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I am Nemiah, son of Isoteph, descendant of pharaohs and a pharaoh now myself. Most people would be impressed, especially since I'm actually holding things together pretty well at this point.
But... there's always a but. If I'm supposed to be the link between mortals and gods, why don't I feel like it? There's really nothing special about me, I've never heard their voices or gotten some divine message towards governing my people. Everything that I know I've been taught by mortals, mostly by Lakar. I miss him. He would know how to console me right now.
Truly, my only actual tie to the gods has decided to leave me. Hemset, my previous High Priest has stepped down and moved away. He at least contains the spirit of the god Set within him. He practically ran this place with me when he was here. He deserves the title.
But he wasn't born from my bloodline. Yet what is blood? I bleed the same color as everyone else in this world.
I've wondered about this for some time now. Years ago now, Asima once told me that I wasn't cut out to be a pharaoh. Sometimes I wonder if that was my divine message all along. Yet what can I do? As long as I live, I must do my best, however pathetic that might be.
I have done nothing exceptional with my rule, I can barely get everything that needs doing done let alone something extraordinary. Truly, I can not possibly be worthy of my father's pride. He did great things, good and bad yes but all great and all for the greater good.
I'll never measure up to that.