I see myself in the window's reflection
I see you in the background
we're so much the same
but so much different too.

You stand tall,
confidence in every step,
every word,
every fiber of your being screams
"I am alive!"

I see myself
hidden, stashed away secretly
nobody seems to have noticed
my mind operates seperately
than my body and actions.

Maybe I say "I am alive, too!"
but my mind is secretly
formulating plans to counter
that exclamation.

Maybe you can live
but I see myself slipping
mentally i'm dying
physically, i'm well on my way
of inducing death of free will

Will you notice?
Will you see the drastic diference?
or do I have to shove it in your face
to get a reaction of some sort?

Do I have to die to truely live life
in it's purest form?

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people: anouncement! I"m not actually depressed right now, nor am I actually dying on the outside or in. not any more ^^