God, I don't know what to do. It's about my little sister, you see.

First of all, she's twelve, so she blows everything out of proportion.
But she's recently admitted to me that she's been cutting herself. She told me that there is apparently a voice in her head named Emily that told her to cut herself...
I don't think that there's REALLY a voice in her head, but still.

She's apparently going to see the school therapist. I told her to just smile and nod her way through the appointment, because I'm an idiot. That's what I've always done because I've always thought therapy was useless... but that was a stupid fucking move, she needs help! What was I thinking!?

The worst part is I somehow put the idea into her head that life is meaningless and not worth living. I don't remember what I said, but I DIDN'T MEAN IT LIKE THAT! So now she's got the idea of suicide in her head... she said she definitely wouldn't kill herself, but still. And she's made it clear that she has no intention of stopping cutting herself.

I feel absolutely awful. Every last bit of this is my fault; I was the one who drove her to cut the first time because I was mean to her, I was the one who gave her the idea of cutting (through my setting a bad fucking example), and now I've just convinced her to cut more! I don't want to see her have to go through all the shit that's happened to me too, she drives me nuts but I still love her!

I'm torn. I promised I wouldn't tell my mother about any of this (my mother cares very much, but really doesn't know how to handle this...) and I want to keep her trust. I want her to feel like she can come to me, y'know? But at the same time she needs help before things get too bad, I can't help her on my own. We've already proved that I just fuck things up. I just want what's best for her, but I don't want her to feel betrayed. Having no one to talk to when you're in that state is the worst...
What to do?

If you couldn't read all that, tough fucking luck. No spoons for you :\

You would be surprised by what your parents can handle. You need to get the rest of your family involved and knowing about this. Possibly even the proper authorities so that they can get her help. She may be schizophrenic if she is hearing voices with names associated with them. To cure that, she needs to have the proper prescribed medication. Most important the rest of your family needs to know so she can be helped properly.

MOST IMPORTANT OF ALL. You need to support her and quit blaming yourself...it will only hinder the situation.

Merry part, and may your family be blessed and reman in best health possible.

First of all, your sister is in desperate need for help. That should be the priority. Forget about yourself and think about her. Put yourself in her situation. If you had an older sister and you were going through a serious problem you'd want her to help you out.

Do tell your parents, at least let them be aware of what is happening. Or tell someone you trust or even call one of those helplines. I did that when my uncle would beat me cousin up and I was really scared; the helplines are really good and a great way to get advice.

Good luck with your sister and all the best x

I think it's better to tell your mother and let your sister seek professional help before it's too late.

Man that sucks :(
Well, I had a similar problem. One of my little sisters was cutting. I tried to talk to her about it (I too had set a great example -.-) but she withdrew instantly and refused to say anything about it. Told my mom, she got it taken care of.
Mom sorta figured how to deal with it after my stress cutting.
Just try and breathe, talk to your mom, have your mom talk to her. It is hard to deal with, yes. But it's not something that can't be overcome.
I wish you luck with this hun.

I think that the best thing to do in this situation is to seek professional help for your sister before ITS TOO LATE. Sure, telling your mother about the situation may give your sister the idea that she can't trust you, but once you guys get her some counseling, and she starts to get better, then she will end up thanking you in the end. ^_^ Basically, sit your mom & your sister down one day, and just simply talk to them about whats going on. Tell them how you feel. Tell you little sister that the things you told her, you didnt really mean them that way she took it. and for your mom, tell her that it would be best if you & her seek counseling for your sister. Your sister may be mad at first, but she will appreciate you once she gets her life back on track. Trust me, i should know b/c i was the little sister in a situation like this quite some time ago. Things will get worse before they get better, so hopefully everything will work out well for you & your family!! GOOD LUCK! <3

Well, I did talk to my mother about it, but my sister basically went to the therapist and told her everything. The therapist got involved and she's in the psych ward now.
At this point, we're about 90% sure this is all a big plot to get attention. I still feel guilty, of course, but she's going to get help now... I guess. :\

But thank you to everyone who helped <3

I have to ask before I comment- did your sister ask to be committed? Or was it the therapist's idea?