I laughed. His dorm was fine; actually better because he liked it there better. I leaned on him with my head resting on his shoulder and answered him with a yawn coming out "That works..." and i laughed a little. I didn't care if I would get in trouble; i mean girl's sneak in there all the time. I smiled as we walked in the night in which was shining because of the white moon. Then I wondered why the moon was so beautiful and why the people around it weren't. Aren't the stars supposed to be the pretty, nice ones. Of course, some of them are just aren't stars...But i still enjoyed this night even though we had just went up in the sky flying and almost got killed by an angel; it was the night I won't forget, and one I will remember.

I laughed as she yawned again, taking pleasure in her cool skin against me. We had become so comfortable with eachother over such a short period of time and it made me happy that she was enjoying it. I held her hand in both of mine, warming hers from the cold air. We reached the door of the dorm and I opened it slowly and checked noone was there. As we were inside, I thought we wouldn't be seen.
"James?" I heard a cheery voice say. "Heyy, what you doing?" his eyebrows raised, seeing Anna. Rob was on the sofa and he had got up to walk over. His grin spread as he looked between us two. I pulled Anna behind me. "Hey Rob" I cringed, but smiled at the boy who was in quite a lot of my classes. "Tired" I answered, plainly stating "Going up to bed". He laughed "Sure.." and winked at Anna. "Have a nice... sleep" he added, his eyebrows raising. And with a punch in my arm, he walked away. I looked back at Anna slightly embarrased.

We went into his dorm. My eyes popped slightly and I smiled softly when one of James friends approached us. I tried to hide my smile when James friend made a comment. I watched him leave and looked back at James, still hiding my smile. I looked around a little bit "Empty dorm..." I remember how packed the girl's dorm is at this time. Watching movies, laughing, gossiping. And I would be up in my room. I had never been in here and I was glad I came here before...before I wouldn't get the time to. It was nice to walk in here with James and only one of his friends. I mean if there was a huge crowd it would become a little...embarrassing. I was relaxed, relieved as well. Better than my dorm...I still held James hand and felt the currents between us move to make it soothing.

I nodded and bit my lip "Yeah.. they're probably wrecking the place upstairs though". I realised that it didn't seem the best place to sleep, but I counteracted "But my room's at the end, it's quieter". I shrugged and then turned towards the stairs where we made our way up. I slowed down when we got into the corridor. My teeth bit together, hoping this wouldn't cause loads of attention. The boys loved to make a big deal about things like this. It was so fun for them to terroise others for embarrassment. This was the only time I wished my room wasn't at the end of the corridor. As always, everyones doors were wide open. Music came out of different rooms and guys chatted with the tv on.

I smiled. "Awesome..." I thought about how quiet james was and how much he didn't socialize like other guys. I mean yeah he skipped classes and got mad sometimes but something about him was calm. We went in a bunch of music and TV noises came from all directions. It was the same as the girls dorm but girls love to laugh and giggle. When I saw his room at the end of the hall with all the other rooms in between, it made me think of when we were up in Angel community and we walked down the east gathering with everyone watching but then I figured, they are going to know someday. I looked down at the rooms and up to James as in a gesture like whats wrong...

I smiled back at her and then we made our way down the corridor. Loud calls were heard as the guys saw us going past. I head them comment alot of rude stuff, but mostly wolf whistles. How embarrasing. With any other girl, I probably wouldn't mind, but it was different with Anna. It was a real relationship. I hadn't been with a girl at this school and it came as a surprise to the guys. They came to the doors laughing and smiling. "Nice one James" they teased. I raised my eyebrows at them. This is one of the only times they make a big deal about me. I glanced at Anna to see if she was okay with it. I didn't want to say anything to them that would provoke more rude comments, so I just walked down the corridor without a word. I didn't usually speak to them anyway, they thought I was moody in the first place. I was just never interested. In fact, quite a few of them were intimidated by me. I was never nasty to them, they just found my behaviour edgy. I realised how much I'd changed after meeting Anna, though. I opened my door quickly and we stepped inside. My room wasn't as tidy as Anna's of course, but I didn't own alot of stuff.

I shyed away from the eyes of the guys. I heard whistles and things no girl want to hear. It was like a hallway of terror. James looked at me and I gave a small grin at him. We finally made our way down the hallway and into his room. He went in quickly and I went in right after him. His room made me grin wider. It was much like him, many things: all over that place, asking for more and so...homey, you could say. I looked over at James and saw his embarrassment. "Don't worry James...It's not the first time..." I smiled and looked around his room taking in its scent and actually feeling like where I belong. I sighed and looked back at him still grinning and smiling.

Once we were in my room, it was quieter and the guys went back to what they were doing before we arrived. I stood there and smiled at her looking at my room. What she said confused me though, "What do you mean?". It was hard for me to think right now. I was tired and getting irritable. I glanced at the cigarettes on the side and I realised how long I'd gone without one. My body wanted them like a magnet, but thankfully Anna didn't see me looking at them. I went over to my bed and took the clothes I had thrown on it before and put them on the chair. I remembered when I went to get changed quickly and how long ago it felt.

I sighed and watched him move his clothes here and there. Well it wasn't the first time. Like before, I have had a boyfriend in this school before, I've never been in the guys dorm but ex-boyfriend had many friends. "Um..." I said thinking about how I should say it. "I had a boyfriend and he had friends with rude mouths." I looked off not wanting to watch his eyes. i think I had told him before, yeah I think I did. When we had sat outside, skipping class and talking about each other...felt like it was d=generations ago. And the one we were living in was a new one.

"Oh" I responded. I was a little taken aback by the talk of an ex-boyfriend. Something in me felt a bit jealous and uneasy, but I tried to shake it off. However, it made me more irritable. I didn't want to say anything to Anna though, and I tried to stop my frown as I moved my things around my room, tidying with nervousness. As I was tidying, I slipped the a cigarette and lighter into my pocket when she wasn't looking. It would be hard to just change the topic now I felt uncomfortable and awkward, so I didn't know what to say. I cleared my throat "I'm, gonna go to the bathroom. You can.. uhh" I stuggled to think up the rest of my sentence. I turned to go out the door.

I sighed and watched James clean around. I watched him get all uncomfortable. And I gulped for some reason. He excused himself and it looked as if he was hiding something. i nodded and watched him back out trying to tell me something and couldn't get it out. I watched him suspiciously and said "Uh okay..." I looked away and sat down on my bed. Still looking around his room. I watched him leave and smiled at him.

I stepped outside closing the door gently behind me. I walked down the corridor, ignoring the teasing comments about my departure. I went down the stairs and ran my fingers through my hair and them rubbed my tired eyes. Once downstairs I leaned against the wall taking out the cigarette and lit it in my mouth. I inhaled feeling the smoke enter my lungs and closed my eyes. I exhaled slowly through my nose as I thought about how crazy today had been. I had kept my frustration and feeling of failure bottled up inside. I didn't want Anna to see me upset or annoyed. She wanted to enjoy her time, and I didn't want to waste hers. I took another drag of my cigarette trying to bury the feelings deeper. I was going to be the reason for her death and it felt like a planned murder. It felt strange thinking about such things in the farmiliar, common dorm rooms.

I sat on his bed and got up, I thought of just surfing around. I walked around and looked at his desk, just papers and homework. He didn't have much personal items. Just the typical clothes bed and desk. I sighed and watched a few guys pass James room and I looked up. They stopped to look at me and say things I completely ignored. They made whistling sounds and went away leaving a comment for me...'why would James leave a hot chic hangin'...' and the walked away and I leaned on the desk thinking with my bottom lip curled in. I bit on it for a while and read his papers. Just bad grades and interim's and such. I waited for James to return so I could ask to take rest or whatever...

I managed to bury away my anger and be relaxed by smoking. I opened my eyes though when I heard someone speak. "You can't smoke in here" I heard him say. "Get lost, Nathan" I replied immediately. I felt bad about it after, but he had fleed fast. After I finished my cigarette I chucked it into the sink of the kitchen, where the dishes still needed washing.
I went to the bathroom for real this time and washed my face. I examined my cuts in the mirror, realising there were more than I thought. Scratches made their way up my arms, made by the glass that smashed around me. I washed the blood off my elbow and leg, wincing as the cold water stung my gashes.
I made my way back to my room. What I really needed now was sleep. I managed to dodge the other guys and get back in my room seemingly unnoticed. I don't know what was wrong with me, but something had shaken me up. Maybe it had finally hit me that there was nothing more to do. Maybe the effect of the change was gradually starting to change my emotions. I gave a smile that wasn't too genuine to Anna and took one pillow off the bed. I tossed it to the floor and took my shoes off.

I watched his movements. We can't sleep together on his bed? We had on in my room. I reflectively asked him "What are you doing?" I noticed that he washed his blood off his elbow. Something abut him was different. And when he smiled at me something made me wonder. I was still leaning on the desk looking at him as my eyes moved with him. Something told e that this was all the time we had so make it last forever. Like I would disappear in the morning. I leaned off the desk standing there with my arms by my sides and I felt like I was in a desert and in a battle ring with nothing on me. I felt empty. Maybe the whole change and death thing was finally hitting me. I was smiling so much before but now I didn't feel like to...

I scratched my head as I looked down "Uhh..". I felt agitated and a little confused "I don't know" I said as rubbed my eyes. I shrugged "Where do you want me to go?". My face was still blank. I had thought that it would be best if I slept on the floor, but I realised Anna thought differently. I wanted to do what Anna wanted me to do, even though it might make me go crazy. I usually slept naked or with just my boxers on, but I just took my shirt off. However, regretted it when I caught a glimpse of my back in the mirror. A bruise was appearing down the middle, which made me remember hitting the stone cold floor. I was hot though, and taking my shirt off cooled me down a little. I put it on the chair and put my hands on my shoulders nervously.

I kept my mouth shut at first and then finally spoke. "On the bed..." I pointed to it a little bit. I noticed he liked to sleep probably half naked and maybe he didn't want me to feel uncomfortable but after all that had just happened to him, I don't think I want him to sleep on the floor with his bruises and cuts. I was okay sleeping on the floor. I didn't mind at the moment. I looked at his back at a glance and shyed away from it looking down. I felt guilty, I had done that to him. I didn't bother to tell him that I was going to sleep on the floor, instead I just picked up the pillow moving t a little further and layed down curling to the opposite side of James and wished he wouldn't object. I shut my eyes pretending I was sleeping.

I sighed and folded my arms as she layed down on the floor. I was too tired to argue with her and I knew how stubborn she could be. I was supposed to be the gentleman and let her take the bed, but this had happened before. She had shut her eyes, a clear protest that she was not going to move. I went over to the bed and picked up the covers, putting them over Anna. I didn't need them anyway; I was already hot. I looked at her lying down on her side, with adoration, though I felt very mixed up with how I felt. "Night" I said quietly, with somewhat of a sad tone. I went back over to the bed and laid down.

I peeked up with one eye to see him move to his bad with some what of a sad face. I frowned slightly and closed my eyes replying with a whisper "Night." and I closed my eyes. I wasn't cold in his room, all though the blanket was on me, I could feel the warmth of the room. I knew I was tired; my whole body relaxed as my eyes closed for real this time. All my worries went out. Now I was the one feeling down. I was the one actually scared of my death. I had to go back up there to die, won't I? Or has the Head thought of a more violent way to do this. I'll probably just drop dead. I twitched at the image that produced in my head cause of the thought. I squeezed my eyes tightly and then let them loose, drifting into a sleep which I was a little scared of, not being able to wake up the next morning...

I laid with my body turned towards Anna and it didn't take long for me to fall asleep. I usually had a hard time getting to sleep, but my body was worn out for today. However, I had to toss and turn to get comfy. I faced the wall and concentrated on my breathing, trying to clear my head. I drifted off to blackness, but then the confusion started. Emotions and thoughts raced through my mind, causing an uncomfortable and restless sleep. I was thankful that I didn't have a violent nightmare, but something about the crazy dream made it seem worse. Anna's face appeared alot in the dream, yet she never looked happy. Always hurt or scared. I realised after a while that her reaction was to me. I woke up to the light streaming through the window. Beneath me felt different and it took me a second to realise I was on the floor.

I slept with a some sort of a dreamless sleep. All though I had seen glimpses of the head and James and I. She was being nice, accepting us. Telling us, that I could stay alive and James wouldn't have to change. I was so happy that something had to ruin it. Maybe my death was meant to be, I was destined to be ruined like my family. I saw my self now in a dark corner with my face blank and wings down. I saw James walk toward and...transformed into some creature and aimed for my face. I twitched but no scream came out, and woke up with my eyes still closed. I could feel the light hitting my face and I felt some what hot. I turned to the side "Hm..." and my hand landed on something higher, more softer and sweatier.

A noise surprised me and a cool hand hit my chest lightly. I breathed heavily, seeing Anna by my side. My sleep had made me forget about the night before, and now it came flooding back to me. I relaxed and felt relieved inside that Anna was here and my dream wasn't reality. She didn't seem scared of me, but she had yet to wake up. I tried to shake the confusion out of my head. One thing that was confusing me was how did I get on the floor? I had one hand behind my head, my arm above me. My other hand, on the other side of Anna gently rested ontop of Anna's. I turned my head to the side, watching her come out of her sleep slowly. She looked beautiful as always with her face so peaceful. I was glad one of us had had a nice sleep.

I blinked a few times as the light was on my face, bringing me awake. I looked at at the person beside me...I then realized it wasn't a dream. I was still in sleep mode sort of. I managed to say "James..." I had forgotten that I had even slept in his room. I forgot almost everything. Everything came rushing back now. I smiled my warm smile at him. I was glad I had waken up this morning. A fresh new day to do things that I wanted to. I layed still curled on the floor with my hand resting on his chest. I slowly pulled it off leaving a trail of cold on his chest. I put my hand on the floor and looked at him as if it was something happy. And it was. I smiled warmly as for a nice morning. He didn't look to relaxed, my smile faded and my eyebrows creased in worry just a little bit.

I waited as she opened her eyes, preparing for any reaction. It felt nice when she murmered my name. The light shined on her face, bringing the colour out in her cheeks. As her eyes delicately flickered open a smile spread on her face. This surprised me a little, however I was very glad she was happy. Unfortunately she slid her hand off my chest, though it left a nice tingling cold trail across my skin. I wanted to smile back, but before I could make myself her smile fell. "You alright?" I barely said, my voice deep and croaky.

I smiled and nodded, a small nod. Something about his voice made my smile return. I didn't want to get up. I liked it down here. Instead I waited for him to respond or get up. I looked at him, deep into his eye, wanting to know what was wrong. Today was supposed to be a happy day, after all i had waken up. I watched the light bounce off his face, hitting against mine. He didn't look as tired but something told me he didn't have a nice sleep. I wonder how he would have felt if he slept on the floor, I was glad I had asked him to sleep on the bed. I held my small smile for him.