So for about the past month I've been having these episodes where I just kinda go comotose for about 1-5 minutes. I mean. I'm awake. I can see I can think....but I can't really do much of anything else unless someone calls my name or does something to snap me out of it. It's like my brain is going really really fast and I can't move. Along with it I've been having headaches, my vision goes blurry and... well I guess the strangest thing is that I get what feels like air trapped between my skull and my skin and it "flutters". It's been in other places too, but that's the strangest and most noticable.

I went to the doctor the other day. Because the episodes started happening while I was driving, working and even having sex... it freaked me out and so they did a CT scan yesterday, got some blood and urine from me and tested pretty much everything psysiological that they could. It all came back clean. I get Indian health care and, while the care itself is free, if they don't have the resources to handle something it gets sent to what's called "contract health". They have to approve it through a board and then they send me to another hospital to get it all taken care of.

The doctor thinks I'm having petite mal seizures and wanted to contract me out for an EEG because they don't have the equipment there. There's a possibility that the comittee that decides these things will reject it and then I'll be up a creek with no paddle. The EEG will tell me what's causing the seizures so they'll stop. I'm kind of afraid though... what if it doesn't get approved? I don't have health care through my work because I'm technically still a contracted help. Our contract company doesn't have a very good health care package at all...so I didn't bother getting it because I didn't think I'd need it. I've never had to get anything contracted out with the exception of the ultrasound when I was expecting my son.

On top of all that mess I've had to worry about what happens if the commitee DOES approve it and they find nothing... my father recently had a grand mal seizure (the one where you collapse and start twitching and curling into the fetal position) and after it happened.. they couldn't find the cause... what if I'm the same way? At the very least I'm less afraid of it being cancer because the CT came back clean. About 4-5 months ago I had a Leep Procedure (where they cut off part of your cervix) because I had the first stages of cancer. At first they thought I could have a tumor in my brain, but after the CT that's ruled out.

I don't know what's going to happen from this point on and quite frankly I'm really frightened. What happens if they say I can't drive? What if I can't work? What will happen to my son? There's so many questions and I don't know any of the answers to them. I know that this isn't something that can get fixed overnight but if anyone has any suggestions for how to cope with the situation or they have similar stories about how they got past rough spots in their medical history I would appreciate if they were shared...

Fey, it seem's like to me there is somethings they can do with if you aren't able to get the scan or if you are. I'm pretty sure your doctor will give you anti-seizure meds as a precautionary if you aren't. But if they do find something and depending on how bad it is there's plenty of options that can be done. Since yours seem's like a lower level issue they might give you the meds and you'll be fine with less episodes. And I'm sure you can find ways of getting what you need through the internet or finding some sort of small health care else where if it's needed. I do hope it's better than what can be expected.

First of all I would calm down a bit. And, wait to see what happens.

If you need an EEG then get one if you can afford it and hopefully they find out what's causing it.

Even if they can't find out whats causing it, they will do more tests.

And, it will get better eventually.

Hope it works out for you soon.

I have a bad habit of freaking out about stuff. I ended up crying in the doctor's office because I was so far out of my depth that I didn't know what to do. Ended up crying again after my mom called because she kept asking if it was my fault... asking me if I had been drinking or doing drugs or had hit my head on anything...

UPDATE!
The EEG was scheduled for this saturday... here's hoping everything will go well. It's sleep deprived so I may be on when all of the Aussies are on during CST 12-9am Saturday.