Very cool. I have the butterfly wings and I want to do something with them but I haven't figure out what yet.

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My next goal is the Mad Monk I saw in the market place for 3000 gold.

ah well Queenie would buy it for you and have you pay her back once you got the gold. That way you would make sure to get it.

Really? I will have to talk to her. I am already at about 1,200 gold.

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Drat I don't have Queenie in my contacts. I know I have talked to her before but I can't think of her full user name.

Menewsha Avatar Community - View Profile: Queen_Andais is her profile

Of course. Thanks Kiri. I could only think Queenie and not her full user name.

No problem.

Do you think she would really be willing to do that for me?

She does it for me.

I will have to ask her I suppose and see if she is willing.

Originally Posted by Kirin Rosenbaum

That's good. But I'm very aware that some people do so I take it slow.

That is really nice of you :)

Originally Posted by Silver Storm

Nope. No third for a while, we are making sure. I want kids but I am not ready to be a mommy yet.

Kiri you can ask me anything you ever want. I don't get offended easily and I am a pretty open book.

I understand that... as much as I want to find a really nice guy, kids are not on my agenda.

I want kids, but I don't feel I am ready to be a mom yet, nor can we afford a baby right now.

Always good to keep that in mind.

I don't want kids for a long time. Well, at least two years after marriage. But with this babysitting, I'm pretty much starting to raise my cousins in my aunt's place. The older cousin even suggested I get a foster care license so she can have them move in with me instead. *cries*

That is intense.

Man I am tired, so sleepy.

I'm sleepy too... *sees the time* ... I have to go pick up the kids... my bedtime is a good 2 hours away still minimum *sigh*

Well good luck girl, I will be praying for you.

Thank you sweetheart. It means a lot. Need God's help. A lot.

I understand. You are in our prayers.

Life just got worse... I don't suppose you could up those prayers a little... I've been dealing with depression for more than a few months now. I've been fighting it saying, "I choose to be happy." When I came back to the states, I figured it would be easier to deal with. However, as you can see, stressful situation after stressful situation has bombarded me. I'm so worn out that my will power to force myself to be positive and happy is waning. I seriously need a month of no stress, no drama, no long hours working, and most importantly being surrounded my pleasant people who don't complain every other sentence.

I will definitely up the prayers. Let me know if you need to come up here and get away from it all. We will find a way to make it happen.

I'm coming up for the 9th... can't come until then. Too many things happening. But man alive, less negativity. My aunt and my uncle got into fierce words and threats were made. Police got involved. Now all family events are stressed because either one or the other can't come. The emotional and physical needs of my cousins rests on my shoulders. I'm working 3 part time jobs. The manipulation and bullying from South Korea still nag at me, reminding me that because I left I am considered a failure to the Koreans. Everything negative that certain... talkative... family members say drags at me. I could handle any one of these things if it was just that one thing. To deal with all of it... I really, really need a little extra strength.

I've found myself starting to cry every day this week and sometimes last week. I bite the tears back because otherwise my eyes would feel sluggish and I would have a headache for the following 24 hours. Teachers who left Korea before me and Teachers back in Korea told me that I have to get counseling when I leave... it comes with being a teacher over there. Get on pills that can balance the chemicals in my body. But... without healthcare...

Yeah. Prayer be a good thing.

Aww poor maiden. I am so sorry it has been so rough my friend. I am praying for you and I will have New Creation praying too.

I'm sorry I am such a mess. Grandma had no idea anything was wrong with me until I told her how I was feeling. She is trying to shield me from some of the family mess but she can't shield me from it all nor would I want her to hold such a heavy burden on her own for my sake.

Well at least she is helping. That is good even if she can't shield you from it all.

*wanders in and looks around*

Aww Kiri my friend. Do come in.