that is not the case
so it is weird

random

the light shines
a false light
it leads me there
to the happiness
I wish it didn't sometimes
it is as bright as the sun
but there is no way
that will cause problems
and even then
I should not be using it
as soon as it goes away
wee will all feel it
so I try not to
but it is in this dark and light mix
that i understand it all
I am there
I need it fixed
but it will take forever
so I should deal with it now
but friday
can I have fun
and run
into a fun
that isn't the acid
that burns the line
that was pushed
and makes me want to be there
with someone
all over again

random

the vibration dance

we move the music
the piece
it talks
it walks
it creates a walk
it is there
in the dust
circling
with the vibration
and then
it forms
it starts slowly
then moves on
starting with a core
and then finishing
and becomes that which can only be
a person
that in full fledge skin
created by dust
the voice those of the words unheard
his hand
it touches slightly
it moves my hand
it grabs it lightly
but with confirmation
that everything will be fine
and finally I watch and the music
wraps it's arm around me
holding me dear
but delicately
like the vibration of dust that he is
The dance is slow
and then speeds up
he smiles
showing that he understands
my affection
for him
the music
and it slowly stands
watching it all
and he sees me
but when the author stops
I understand
and close my eyes
not wanting to lose the image
I feel the dust slowly leave my hand
like the vibrations
as they die off
it is then
that I understand
what a beauty it is
the creator
the creation of music

random

if I could dance

if I could dance
I would love you
I would pelase you
and watch
not from afar
but with you in my hand
and watching
as the seclusion
as you have fun
it is a case
I would not need anything
but as it is
I am a creator
not as well as you
but to me
it is ok
not perfect
I can create only a small amount
only a person
who will never fully be there.

random

do you see me hitting on you
do you see it?
do you understand
when I said i have a pretty guy sitting next to me
do you understand that I was referring to you
not that you said anything
or if at all,
did you go after me because of it
if you want to actually do anything
take advantage
of my self
as it takes me a while to recover
so now?
what will you do
please
I beg you
give yourself to me
as I am for you
I need soemthing
something stable
but then again
can we wait
until later
for it seems
we both expected to be single
and bitter
on valentine's day

random

why do you assume
that I am available
that I can do what I want
that I am free
I have work to do
though I am not doing it
the marks on my hands are proof of that
please
let me work
and understand
don't beg me
it is cold outside
and go away
stay and entertain yourself
do your own work
stop being silly
and doing nothing
you have time
so use it
and entertain yourself
and stop taking my time

random

do as I ask
but please
and want to
jsut go
bug the other
she is next to me
we hold one schedule
well almost
find other people
if you are lonely
and stop
being a needy friend
for it is silly
go out please
like we all tell you to
So now
can i run
and be online
on mene
which is silly
I know I am being unproductive
but I want to be
I have work
and want to get 300 more
by tonight
so have fun
and go make your own
use it
and either bring it to us
or just sit
and not be distracting
to me

random

what are you going to do
you have so much work
but it is now
that I wonder
can you get it all done
can you
I am not allowed to know
so I know vague
but it is fine
you are worthy of a hug anyway
I feel for you
I understand
if someone told me that
i would freak
it is the day before a drawing is due
and nothing is left
we can not fall behind
so now what to do
I hope all will go well
as you do work

random

if you don't want one, then don't have one
this is the time of year
I watch couples break up
it is sad
I wish people were happy
but it must be difficult
so then
if you are willing to call him stupid
then drop him
you aren't committed
so then
why are you there
you love
him eh?
that is a lie
if you get mad at him enough to not want him
then solve your problems
and make it all go away
but watch as you dependent person
come back to him
like a whimpering puppy
like all those girls
just to give him the ego
that you can't let go

random

the librarian

can I make it
I have the resources
but do i have the time
is this a sleeting idea
or a permanent?
it is silly
but I think it is awesome
i want to be there
to understand it all
but then
do I have time
I would be nice
to add to my collection
for my life
is to collect
all books
you understand not
but if I lived
with only books
and nothing else
i would be happy
to have a table of books
to create stage areas out of books
it would be wonderful
to be called the librarian
to be a storage for them all
that would be most excellent
I want to collect
people's minds
for all of the time
to come

random

do you feel better?
you sound not
you look not
i hope you get better
for yours
and your boyfriend sake
that is the case
I am sorry
for if you are like this
2 days from now
do you think
that you will be ok
or just deal with being sick
for the rest of the time
I won't see you much
but then
have a ok time
and try to get better
now is not the time to be
but then again
I always got sick these days too
so no surprise to me either.

random

we all don't understand
but it is now
you make good progress
and I am not
can i work now? but no
I have lots more gold to earn.
300
skittles are my friend
they love me so
ramen is like that too
can i run
and have fun
I am random
of so random but that is how my mind tracks
with multiple trains
for all the time
that go off
into the end

random

can you not call
on tuesday
it is work day
i tell you I am busy
yet you call
all the time
you use to call wednesday
and now tuesday
neither work
so call me another night
one I can be done with work
please
so I can have fun
and work
that is why I love you
you were the one
who thought I belong here
and now
you try and interrupt
that is how it all works right
you expect high, I strive higher, and now
I want it all
to be my own

random

will you go out with me
those are the hardest words to say
you understnad
I never originally thoguth of you this way
it was a case
of we saw each other
but it is amazing
and then
finally
I want you
do you see it all
like I want to ask
how long have you known
I am supposedly quite obvious when I flirt
but I don't think so.
So can you forgive me
if you turn me down?
no hard feelings
for I want to be there
on your side
it I could be
watching you
and you
watching me
two guardians
fighting the world
together

random

please stop going through me
like I don't exist
I know I hide
even online
but you aren't cool
you are a slut
you
you stupid slacker
go away
you love every guy
sleep with every guy
but stop it
for it is dangerous
so stop trying to walk through me
for it just proves
you don't care.

Please stop being there
hold me
when you can't understand
you talkative people
stop trying to make me one
i hide for a reason
so let me be
now
and forever

random

not wanting to do work
I hope you come
my dear
I know you won't
not yet would you
if we dated?
would you
or am I getting to full of myself
assuming that you would want to
I don't find you perfect
but that is fine
for everything
to me
is ok
Even if you decline I won't do anything
I will no longer be there
still talk to you
I won't do anything
but yes i know
i am normally the one not asking
as you
but then
can you show up
and hold me
or is that
too much to ask.

random

will it arrive in time
or shall I buy my own tomorrow?
I do not know
it is limited
can i buy something
but yeah
I don't realyl know
I am terrible
i wonder if we are getting sales
I would love to teleport and run store
it would be great.
Then all my problems solved
all the time wasted gone
but then I would not be here
wasting time
instead I''d be in Hawaii
having fun
spending money

random

T.A.
stop talking to me
I know what i am doing
i know what is wrong
you say crazy ideas
I don't listen to you anyway
so go away
and stop wanting to help
for you aren't
I run and hide now.

random

psyrien's laughter

I type
for her laughter
to see her laugh
not tickling laugh
but form my silliness
that happens here
from random dialog
to see her laugh
to see as I strive
to write
and she knows it
she doesn't get mad at me
so I want to see her face
brighten up again
and laugh
for it keeps me here
and keeps me alive
for she is the light that lives
when it is snowing and dark outside
her light
of the bittered soul
but not

random

chocolate keeps falling on my head

chocolate keeps falling on my head
ding dong ding dong
it seems silly to it all
for every time I try to post
chocolates keep falling on my head
chocolates keep falling on my head
how much I can seem to gain
for each and every post I seem
chocolates keep falling on my head
for it all to be.

Anyway, must admit, the redirection is causing it hard to post. it is very very annoying sometimes., but it is good ,I have more than anyhting now
5 foxie sets
they are so pretty
they have dialog
to keep everyone amused
so then
what will staff say then?

random

I seem to get more insane
as the night goes by can I be less insane
or is it fate
that I am this way
and i hide now
i wish I had the pudao
but I have a more expensive item
ti is funny
but I love them so much
the wings are worth more than the weapon
I think
but that is me
I charge
hoping that the foxes move
one does not
with the splatter of blood
I can see
what was left when it all happened
the black stays
by my side
as the aristocrat inside me laughs
knowing insanity
it lives
to see it all