Alright, a place for my poems.
Since I don't usually like to change my poems, a lot of them have bad spelling from when I wasn't the greatest in grammar. So please, don't hold it against me. A lot of n00bish spelling as well...but Oh well, again don't hold it against me please.

I really enjoy writing, just depends what I'm writing about. So here are a few poems, that have significant meaning to me

the times gone by so fast
i cant beleive its gone
only thing left is our past
and our many songs
13 yrs of memories
through which i remember well
all of our stories
and our secrets that we tell
the way you supported me
when things were at its worst
you always saw the best in me
as you also were growing up
you're still my big brother
that will never change
you were a big part of my life
i wouldent rearrange
Through the friendship that we shared
And the mistakes we both have made
never did we ever think
that we didnt really care
your the first guy i ever loved
With all the tears we shared
with all the years behind us
and the time thats yet to come
i cant help but feel numb
You've watched me grow up
Become all that i could be
Wishing you would call
or come to see me
Your last year of highschool
it seems to have went by too fast
Only 3 years ago we were skating
you were learning the harlem shake
never did i ever think
about the risks we both would take
the mistakes we both would make
the friendships that could break
through it all i still can't lie
i miss you through it all
but i know how you are
youre still standing tall
getting ready to graduate
with the big class of 2005
makeing someone of yourself
doing something with your life
we both know you would get a career in basketball
and baseball wasent your biggest strength
dancing could be a good profession
but a big risk you would take
going to college would be a good choice
A few years of more schooling wouldent hurt
But no matter what you do I'll always be here for you
I can look through your mistakes
I know who you really are
Your Shane
Short Shane
Shane Micheal Edward Mitchell
The little kid with hairy arms
And a stupid skateboard
Who i would soon grow to love
I watched you run your moped into a po-barn
I cried over you on various occasions
I grew up with you for 13 great years
Never would i want something else
You're my big brother
Who had it bad for all those years
Who just wanted to be a lil bit taller
Your my Shane
Who's now grown up

Razor

My feelings are overrun
By emotions and Anger
Dont know how to stop it
Before I do something dumb again
The Razor looks so sharp, filled with pain from the stories untold.
My skin, my body, so delicate.
The pain that could be released
Stories that dont have to be told
The razor has never been more beautiful
A sight to see, so precious to hold
So many questions, running out of answers
It doesent seem possible something so beautiful can feel so good
The thought of blood has never sounded better
Smell of flesh, oh so good
The changes that it can bring
The feelings
The emotions running wild
My anger coming out
And there sits a razor, reflecting light as if it were life
Until it gets pressed to my skin
Then, in that moment, everything changes

Two years, too fast.

Sometimes when I needed you
You were never there
I'd always end up looking
But into nothingness I would stare
You never knew you meant to me
How much that you do
Even now that your gone
I still love you
I can't help but imagine
The pain and hurt you went through
If only I could take that pain
So I could feel it too
One last trip home
Thats all you wanted to do
But right before that trip took place
The impossible came true
That day I lost you
And everything that you were
That day I felt dead
I mean, I didnt see you, sure
But even after not seeing you
It didnt make things change
No one else could do...
What you, a father did to me.
Yes you caused me pain
But you also showed me love
One last time I wanted to see you
Maybe all that pain would melt away
Little did I know
It was more then just heartache
I lost someone very precious
And saw the new road I'd have to take
2 years have gone
Gone by too fast
I can't seem to forget
As much as I might like...
You mean more to me then forgetting
All of those horrible fights
Seems like all I can remember
When those days were oh so cold
That day...the gun...the trigger
Nothing seemed right about it
Scared, confused, emotionless at the time
No one dare look into it
Look into all the signs
I should have expected it
I should have known
But how do you tell an 7 year old
Its too late for you to go home
The damage had been done
Papers already signed
Never did I know, that you were gone
Never for me to see again
If I knew those were my last moments with you
I wouldent have let them end
You moved away...
Far away
Never saw you again
Even though you left me
It didnt change a thing
You were still a part of me
My dad, part of my everything
You taught me a lot in life
Things I cant forget
Things I won't forget
You're my dad...
Daddy...
I wish I could have spent more time with you
Wish you would have known...
Wish you could have gotten help
Before it was too late...
But daddy, I don't blame you
I know your in a better place
But I can't help but cry
And worry about you day to day
He didnt know what he was taking from me
And I didnt know why
I'd ask myself every day
If it was so wrong to cry
The last words I heard you say
Were the ones I wont forget
Through your breathing, and my tears
I'll remember them forever
You told me you loved me, and you missed me
You even called me "furball"
I love you too daddy
And I miss you more than ever.

Lost Soul

Just a little girl
Little useless girl
Up to no good
A smile on her face and a tear in her eye
Looked down upon by everyone
Because expectations were so high
No one got to know her
No one wanted her
She was alone in this world
The world of the free and the mean
When no one wanted her
What could she be?
No one would notice it
If she got into drugs
To them, she's nothing
Another lost soul
Another dead girl
Too late to show them
What she really could be
Waiting for her last days
The days she thought would never end
The end of her...
No one saw her when she walked by
No one said anything
Not even a hi...
When she looked in the mirror
No one could see
No one acknowledged
How pretty she'd be
If only someone would look
They'd be able to see
What a nice girl
She knew she could be
But it didnt matter
To everyone, she was just a bad girl
A troubled girl
A lonely girl
Just another lost soul
That troubled...lost girl....that was me
Dead to the world
That only you could see...

Just a poem

As a girl of five
I never thought I could survive
As my life got worse
The worse it hurt
I thought in time
That somehow, I'd be fine
But things still went down hill from there
It seemed like no one really cared
Not even me
Truthfully...behind the lies I see
I didnt care
I hid everything
I wore a mask everyday of my life
But that really wasent the only thing in life I had to fight
I wanted to die
I thought maybe someday I'd end up being able to fly
Oh what a fool I was
Even full of life, I can still fly high
I've made mistakes, I've hurt others
I've done things that I'm not very proud of
I've caused all the pain in my life...
Nothing can cure this, no gun...no knife
Suicide is the pussy way out
It seemed all I got to do is pout
Didnt show anyone the true me
A fake, a Poser...thats what'd they'd see
But now...its only the real me that shows
I'll make mistakes
I wont be perfect
But I wont lie...
Its not my time to die
I wont be who you want me to be
You get what you see
Dont try to change me
You wont get far
Deal with who I am
Deal with who you are