*Huggles and squishes Katty tightly and luffles on* Hun, I know Cliff has been quite unreasonable lately and I am so truly sorry. I think he is such a foolish man. I soooo want to kick his butt for you and tell him to wake up and smell the coffee!

*hugs katty* :hug:

Sounds like you've been through quite on a rough of things. I hope things would get better soon for you.

My weekend wasn't exactly good and happy, but alright enough. :yes:

Well my wonderful friends...

There is nothing to worry about any more...

Either this Friday or Next Friday he is dumping me...

He told me he had to take a day of annual leave so that he could come to town and tie up some loose ends...

I asked what loose ends and he told me changing the title to the truck, trailer, and gun... They are all in his name already...

Well he already signed the trailers title and gifted it to me but I can't afford to put it in my name. The gun is mine and it sounds as though the truck will be mine also...

I asked him when he would be up for the weekend next and he said I don't know now.

Lixie,

The wings I have now but I don't yet have the Ravenheadwings and would love them but with all that is going to me a while to get because my life is all mucked up right now... (Probably about a month to get together enough menegold.)

Just let me know and I will start saving...

Awwww katty <33
How are you doing now?? How is your father?

*Huggles and squishes and luffles on Katty*

Hun, I hope you're doing ok. I know you're probably up at your Dad's again. Send me a message when you get home again, ok?

*Extra huggles and squishes and luffles for Katty*

My Dad certainly perked up while I was there...

I have to go back tomorrow to take my Granddaughter to the big airport to meet her Dad.

They will be flying back to SC thursday evening... Then in mid August I will be flying to SC to bring her back home...

I am doing ok.

I find that I cry myself to sleep at nights but I am ok...

I can't wait to see him the next time... hehehe... I am going to tell him that I don't want the truck or the trailer. I am not a whore and he can't buy me off...

Won't that give him a start!!! hehehe

If I have to live in my car or in a tent I will do just that....

I will not ever let him know how bad he hurt me...

Originally Posted by L i x i e

Hi there.
:]

I can sell you 1x Winter's Flight for 2.9k, and 1x Raven Headwings for 4.2k? :3

I'd be willing to hold.
;D

I'm still willing to sell.
xD;;

Lixie/Winter Wind,

Oh wow, then I will start to get to work on getting enough to buy your item... I am close to half way there...

Personal update for my friends,

Well I no longer have a clue if Cliff is going to break up with me or stay with me now. He called me last night and we talked for more than 2 hours...

He is not a phone talker at all. If I get to talk to him via phone more than just him letting me know that he is on the way, it is weird to me and I get all tongue tied and don't know what to say to him...

Just about the whole time we were on the phone I was smashing him with all of his faults that helped to create the problem... I didn't yell or scream, I didn't tear my hair out...

I stayed calm cool and collected, though I did cry a little bit a few different times but it was quiet and I kept it to myself...

I made him admit to several things that he had trouble with... I made him agree that several times he was the entire problem and not me at all...

I made him open his eyes and look inside himself to see his own changes in the past 3 years that we have been going out.

I made him see and admit to the things that he has done that have changed our relationship into what it is today...

I just kept lamb-basting him over and over again...

I told him that if he treats me like his friend then I am only just his friend.

I told him that he has been treating me like a beloved partner for quite a while now and I told him instances... These are some of the things that he admitted to...

I told him that after 3 years we have a relationship though an unconventional one it is a relationship still...

I pointed out to him that he has known that I cared about him for at least a year and a half.

I pointed out to him that I haven't asked him for anything, not caring, not love, not money, not items...

I pointed out to him and made him admit that taking out your first bank loan and buying a $6000 truck for me is not something that you do for just a friend...

I pointed out to him the good that I have been doing to him just by being here for and with him. I made him admit the truth of many of those things...

Eventually I asked him... Well what are you going to do???

He asked what are my options?

I told him

#1 you can lay down and die, basically where he has been at for at least 5 years inside of his heart

OR,

#2 you can get up, get dressed, and live again...

I pointed out to him and made him admit that the chunk of stone that has been surrounding his heart for years now has a bunch of cracks in it...

I pointed out to him and made him admit that I was doing him a lot of good in his heart and spirit...

I pointed out to him and made him admit that I have in fact been bringing him back to life albeit slowly...

So he will be up today sometime and it will be later not earlier... I don't have a clue if he is still going to dump me or if he is going to say I am sorry, I was wrong, and keep me...

Pray for me to find the way to accept whatever decision that he makes...

I love you all and yes it is all of you telling me that I needed to tell him what was going on inside of me that made me finally crack and do just that...

I have been threatening to tell him for quite a while now exactly how I feel and what his actions do to affect me... Well I finally did just that...

-prays for Katty-
I can't really relate, but it sounds like you got a hugee load of your chest.
Good job girlie! :3

I'm rooting for you.
x3

Sidenote, sure, I can hold. :3

Wooo!!!
You go girl!
Congrats, lets hope that bastard comes around and makes the right decision.
We are all backing you up here katty <333

*hugs katty tight*

Good for you, katty. Whatever decision he chose or whatever he decides to do, stay strong, alright? :hug:

I have typed up a huge message telling all of my wonderful friends what happened and as soon as I was almost done with it then the page would just disappear.

This last time was the 5th time I tried to type it up.... I give up for now...

After I get back home to my computer I will give it one last try...

Until then just know that things aren't as bad as they were going to be and I am ok with what has happened, at least for now...

Hugs and loves to all of my special friends, thank you also for holding my hand through a real rough week for me!!!

*Slips into the thread giving Katty lots and lots of huggles and squishes and luffles on*

Katty, just want to tell you I love you and care tons and tons about you. You're an awesome friend to know and I am so glad we met each other. No matter what happens between Cliff and you, I am here for you, hun.

Fizi my dear,

I love you too...

I am not going to rock the boat again this soon... I want to give it at least a week or two to level out...

I also want to be face to face if and or when I rock the boat again... hehehe

As usual your avi looks totally beautiful...

Hey Katty!
Its good to hear that.
Your avii looks adorable ^^

Spirit Tiger my dear,

How are you honey? Great I hope?

Well when Cliff came up last Saturday late we didn't talk about anything personal...

Basically he got here, we had a drink, we played our online games, and then we went to bed...

Sunday morning when we woke up together at 7AM we both used the rr and then we climbed back in bed...

After a few minutes he turned over, faced me and said, "I guess I won't be leaving you now, after all!"

I said, "Oh why not?" hehehe

He said, "well I looked inside myself all night Friday night, I couldn't find a single reason to get rid of you."

Then after a few minutes he said, "you were right about a few things."

I said, "oh yes, what was I right about?"

He said, "I do care about/like you more than I like my friends."

He said, "I am still not ready to commit to you but I am willing to see where this is going."

So for now we are still seeing each other but he does like me more than just friends...

I mean there is more than just that, that we talked about and more that was said by both of us but for now we are just going to see what happens now that he can admit that he likes me at least a little bit...

(What he wants, is to see if I can break through the rest of the rock around his heart... He just doesn't know that is what he is up to...)

Since last Sunday he has only accidentally called me neighbor once... Things are changing in his head just very slowly...

We are back to talking a little bit most every day and most every night...

Well for now,
Smiles and Hugs honey!!!

well my thread was almost to the bottom of the second page and I still have things to buy and sell. One nice person is holding an expensive object for me to buy but she may get tired of waiting if I don't get some mene goldz made...

I know I'm meant to be sleeping right now, Katty, but it seems I'm to be sleep deprived today, as this toothache has decided to flare up again and the orajel is not doing it's thing. If it wasn't for the fact that I am not supposed to even be taking ibuprofen right now, I'd up my dose to at least one more round for the day. As it stands now, I'm taking three ibuprofen three times daily, and I'm not supposed to take any, according to my doctor, but I'll be damned if I'm going to stop taking it until the dentist does something that will make this pain go away.

Darn it honey,

That dentist better hurry up and get this taken care of... I understand tooth pain all to well...

Will everyone please click this:

Im well!
Things are all getting into place for germany and arpart from some family "blowups" everything has been going well.
Only 41 days until i leave!!

*glomps Katty* haven't seen you for a bit so I thought I'd come and stalk you

Katty Dances around the thread she has always wanted her own stalker... hehehe...

I was on Ruffles just a couple of hours ago.

Ava a little while ago...

Roli, Zan, WW, Cel, KofK, I have so many sites that I do some days I can't keep track of them all...

SpiritTiger,

I am jealous, I want to go to Germany...

I am still stressing about Cliff... I just can't make up my mind... Gosh some men can be idiots sometimes.

*Tackleglomps Katty, Woopdi, and Twilight*

Well, someone's been working some magic somewhere because my toothache is not nearly so severe now. It flares up every now and then, but other than that, it really hasn't been hurting. I just can't seem to get anything done now though. Well, today was really busy and tomorrow I have an appt in the middle of the day, and Friday I have another appt in the middle of the day...that one is my dental appt so I definitely won't be missing that. I'm still working on the graphics for my event thread on Ruffles, and I have got to finish getting game cards made. I need to make sure I have plenty of them for everyone who wants to play. We are thinking about taking the kids to an amusement park sometime next week, so that will be a full day lost there for working on this stuff. *Sigh* so much to do, so little time to do it in.

Hey everyone,

How's everyone doing? Great I hope...

Boo Hoo, one of my hatchlings died and one of my eggs died... I don't know why I am all of a sudden having that kind of luck with them...

Cliff and I have now gone around and around twice now...

He is now looking at a house and he wants my opinion on everything about the house.

It is a dream house and it is only 30 minutes or so from Cliff's current house and his job.

http://www.lunsfordrealestate.com/li...80402-453.html

I don't know if he is planning on buying it and renting it to me, buying it and living there himself, or buying it for him and I to live in...

Only god knows that one for right now...

you should put it in the front post of your shop. :)

i know i did that and mine hatched!