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Lies To Comfort You

Hope against hope but
Fear conquers all
Contradict what you know
And keep telling yourself
Lies to comfort you
Reassure you they'll remember
Tell yourself that they still feel for you
Lies to comfort you
It doesn't matter what you see
The face stare out as a mask
And hear someone whispering
They're again whispering
Lies to comfort you
And as you breathe the air
Inhale the bitter truth
You can taste reality
Tell yourself I'll come for you
But you must know I won'tJust keep hearing those
Lies to Comfort You

Oh My God

Oh my God
Give it all to me
Now take it all away
Send me home
Let me go now
Oh my God you give it all away
You take it all away
Bring me back to life
Give me back my heart
You took it all away
Sent me a one like myself
Then you take him back away
Gave it far away
Oh my God bring me back to life
God please give me life

Over it, Over You

And now it’s time to end your game
I am done with these rules that change
I’m sick of all your shit
Get out
You’re starting to bore me
Starting to annoy me
This game is done, it ends tonight
You (ass), you’ll never make it right.
Your friend is gone
He’ll never come back.
You can kill me, thrill me—
But I’m done with your game
I’m getting out while I still can
You’ll regret if you don’t let me go
Leave your bullshit in the high school
Please grow up and let the past be done
You’ll lose everything and hate me more
Let go your obsession and leave me alone

I'm back to being me
Moment of weakness past
Quick brush with insecurity
On the
Phone I heard you
Say some lie
Some excuse
I flinch now never
Call my name again
Quit playing me you
Know all the right
Chords to make me scream
On the
Phone I heard you
Say some lie
Some excuse
So now I'll leave
You, here where you belong
Never call my name again
Won't hear you if you try
Shields gone back up
And who's still standing now
Though
On the
Phone I heard you
Say some lie
Some excuse
I flinch now never
Call my name again

Rewrite this ending
Like everything I ever wrote
This will end badly
Can't help but want a
Different conclusion
Do you blame me?
Rewrite the ending so
I feel this for you
As you do I know
You want it too
So I will rewrite
The ending, I will
Rewrite this ending

Sandman's Lover

Wanting it all to be real somehow
The silver sky and violet grass don’t confuse me
Hearing the kindness ripple out of your mouth
Then I know that I’m asleep and dreaming
Bits created by the Sandman’s lover
Look at your face change from blue to pale to green
And your hands red to blue and back
And it all makes some kind of sense inside
Maybe in dreams I view you as you really are
Maybe it’s only in dreams that we see who people really are
Back to watching you and hearing you
The words changing and flowing together
And saying the things you always implied aloud
That’s when I know that I’m asleep and dreaming
Bits created by the Sandman’s lover
Watching you disintegrate and float away
Seeing the sky turn black and blue
A giant bruise, I’m sure it’s for you
And it all seems like it’s supposed to be
All seems like life to me
Until your words come back on the stream of air
Until you say what you’ve procrastinated
That’s when I know that I’m asleep and dreaming
Bits created by the Sandman’s lover

Search For the Past


I long for someone who knew me then
I stretch and search for a tie to the past
Everyone from then is gone
And those who knew me as I was
Fade away with their platinum memories
Charm the night with their see-through stories
I wish that there was one to help
Someone to soothe my flailing mind
But I’m different than, better than who I was
And my past’s acid floats down the river
Everything changes but all stays the same
Everyone swirls around me
You’ve formed a perfect face

Viva la Palabraserpentina*

Nothing left to believe in
Take it all away and let it die
A slow death
And witness day after day
Such lonely days
Discover the twisting winding
Only to have it slip away
Say goodbye to what you see everyday
Say goodbye to what you believe in
If it causes you pain
Just drink it in
Nothing to believe in anymore
Until the end comes
Waving the banner of our ego
Strong in the wind
Recognizable from so far near
Sensing what I've needed so long
Take it all in and try to breathe
Regain yourself only for a dream
Live your life only in a trance
Sense the reality of truth
Inhale the knowledge of love
Over pain so bitter
Come out of the dream
To face the reality that's
So damn sweet

*Title means: Life of the Wordstreamer.

Stereotypes (Are Dead)

The smart kids are failing
The preps all have nose rings
The students know the answers
To all the teachers' questions
Wish you were here
(To) witness the fall of Sony
(To) see the decline of Aiwa
Stereotypes are dead
All the geeks are in the clubs
Cool kids (are) stuck at home
Bands have all become tone-deaf
Color blinds are seeing red
Wish you were here
(To) witness the fall of Sony
(To) see the decline of Aiwa
Stereotypes are dead
Aren't you glad we
Couldn't have been a clique
How we drifted, drifted round
And around no loyalties
How we'd lie and smile
Then we'd cry
Wish you were here
(To) witness the fall of Sony
(To) see the decline of Aiwa
Stereotypes are dead

The Line

Every night I fear to fall asleep
For every night I dream of you
You come to me in the midst of my slumber
You come to me to make me scream
The line is blurred now
I've lost touch with reality
I can't remember what was real
What did you say and now
I'm lost so far away
I've had five dreams these past five nights
You've been there all along
I see you and I'm comforted by lies
The line is blurred now
I've lost touch with reality
I can't remember what was real
What did you say and now
I'm lost so far away
I know these words could
Not be yours they are too kind
So why am I confusing you with my dreams?
The line is blurred now
I've lost touch with reality
I can't remember what was real
What did you say and now I'm lost so far away

Heartbeat of the City/Suicide of the Mind

Take a look around you
See the graves
The zombies walking
Round and round
Ghost of you
Corpses of all else
Hole through the head
Brain fell out
Kept in a jar
By the zombie scientists
Guns littered the ground
Paper bullets unfurled
(Don't think just feel....)
The gun spits again
Your ghost lingers beside me,
Knowing in death
What you tried to feel in life.
And you won't talk to me
But I'm watching you.
And your body rises from the dirt
Brain splats on the ground.
Paper bullet falls to the earth
Your voice echoes in it
"Don't use the logic...."
And I put the rotted stems
On your uprooted grave
And calmly dismantle your dead limbs
And I look up in the night to watch you fade away
Walk home alone again
The heartbeat of the city.

Your Weapon

You know that I can't hurt you
Know that I won't strike back
I refuse to hit the defenseless
And you'll deliberately keep arms down
Your weapon is your shield is
Your lack thereof
And I have to wonder if that's why you do it
I have to remember the proposition you made
And I have to ask if you're turning it on me
Am I your new experiment?
Are you playing science tricks on me?
It's failed or succeeded
I don't give a flying--

Your War, Your Game

Rapist
Murderer
How do you sit there
How can you walk in the world
Killer--
Brutal
You blame me for all your problems
I never started this war
I never wanted a war
You waved your shining banner
So much prettier than mine
Call your sheep to you
Swinging madly at me—
Now it’s
Started
And you can’t take it back
You’ll never get what you want
You’ll always be shallow
You will lose this war,
For I would lay down my life for my lover.

Endgame

I can’t explain it
I can’t tell them everything
I won’t be a bitch
Strike at the unready
Leach and steal and manipulate
No, that’s your game
Angry at my moment of happiness
Please, just leave me alone.
I cannot stand this
I didn’t ask for this
Call to arms was not my cry
I tried to give an easy out
But you just couldn’t let it go
You couldn’t be a little happy
Now I hate you; now you’ll lose
You angered us
Please call this off
Before you regret this
I already hate this

Melancholy To Think


Melancholy to think
Can’t feel the pain of his mind
Streets that glow in the dark
To show all of your shadows
Yet you’re somehow blind
Can’t see them on anybody
But know they must be there.
Assume the worst in paranoia
In the numbness that is this.
Taking over everything that meant something
Turning it into meaninglessness.
And it’s all the painting
The masterpiece of beauty
Heard of love before
Think it’s come back to laugh
On the streets that glow in the dark
Before they light on fire
And run and catch everyone
Assume the worst in paranoia
In the numbness that is this.
Takes over everything that meant something
And turns it into.

Cynic In Me

Cold and uncertain
Of the future my love
Shivering shaking
In your frozen heart
Despising my inner demon
Hating that which would hurt you
The words that would come so easily
If I’d simply release them
But the cynic in me won’t die so easily
The brat in me just won’t go away
And it’s me that’s in love
And it’s me that’s dying
Trying to make myself up to you
Trying to be the best for you
And I’m scared of the future
And I hate my part without
With you I feel safe,
With you I’m in love,
But I’m scared that I’d hurt you
And scared that we’ll both die
And I almost have to wonder if it’s worth the possible
But I’m with you and
I recognize that no possibility is
Worth being without

I Understand

I understand more than you think I will
And I take the high ground now
A trick I couldn't pull two years ago
Seeing everything so much clearer than I could have ever
Knowing not to give up and never to give in
Do you comprehend what you're trying to tell me
Do you understand the words that you use
Your world may make you break down and cry
But could you take my old world
Could you take it for a day
Do you know the difference between right and wrong
Have you seen your moral compass spin to pieces/Did you make a mistake
Do you understand emotional pain
Have you ever had to scream to make someone listen
And then heard that you're screaming too harshly
Have you ever been the one who they run to at night
And do you have to comfort them every day?
Did you ever save your best friend from suicide
And have him call you depressed every night
He doesn't want to live or maybe it's you he wants dead
And so you go slowly mad to save his life
Are you the one that she runs to
She knows you can't trust her
She'd betray you in a second
But you're the only one she can believe in
So you stay for her and let her steal your soul
It's so senseless, and I cannot understand them
Do they want to live?
It drives me insane
And the sense of compassion buried inside
Eats out of my body through my tears
If you haven't got them,
Then you're centered down to yourself
And if you don't have that there
Then you're dead to begin with.
Do you know what it's like
To go through every fucking day
For four damn years
With a friend who uses you
Do you know what it feels
To have everyone who meant something
Leave you at once
But face their empty shells every day
Without showing your pain
Every damn day
You'd go insane and die
Be in a world of hurt
And never let on that you're slowly being killed
Everything ripped away
So when you finally meet nirvana
You cannot accept it
Because you're a little too cynical
You've got your life ahead of you
If you can get through it
Crying for one year straight
Not noticing the pain
It's just a giant sore you live with
Kill off all that is good
For the sake of a fool

Insanity Clings

Sleeping with my eyes open
Watching you fade away
With her forever now
Hold my head up and see behind me
Hearing you whisper silently
Through my hair
Closing you out of myself
Running away from me
Living in my nightmares
Of impossibilities
Created by you
I’ve sunk so low into the abyss
The pits created by your eyes
Hearing the walls resound with your lies
Can’t touch the prison
There’s a way to be free
And if the screams of your breathing would stop
Just for a second
Maybe I could make it back

Room of Ghosts

Ran away
So far that they can’t catch me
Pushed the door away
And screamed so loud
Stood still before I started off
Couldn’t watch and couldn’t stop
Scared so bad by what I saw
Frozen in place and useless as hell
Ran away so far and fast
Couldn’t stop yelling
Didn’t know my own name
Impossible to work a doorknob
Tears that fell and stole my voice
Tried to soothe the children
Nothing left inside because
It’s still coming on so fast
And still scaring me so bad
Felt all of them praying with me
Not again, no, not today
Surrounded by then in a roomful of ghosts

Public School Support

Pass the test or you lose even more
You can't afford it, well, that's just too bad
We won't leave you behind
Unless you can't keep up
Let's punish you for doing poorly
Punish a group for one failure
We won't leave you behind
Unless you can't keep up
Can't you understand? (Aren't you perfect?)
Well let's make sure you never do (Never are)
Let's not give you another chance
Let's make it even harder
We'll take away all of your tools
Form your young minds with no resources
We won't leave you behind
Unless you can't keep up
No child left behind
As long as they can sprint

Prince

A prince among men
The royal peasant walks
It's in his eye
And the way he moves
Elite and unique
He whispers to me
Above all of us
He floats off the ground
Gliding around
Head in the clouds
He's
A prince among men
Beyond earthly rules
He knows no constraints
I pity the day
He has to come down
Breaks his heart
To know that he's human
He wants to be perfect
But no one can be
That isn't for him
Gliding around
Head in the clouds
He's
A prince among men
Beyond earthly rules
Breaks his heart for
He wants to be perfect
But he has to be human
Today

I know two kids, not much younger than me…
Never thought they’d get together, but what can I really see?
Oh, maybe they’ve changed, maybe they’re different, I only remember the past.
He is seventeen, and she is fourteen, and I fear it won’t last.
But if something runs between them, and they feel it in their veins,
This silly girl and this sober boy, well, who can really say?
Is it hormones running wild? Does he see something inside?
My heart got broken at sixteen; will he do better than I?
When I was her age, I would’ve thought he was a god
I know he’s really a man--------
He’s brilliant, he’s so smart, he’s better than me, and all that we could be—yeah—
Is it hormones running rampant? Well, I don’t know what he sees in her, but maybe there’s something inside---
And I’m happy, I’m crazy, bout the man that I’m in love with; we’re made for one another. He’s beautiful, he’s perfect, and I want no other…. But sometimes I wonder….
This is a love song, to the man I’ll never know. And I wish that I could tell you, but I realize you don’t wanna know
Does he see something inside of this silly girl—with that sober boy—I can’t really say.
I know two kids, not much younger than me.
Never thought they’d get together, but what can I really see?
But he’s so brilliant, maybe she’s changing, and either way my time is past.


That's actually new. <3

Do you strike only to wound
Or did you know you'd kill?
Are you aiming to decieve
Or, for once, is this for real?
It must be real, you can't act so
But I've been lied to before
You've used us and you hurt us
And we've finally said, "No more"
And so you cry and beg and moan and shout
And it does you no good, to no avail,
So you go about a different route
To try and end our lives
Take away respect and love
You can't take away our selves
(But you can do so much more)
And it's all, all that I'm living for
Just to get through the next day
And you've taken so much of me away
I'm amazed that there's anything left
And the light inside feels dead and gone
And I fear that you're to blame
You've taken me away from me
My soul, my heart, my self--
I wish to get me back,
My groove, my joy, my life
And I don't know how to go about this
I'm not even sure if it's you.
But there is so much that's your fault.
There's so much for which you're to blame
You make me cry, you made me die,
When will I be free again?

A world of contempt
A world of hate and regret
Eternally hiding and missing
Always wishing that it wasn't a lie
Always wanting more
Wishing that there'd been a way through to you
Wondering if I somehow made a mistake
You admitted it, you gloried in it,
I am not to blame.
It was you.
I refuse to take the blame for your crimes.
I refuse to be hated for my lack of a crime.
I refuse....
I refuse....
I refuse to be blamed for things that I would never do.
I will never lie down and take your shit.
I refuse to be your sacrifice.
I refuse to be your scapegoat.
I refuse....
I refuse....
I am not the virgin at the altar,
I am not the sheep to be laid down,
I am not your excuse for life,
I am not the reason for your hatred.
I refuse to lie to you.
I refuse to be your lie to yourself.
I refuse.....
I refuse.....

"It's never that easy, is it..."

Pastel, candy-coated lollipops and drinks of sugar....
She gave it a whirl, just for them.
She gave it a try; tried to take it in.
But the bleeding and the screaming came down that night,
The bleeding and anger returned.
The hatred and fear came so hard that night,
The anger and worry returned.
And unconsciousness fell like a sudden blow,
And understanding was never achieved,
And she knew that she'd always be alone in that,
Afraid and so lonely in humourlessness,
Inside of herself and inside of her head,
She hid away away and she tried to forget
But there are somethings that can never go away.
Some things return to you, just won't leave you alone;
Some things you just can't escape.
She knew that he would come for her,
She knew that she would not be lost.
But she feared the solitude and hatred and tears
And could feel it reaching and killing with ease
She hated, she hated, she hated its lies
She couldn't believe in the world they enjoyed
With its sugar and candy and pastel toys
With the "love" and the "sweet" and the lies they embraced
She'd always be a world away.