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Old 10-24-2009, 05:05 PM

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Old 10-24-2009, 05:10 PM

I got suspended in the 12th grade for 3 days, for skipping class. Kinda seems like a dumb punnishment since I didn't want to be there in the first place. Well, I tried to get out of it by telling the VP that my mom came to pick me up at teh end of lunch and just forgot to sign me out... so he said "I'll need your Mom to call me tomorrow and verify that." CRAP! So the next day I went to wait at the school bus stop and then hid when it came, walked back to my house without getting seen and called the VP. He bought it, ha! I didn't tell my mom because she would have skinned me alive and then wore my skin like a native american headdress before disposing of the rest of me. OMG. She still doesn't know to this day, it's been 7 years and I am an adult; married, 2 kids, tats... and I still haven't told her. I don't think I ever will!

But now you all know... so.. don't tell!

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Old 10-24-2009, 05:54 PM

Something that I want to say to my parents is that the reason why I want to move away from them directly after high school is because I am madly in love with the most amazing guy I have ever met and that he's going to be my future husband. He hasn't proposed to me yet but we have it all planned out and he said he wants to propose to me the day I turn 18. Which is next year at the end of summer.<3

I'm deathly afraid to tell my parents though since they refuse to let me move out til after I turn 18. And they said they don't want me to go to the college I want. Instead, they want me to go to a college less than 12 hours away. Preferably ASU. Which is only half an hour away. Which is a school I refuse to go to.

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Old 10-24-2009, 06:11 PM

When I was in 2nd grade, I stole a boat shaped pencil sharpener. It cost a quarter and I could have bought it, but this girl that I was with dared me to do it. Duh! I learned about peer pressure. I never did anything that dumb again. I still feel guilty about it. That thing broke the first time I tried to use it. They sold them at school for over a dollar. I'm glad I never convinced my parents to buy me one from school.

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Old 10-24-2009, 06:53 PM

I feel so lost lately. I've been procrastinating with school work, ( I'm smart, a bit lazy, but I keep on the honor roll.. ), I have little idea or plan for the future, and I understand that this is normal, and some people never find out, but it still bothers me. But what worries me the most ...

For a while now I've been manic depressive, or something. I'm not ' right. '
I feel like driftwood, just going through the motions of life, and I don't Live it, I just exist.. Lately I've been feeling like I shouldn't bother, and it will only get worse, and the responcibilities I'll have to have.. I've always been against this idea, but for a while now I've started to understand why some people would, and even just thinking about it.. I could never, and I really don't think I ever would. But even just thinking, to have that thought cross my mind, scares the crap out of me.

When I hang out with friends I'm fine, and it even lifts my mood and makes me feel like everything is going to be alright, but later, I fall into the same depressed mood..

Also, I miss my ex, it's been a while, and I know it's over and they've gotten over me. but it just bothers me. It was my fault we ended, and we were doomed from the start. The mental issue that developed from a doubt seems to still nag at me dispite me being okay with myself. I still would change if I could, but I don't want to enough.
I hate to complain, but I needed to say something.

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Old 10-24-2009, 06:54 PM

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Old 10-24-2009, 07:02 PM

@Saro, hey, you know, it's ok. We all feel like that sometime and at some point in our lives. But you're doing good! The first thing that should be done is to talk about it with someone, and you've chosen to talk about it openly to a lot of someones! You should feel good about yourself, because there is only one you in the whole world. And you are irreplaceable. That goes for everyone else who's feeling down.

What you need is just a change of pace, just something to get your mind moving again! Go somewhere new. Somewhere you don't know anyone and noone knows you. I dare you to meet new people. It's amazing, the little things in life just blow my mind. Like how people can be doing completely opposite things on other sides of the world and somehow, remotely have an influence on you. The butterfly effect, you know? Or how scientists just discovered 72 new planets in our solar system, but they are convinced that there is no intelligent life on any of them. Those kinda of things amaze me.

I was the same as you in school. I was smart, but I never really put forward the effort to go over the top. I did what I had to, I could have always done more, I just didn't. You have to find what makes you happy, what moves you, pushes you into a new direction. Something that takes you out of your comfort zone and forces you to change. I wouldn't suggest doing what I did (moved to italy 3 years then came back to the US to join the Army) but maybe something drastic enough that it would help you out.

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Old 10-24-2009, 07:09 PM

@Zephiyr
Thank you ^_^.
I had sort of been thinking of joining the airforce, as a cook, but eh, I just doing know what to do.. thank you for the advice, but I can't really go anywhere right now.. I don't have a car, and I'm in a pretty small town. I'm sure I could find some place I haven't been and just be especially social.

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Old 10-24-2009, 07:17 PM

My best friend and I have been RPing for about 2.5 years, now, and so this probably sounds stupid because a lot of people are posting here about things that...are more serious than RP. But this had me in tears just about 10 minutes ago, and then the other night I cried over it, too.

She and I have been RPing band-based, "fan-fictional" types of RPs since we first met. We have a couple that we've played from them meeting to getting married to adopting twins. The twins are now nearly 3 years old, and we love them desperately. But recently, things have been changing.

I feel like I'm imposing or like I'm bugging her when I ask her to RP, or that I'm just a nuisance. She's recently--within the passed...however many months--gotten into these RP rooms where she plays different characters and has to make avitars and all sorts of things for them, even as far as "applying" with the potential to get "Rejected" from the room. I was fine with it at first, but then it started to eat into the time she'd spend playing with me. It's even gotten to the point where I've waited close to 2 hours for her to respond to ANYTHING I've said, RP or not, because she's so engrossed in the rooms.

I'm fine with it for the most part. It's something she enjoys, and it's something that makes her happy. But the thing is that she's got these characters that are "subby," as in...sexually submissive. With me, I have submissive and dominant muses, and she has submissive and dominant muses. But since she's started playing in these rooms, my submissive muses have barely had ANY time to be...well, submissive, and I ALWAYS have to play my Dominant muses with her. Naturally, I'm a sub myself, so it's hard for me to easily play a Dom.

The thing is that she's got this character in these rooms that is a total @$$hole, and he is a submissive. But she tells me all the time about how Shannon plays this AMAZING sadistic-Dom, going as far as cracking my friend's muse's head against a wall, not caring, and getting mad when he wouldn't get up. She tells me that he loves it, and that she has fun with it, and that playing in the rooms is more fun than playing with me because all our muses do is snuggle and cuddle and sometimes have some drama and get the rating up to NC-17.

I'm happy that she has fun, but it makes me feel like because my muses are happier to be affectionate and be happy and get into some drama sometime, she has to go elsehwere to get what she wants...then shove it in my face like HERE I FOUND A BETTER DOM BECAUSE YOU SUCK AT IT AND DON'T DO IT RIGHT.

So yeah, it may sound stupid, but now I'm in tears again.

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Old 10-24-2009, 09:55 PM

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My best friend and I have been RPing for about 2.5 years, now, and so this probably sounds stupid because a lot of people are posting here about things that...are more serious than RP. But this had me in tears just about 10 minutes ago, and then the other night I cried over it, too.


If it hurts that much, it isn't stupid. No matter what other people think.


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I'm happy that she has fun, but it makes me feel like because my muses are happier to be affectionate and be happy and get into some drama sometime, she has to go elsehwere to get what she wants...then shove it in my face like HERE I FOUND A BETTER DOM BECAUSE YOU SUCK AT IT AND DON'T DO IT RIGHT.

So yeah, it may sound stupid, but now I'm in tears again.
Maybe you should share your feelings with your friend. We all have things we enjoy, but they shouldn't hurt those we love. Perhaps make dates to meet and RP together? Then you would have your time and she can go do what she wants.

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Old 10-24-2009, 09:59 PM

@ Sassadri, it's really nice when someone tells you that you're upset and it's not stupid, you know? My sister would just roll her eyes and tell me it's dumb.

I have tried talking to her about it, but I don't think she realizes how much it hurts. We were on webcam once, and she told me that when she mentioned the RP rooms, my whole face like "shut down" and she said that she "hated herself in that moment." She realized then how much it was upsetting me...but it's like it didn't even matter. We get one whole night just to the two of us every other Friday, so maybe in 2 weeks when I get that night, things will be better. =/

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Old 10-24-2009, 10:10 PM

@Miechan I don't think anyone should put down someone else's feelings. Emotions are one of those things that belong to each of us individually. Something that would make me giggle might make you run in terror. I wouldn't tell you it was dumb that you ran away. I might want to know why you ran away. I might giggle again, but not at you...only near you. ;) Anyway, if it is enough to make you cry then it should be taken seriously.

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Old 10-24-2009, 10:24 PM

This seems more like a chat thread than a "discussion" thread, so I am moving it to the Menewsha Nations:)

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Old 10-25-2009, 02:35 AM

Within the past few months, I think I have fallen in love with my best friend. I helped him when he needed my help when an ex of his (who was another one of my friends) broke up with him and kicked him out into the street. That night he slept in my bed at my house and neither of us are the type that can sleep well alone, so we held each other. It felt good and I watched him sleep, crying because I couldn't have him. Every time I am around him, I just want to hold him close and never let him go. I want to caress his face and know what it feels like to kiss him. He seems to be the perfect guy, says the things that I want to hear and sees beauty in ways that other guys don't. He talks with me the way that I want to be talked to and says the right things. I don't meet people very well, and he understands that completely, and does his best to work with me. He's smart, he's funny, and is everything that I wish for. Period. I cry when I think about him because I love him so much. He was there for me so many times as I was for him these past few months. He cried into my shoulder as I did his.

Problem is, he's my best friend, and I told him that to his face. I lied to him straight to his face. We feel like we can't have each other because we are such good friends but I know that I want a guy like him and I can't seem to find one who even has one trait of his. He is moving from my state, and I will never be able to see him again. I told him good luck, and that I hope things work for him... but I can't tell him how I feel because I feel it is so wrong and I feel so bad. I feel so alone... I don't know what to do and before I will ever get the courage to say anything, he will be gone.

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Old 10-25-2009, 03:30 AM

i have lots of things i've never told anyone. mostly because if people knew they would think about me completely differently or worry about me which i hate because no one should worry about me. that would be me creating a burden on people.
but yeah so i say this because i need a release right now because i've been thinking about it lately. i haven't told anyone about this. ever. so.... yeah... but please dont worry about me. i'm fine now.
but yeah so in 11th grade [three years ago] i tried to kill myself. i took 14 advil, all in two swallows. but my stomach was apparently insistent that i stay alive so i puked them all up and i only felt a little sick afterward and when my parents came home i just told my mom i had a stomach virus. she never doubted that. i was gonna try again the next day by jumping off a roof of an abandoned building i had found, instant death i thought i should've tried first, but i decided against it.
so yeah...menewsha, you are the first to hear my morbid secret.

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Old 10-25-2009, 07:26 AM

I'd like to type out something long here, and say all that stuff I've never said, but I can't. I can't say any of it. To anyone. Even if it's stupid, and wouldn't seem like a big deal to anyone else, I don't want to say any of it. I've said some of it in other places anyway, and I don't want to say anymore.
All I will say, is that I want out.
As far getting things off my chest, that's all I needed to say.

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Old 10-25-2009, 10:54 PM

Saying that you want out is a pretty big and bold statement which could mean any number of things! It could mean you are locked up, in prision and want out of there, it could mean that you are in a relationship that has gone sour and are wanting to be freed, it could mean that you are tired of life and are getting ready to take a long walk off the next short peir that you find! Hopefully, its not the last one. Relationships are easy. Either they work and you are loved, or you should take a step back and see that you are wasting your time giving your love to a brick wall and you might as well be in love with a brick wall as it stands. Now prision, well that's a different story altogether. I guess as for that, you;ll just have to be good and wait until your time is up... or maybe you mean you want out of the military because you found out that it's just a bunch of BS and people don't know how to run anything or take care of their soldiers *scowles* but we all know that's NOT true :sarcasm:

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Old 10-30-2009, 05:11 AM

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Saying that you want out is a pretty big and bold statement which could mean any number of things! It could mean you are locked up, in prision and want out of there, it could mean that you are in a relationship that has gone sour and are wanting to be freed, it could mean that you are tired of life and are getting ready to take a long walk off the next short peir that you find! Hopefully, its not the last one. Relationships are easy. Either they work and you are loved, or you should take a step back and see that you are wasting your time giving your love to a brick wall and you might as well be in love with a brick wall as it stands. Now prision, well that's a different story altogether. I guess as for that, you;ll just have to be good and wait until your time is up... or maybe you mean you want out of the military because you found out that it's just a bunch of BS and people don't know how to run anything or take care of their soldiers *scowles* but we all know that's NOT true :sarcasm:
First of all, are you stalking me? O.o
If you are I'm flattered. Don't worry about the meaning. What it means only matters to me. I just said what I don't mind saying, because it's not terribly important to me whether anyone understands it or gets it.
It's still true. and I will persist in being cryptic.

 


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