I'm sorry Linnea, I just sent you a really really long message explaining the situation thats driving me nuts right now...its so frustrating to feel like I'm being pulled in a million different directions :(

the llama is eating AND drooling!!! kittehMEW made it for me special!!

i am reading it now, imagination... no worries! :hug: here is another hug... or i could just hit you with a feeesh :feesh:

Sorry every one I am on a long distance phone call. I keep getting called away tonight.. I just love planing weddings!!

How are you all!!

Imagination you look VERY familure.. Were you some one I knew before on here?

I have a picture of Lorena and I eating Facade that Kitteh drew. xD

oh i saw that one, twisted! it was fabulous! kitteh is super funny!!

welcome back, anjiu! you are a wedding planner now too? you are just a renaissance woman aren't you!? hehe

I used to be a lot of things...none of which I'm proud of.

Linnea: I know, right? 8] Imagination: Don't feel bad, you aren't the only one.

you may be a lot of things, imagination, but at least you aren't totally nudie! ;)
and i am sure there is something you are proud to be

*drools on Linnea's head* :drool:

Looks can be deceiving...you never really know what a person may or may not be battling behind whatever mask they are hiding behind...

*looks up* umm.... i think you might want to get a bib, twisted... ew slimy! haha i just like the llama drool!

so very true, imagination... i guess we just have to have faith that not everyone is scum or a creep, etc etc

Oh, I see how it is. Favoritism. :talk2hand:

Linnea,

I have not been called that in years, yes I am sort of an all around party planer.. I am not planing her wedding tough just helping her with little things. I am however planing her bachorlet party, and bridal shower. XD


Imagination, it will work out. I hope you were able to clear things up at least a little with what ever hapned.

Its just...been a really really bad day...I accidentally viewed my ex girlfriends page that broke up with me for no reason February 18th...and got ahold of her even though I saw her status saying how she was happily taken...and I made the mistake of talking to her for 6 hours tonight even though I havent gotten over her and still feel very strongly towards her...well in the process of her talking to me for 6 hours she ignored her boyfriend the entire time...and ironically he broke up with her because he assumed she was talking to me...which ended up being true...so after we got off the phone...within 10 minutes she called me back crying even though it was sadly how she made me feel when she broke up with me...and I let myself be put into that awkward position of being the friend that listens even though I care about her deeply and still want to be with her...even though I know the ship has long sailed...and its extremely difficult because she occasionally slips and goes back to talking to me like we are together again...and I can't bring myself to walk away...because of how I care about her...even though it hurts to be involved with her again...knowing that today when I asked her if she was happy with him she said yes...and that she would choose him over me...yet she and him fight consistently...he doesnt trust her, treats her like shit...and is 4 years older then her and in the Marines...he ships out for 14 months come May 3rd...yet she is giving him everything and threw me away for him...She and I were together for 2 and a half months...and after 2 weeks with this new boyfriend...shes already saying she loves him/has strong feelings for him...and its really really heartbreaking and nerve racking to be in this situation...even though I know I'm farrr too nice to walk away...so I'm being used like a doormat...and a rebound...until things even out for her. It reminds me of the song Today by Gary Allen...and its just about drove me nuts and my mind is going in a million directions but I don't know what to say or do because I just feel so damn alone and unwanted...along with loneliness. I hate feeling vulnerable like this...:(

Sorry for the oddness of my posting...this is why I'm acting the way I am ._.

@anjiu: it sounds like a good time! i bet it'll be great fun! :eager:

@twisted: well... i guess if you were eating something sweet and you had candy drool, i might deal with it hahaha

@imagination: i am writing my reply to you as we speak... don't think i ignored your message :)

I don't think you ignored me...your a better person then that from what I've gathered..

Imagination: I hope things straighten out between you and her and she finally sees what's right for her.

Linnea: *eats candy then drools*

thanks, imagination *blushes*

NOW you can drool all over my head, twisted... yum!..........(just thinking about that happening in real life kind of grosses me out... a lot :rofl:)

OH DRAMA LLAMA~!

Imagination, I don't know you (are you new?), but I'm Kitteh, and I wholly understand your situation. It's awful to go through, and in my position, the best choice /I/ could make was to walk away, no matter how hard it seemed. I'm not saying that is what you should do, but it is an option... sometimes people are best left, and if it's meant to be, it'll come back. Cliche, yes. But there is a reason that sayin' has stuck around.

Thats the thing...and the problem...I want things to work out between us...even though I know I don't trust her...and won't ever trust her again...it was a mistake to message her in the first place...I jumped the gun with the whole jealous/hurt ex side...and when she and started talking on the phone I shouldnt have let things come this far...now I know its too late and almost impossible for me to walk away from her...because a part of me is screaming to take this chance...even though every instinct and gut feeling is screaming for me to run...but I can't...and the depression and everything else I had put off when she broke up with me...is being recycled and reused...plus her comments about her boyfriend..and after comparing me to him...and speaking so highly of him...really was shredding what little comfort I had walked away from the entire situation with..

good evening, kitteh!! great advice!

Walking away is going to be, by far, one of the most difficult things you can do. Trust me. I walked away from a boyfriend of three years, he told me it was over, and I wanted nothing more than to beg for him back, and give into everything, but I didn't. I made myself walk away, I don't even let myself think about him, unless it is generally something negative. And all I can remember are the bad times, so it makes it easier to not care about anymore.

KITTEH!!! :glomp: Linnea: It would be gross in real life. xD

TWISTEDDD~! -gnaws on antenna-

I tried for a week to get back with her when she broke up with me with an email of all things...and she never once returned my calls..and ignored me altogether. Then today when asked about the situation with her now ex boyfriend...she put it off on me saying that if I had only called her 2 weeks ago, or even one week ago..that she would have happily thrown him away for me...the problem with thinking about only the bad things...is that the relationship was seemingly perfect. She and I had never fought, we never had trust issues...we were both happy...so I thought. Then I was blindsided with the email and never had closure until today about what happened...and everything is hitting me wayyy too often all at once..